growing up as a brown girl with undiagnosed autism and adhd really is crazy because there were enough things about me that warranted enough concern for me to have been seeing therapists weekly since i was 6 years old and looking back it was always so clear what My Problem Was but because i was a girl i've just been put through diets and antidepressives and antipsychotics because for some reason Losing Weight was the answer to my problems (????????????????) & when i got to high school & couldnt for the life of me get good grades even in my best subjects i was Lazy & Stupid and treated as such by most of my (male) teachers that i just have such a weird relationship with education & my own self worth because of all of it that years later i'm still trying to convince myself that the treatment i got was unfair & the things said to me aren't true when it's like. still so fresh in ur mind idk. especially when as an adult you still dont get any kind of opportunity to work & Be Yourself because accessibility is a pipe dream in most places and the ~nicest~ places you can find there will still be a motherfucker calling you the r slur 😓
