#anvindr

[my-zuniverse]

My new oc Vin for a group on Insta! His references and a little chibi for Valentine’s 💘

[lns-dagedorks]

My dearest Renna,

I just crossed the Tevinter border. Well, I sneaked across the border is more accurate. More than ever I wish I no longer had my Vallaslin. I’ve been putting bandages on my face to hide them. Did you ever decide if you were going to have your Vallaslin redone or not? Don’t let them pressure you into anything you don’t want to do. Mythal can already control me so I don’t think that part really matters. It would be a ‘fuck you’ to Solas either way.

I wish you were here. Being away from you for so long feels wrong. I don’t think we’ve been separated for so long since we met. You truly are the best sister anyone could have wished for. Once I find my Father, for I do believe he might be alive, I will have to bring him to you so he can meet the reason why I survived until now.

Did I leave you too soon? Keeper and the rest wanted me gone and I think that made me leave before I should have. I can come back whenever you need me to, Renna. No one is as important to me as you are. I hope you know that.

Tevinter is very strange. But there isn’t blood flowing through the streets or lines of slaves in chains. Maybe I just haven’t gotten to that part yet. It didn’t occur to me until I got here that I have no idea what part of Tevinter Dorian lives in. Or how to send this letter to you when I’m trying to avoid everyone. When I get to Dorian I’ll send this to you. Until then, I’ll do my best to stay safe.

Love,

Anvindr

[lns-dagedorks]

Ma vhenan,

It's been almost three years, yet not a day goes by where I do not think of you. Nothing here is going well at the moment, and I think the Inquisition will soon be forced to disband. No one is happy with us.

I don't know what I'll do once this is over. I hope Renna will return to our her clan and be with her family. I have no desire to return, nor do they want me back. Maybe I could finally find out what happened to my father, but that would lead me to Tivinter, and I don't think I could manage to be so close to you and not see you.

From your letters I assume you would welcome me, but maybe not in the way I would want. How does a single shem so far away twist my head and my heart so? You'd probably say that it's because you're the most handsome man to ever grace Thedas with your presence. And I'd roll my eyes, telling you to be serious, but pointedly not disagreeing.

Maker, do I miss you.

I think seeing you even as just a friend would be worth it.

Ar lath ma, vhenan,

Anvindr

[lns-dagedorks]

Dear Dorian,

Mei can no longer write. I’ve been writing all of her conispondance for her, which you must have noticed because our handwriting is so different. I think the anchors are killing her and Renna. I have no idea what to do. At this point I'm afraid I'd stoop to blood magic to help them. Please tell me what to do.

We miss you,

Anvindr

[lns-dagedorks]

Dear Yevana,

I am worried about Renna. I know she's written to you about what is going on but I fear she is not telling you everything. She hardly eats and does not get much sleep because of the pain the mark brings her. Mei (the other inquisitor) is also suffering such, so it must be the mark. I know you have a duty to the clan, but as Renna’s mother, I think you need to come see her. I think she might be dying.

Please,

Anvindr

[lns-dagedorks]

Dorian,

I constantly find myself torn between wishing you were here and wishing I was where you were.

[lns-dagedorks]

Dear Dorian,

I hate having to try and guess your feelings through just your words. It is easy to write things that you do not mean or leave things out that your tone or body language would have given away. I've never really had someone to write to before and I am unsure what the fact that you are writing to me at all means. I sincerely wish that I had the courage to ask just before you left what I meant to you, but you and I were both awkward about the whole thing and I know there was something more that you wanted to say? I should have stopped you and asked. Maybe one day I will have the courage to ask all these questions I have for you, but it feels wrong to ask them in a letter.

Love,

Anvindr

[lns-dagedorks]

Dorian,

You keep addressing me as Amatus; did I misunderstand the meaning? what exactly am I to you?