WHAT THE FUCK DO YOU MEAN ZAYN IS LEAVING THE BAND NO THIS IS NOT REAL NO I DON'T WANT TO BELIEVE THIS I HAVEN'T GONE ALL BANANA ABOUT ONE DIRECTION LATELY BUT GOSH ONE DIRECTION MADE MY TEEN YEARS, LIKE THE LITERAL FOUNDATION OF MY COMPLICATED TEENAGE HEART AND NOW ZAYN JUST LEAVE I RESPECT AND I KNOW DEEP DOWN THAT THE PERKS OF BEING FAMOUS IS NOT ALWAYS PLEASANT AND ZAYN IS A VERY REALISTIC PERSON SO HE CHOSE TO DO WHAT HE FEELS LIKE IS RIGHT AND I RESPECT THAT BUT DEEP DOWN IN ME, MY HEART, MY SOUL, MY VEINS, I'M FALLING APART THEIR MUSIC HAS GOTTEN ME THROUGH THE EMO PHASE OF TEENAGE YEARS, THEIR VOICES WERE THERE WHEN I FELT SO LONELY ALTOGETHER. AND I HAVE CRIED AND I HAVE CRIED MY EYES OUT WHEN I LISTENED TO THEIR MUSIC AND I HAVE HAD THE WIDEST SMILE ON MY FACE WHEN I LISTENED TO THEIR MUSIC. THIS FEELS LIKE A PART OF MY EXISTENCE IS DYING. HE IS CONSTANTLY TIRED, HE ALWAYS STAY HOME. TOURS AFTER TOURS AFTER TOURS, INTERVIEWS, PHOTOSHOOTS AND PAPPARIZIES SO OF COURSE ZAYN IS FUCKING TIRED. WE HAVE ALWAYS KNOWN HIM AS THE "MYSTERIOUS" ONE SO IT IS OBVIOUS THAT MYSTERY WANTS TO STAY MYSTERIOUS. HE DOESN'T WANT HIS LIFE STORIES TO BE PUBLICIZED, HE DOESN'T WANT PEOPLE GUSHING OVER WHAT WAS SUPPOSED TO BE PRIVATE ABOUT HIM, HE DOESN'T WANT HIS FREEDOM TO BE SOMETHING THAT OTHER PEOPLE ARE MAKING MONEY OUT OF . HE HAD HAD ALL THE EXCITING, CRAZY, UPS AND DOWNS MEMORIES THAT HE WILL KEEP INSIDE HIS HEART FOR THE REST OF HIS LIFE ABOUT THIS BAND, ABOUT THIS AMAZING JOURNEY WITH DIRECTIONERS ALL AROUND THE WORLD AND NOW HE WANTS TO GO HOME, I KNOW IT, I KNOW IT ALL. BUT WHY DOES IT STILL HURT SO FREAKING MUCH I HAVE ALWAYS WISHED AT 11:11 THAT SOME DAY, SOME DAY I WILL GO TO A ONE DIRECTION CONCERT, I HAVE ALWAYS SAID I WOULD GO TO A ONE DIRECTION CONCERT FIRST WHEN PEOPLE ASK ME WHAT I WOULD DO IF I HAD HAD A LOT OF MONEY. I WOULD SOMETIMES THOUGHT OF MEETING THE BOYS IN PERSON AND MY HEART WOULD DO MULTIPLE BACK FLIPS AT THE THOUGHT OF IT. YOU GUYS, THE FANS THAT ARE FORTUNATE, THAT ARE LUCKY, THAT ARE BLESSED TO GET TO MEET THE 5 BOYS, TO GET TO GO TO THEIR CONCERTS WITH ALL 5 OF THEM, YOU GUYS SHOULD HOLD TIGHTLY ON TO THAT ONE OF A LIFETIME MEMORY BECAUSE THE OTHERS, ME, ARE NEVER EVER GOING TO BE ABLE TO EXPERIENCE WHAT YOU GUYS HAVE FELT, HAVE SEEN, HAVE LISTENED. STARTED WITH THE 5 BOYS ON THE STAIRS FROM X-FACTOR NOW THE WORLD'S BIGGEST BOY BAND, I HAVE ALWAYS FEEL PROUD THAT I'M A TINY PART OF ALL OF THIS, I'M A DIRECTIONER, I HAVE ALWAYS FEEL SO DAMN PROUD, I HAVE ALWAYS LOVED THE BOYS WITH EVERY BIT OF BLOOD RUNNING IN MY VEINS. I HOPE ZAYN IS HAPPY WITH THE DECISION HE MADE, AFTER ALL, I RESPECT HIS DECISIONS IN LIFE. AND I PRAY TO GOD, ZAYN'S ABSENCE WOULDN'T MAKE THE BOYS TOO DEPRESSED, I PRAY TO GOD THE BAND WOULDN'T FALL APART AFTER THIS ZAYN LEFT BUT WE DIRECTIONERS WILL ALWAYS CALL OUT THE 5 ADMIRABLE NAMES THAT HAVE LIT UP OUR WORLD. THANK YOU ZAYN, FOR THE CRAZY ROLLERCOASTER THAT IS LIFE :) <3