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Change

Being nonexistent To being dead Before being born

For someone who walked In the shadows Who hid behind masks And fooled everyone around Believing that I was a person And not a prisoner of my own demons I chose no reason to continue

An end for a hope of relief Began a struggle for breathless peace

As I was introduced To something beyond The comprehension of mankind

Lost I was no longer A journey I yet to witness Searching for the road That leads to my purpose He knows is greater

Realising along I am alive

k.s. 2017.02.05.

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Visit

Sunrise they came Glaring at me Their whispers Screaming in my head

Shut eyes Failing to be An escape

Decreasing distance They reached and beg Slowly they fade

A glimpse Fear

k.s. 2017.01.30.

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Trying

I'm sorry Sorry that I'm not who  you want me to be. I am a complete fuck up I screw up a lot of things in life. I let opportunities past and never saw them again.

I think a lot. Things. Bad things. Things like hurting myself. Fading away. So instead, I medicate. Not the prescription you get  from doctors. I talk about the chemical substance from mother earth. The kind of things you get from the streets. I am not sober. And I don't know when I will be. Or if I will ever be.

I can not change who I am. Living the life under a mask, that I can not do. But distracting my mind through whatever means. That I can do. Because I do not want to be that smoke that slowly disappears in the air. I wanna be the arms to keep you warm. At least while I am here. Here with you.  Fighting this battle with my demons was never easy. But I'm trying. I'm trying because I know Nothing is forever. We are bound to die. Eventually. But I want to be there for you. You didn't have to feel the same way. But I will show you nonetheless. It's hard. Hard to have so much shit going on. They clash in my head like hammers on nails. But being with you, there is none of that. Just you.  And when you're not with me I go back to fall in the pits Fighting just so you will have no reason to think that it's your fault. It isn't your fault.  It is mine. My thoughts, my lungs, my blade.. Please understand I'm trying. If you can't then I say thank you thank you for accepting me. As me. Even for a brief moment. No one else has.

No one will.. k.s. 2014.11.01

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Illusion By: anotherpoemfiller A response on Salvador Dali's "Swans Reflecting Elephants"

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A parody of Shakespeare's sonnet, "Shall I Compare Thee to a Summer's Day"

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Waiting

Lent a jacket Walked out Into the cold Under the rain

Strolled under Opened umbrellas Breathing out mist Grasping for air

Found a ride Gave a hug Buzz me when You reach home

Hours past Yet to receive One message "I'm home"

Wondering What could What might What if

Here I sit Caged with Thoughts of Not knowing

k.s. 2013.09.29.

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Thank You

for what?, she said. thank you, I repeated

for telling telling what? telling me about them

the sound of men instruments, and melody.

sad music can relate nostalgic memories

the past with her remembered not forgotten

reminded by words of songs been sung

thank you, I repeated as i doze deep sleep

k.s. 2013.09.18.