dozing off on the other’s shoulder while sitting on the couch during a lazy afternoon; soft noises coming from the tv can barely be heard over the other’s quiet snores. when he’s asleep on your shoulder, you sometimes will brush your fingers through his hair; a silent comfort you know he loves. when you fall asleep on his shoulder, without fail, you always feel a gentle kiss on your forehead followed by a soft whisper; “i love you” <3
☆ taste testing!
he’d be cooking dinner for the two of you before calling you over to come join him in the kitchen. he’d ask you to taste test whatever it is he was making, and every single time you’d instantly crave more. levi had such talent in the kitchen and you wish you did too. the thought of having him taste test something you made for him brought you joy. however levi always argued this, constantly telling you how happy it made him that you enjoyed his cooking <3
Summary: Levi struggles to admit his feelings to Reader, unsure if she feels the same way.
LevixFem!Reader
Warnings: Light grinding, Levi being cute
Word Count: ~ 2,700
Y/N walked back to her door, barely making it to her bed after Levi left, before hearing another knock.
“Levi?” She was surprised. Shit! She’s surprised I’m back. “Checking in on me again?” She smiled.
He wanted to kiss her. God, did he want to kiss her. He held his gaze for a little too long because she started to look confused.
“C—can I come in?” He asked. Damn it, stop stuttering!
“Sure.” She smiled and move out of the way for him to walk in. He shuffled to the wall next to her dresser away from her bed, knowing that was where she would sit. She sat on the bed and he watched her, still saying nothing. She looked around her room, not knowing what he was doing.
“Uh…” He made a noise and looked to the floor.
“So… you’re here.” She pressed her lips together and her eyes were shifting again, looking for any reason that he might be there. Without him telling her, she had no idea, but he still didn’t speak. “Do you want me to guess why you’re here?”
He closed his eyes and took a breath. “I really have no idea what I’m doing.”
“What you’re doing? With what?”
“I…uh…” He closed his eyes and shook his head. This was already failing. He felt stupid and completely out of his element. This isn’t the kind of thing he normally did. His heart was beating so quickly in his chest, he could feel it in his ears. His mouth was dry as he swallowed the lump in his throat.
“Is there something you’re trying to say?”
“Y—yes.”
He looked around the room, shifting his weight around, becoming increasingly aware of the fact that this was the first time he wasn’t sure what to do with his hands. He normally held them at his sides, but they felt heavy, almost pulling at his shoulders. He moved them to his pocket, but it felt too stiff so he moved one to her dresser, propping up his head on his elbow. I look like an idiot. He dropped his hands down, holding them at his sides awkwardly.
“Why don’t you come sit here.” She could see how uncomfortable he was, moving around to find a comfortable spot. He looked like a little kid trying to ask his mom to play outside and she tried not to smile at him. Instead she stood up, grabbing his hands and pulling him to the bed.
Seeing her sit there in front of him made it both easier and harder to speak. This isn’t anything new. This is Y/N. You’ve spoken to her so many times. Don’t be stupid. He looked at her, wanting to speak, but still not sure what to say. Her eyes were so forgiving, just looking at him and trying to encourage him to speak and he sat there like an idiot.
“I…um…It’s…” He chuckled at his stupidity. He took another deep breath.
“Are you okay? I’ve never seen you like—”
“Maybe Hange was right.” The words poured out of his mouth.
“Hange was right?” She repeated.
“God, don’t make me say it.” He groaned, putting his face in his hands and resting them on his knees. How was this so hard for him. He wanted to bang his head against the wall. He wasn’t good at this sort of thing. Y/N is so smart, why does she have to be so dumb right now?
“Levi, whatever you want to say, just say it.” She reassured him. “It’s me you’re talking to.”
She was right, it was only her, but it wasn’t making it any easier for him knowing that because it may just be her, but shewas the reason he was feeling like this. She was the reason he couldn’t get out of his own head and tell her. She was the reason he couldn’t focus on anything because every time he looked into her eyes he saw understanding and kindness and her quiet strength that made him melt into putty. He could feel his cheeks getting warm the more he thought about her.
She was starting to get nervous. She had never seen Levi acting like this and she was worried this was bad, something he didn’t want to say to her, but he needed to say. What if she wasn’t doing her job well? What if her flirting had been unprofessional and he told Erwin and now she was getting kicked out the survey corps? So many things ran through her head and she was getting impatient waiting for Levi to tell her the bad news.
“Hange was right that…” He started. “Maybe we should…”
He started speaking with his hands. He never spoke with his hands and it was giving Y/N so much anxiety. She knew he would never want to hurt her and if he was trying to sugarcoat the fact that she might be fired, he was doing it with the best intentions, but it was killing her.
“Maybe we could…”
Could? Could calm down? Could quit? Could what?!
“…try… “
Try being more professional? Try what?
“…dating.” …What?
Y/N’s eyes widened and Levi caught it.
“I knew it.” He complained. “It was stupid. I shouldn’t have said anything.” He stood up. “Ugh, I was dumb to think—”
“Levi, stop!” She pulled his arm, but he kept pulling away, turning his body, refusing to look at her. “Levi! You’re acting… like… a child!”
She kept trying to pull him, but ultimately thought it would be easier to let him pull away. She kept hold of his hand, but when he tried to leave, she grabbed his shoulders and pushed him against the wall, he looked down, unable to look her in the face.
“Please, Y/N.” He pleaded. “Just let me… I just feel so… God, it was such a—”
“It’s not a stupid idea.” She interrupted. He looked up at her, his cheeks decorated with a bright pink flush. “It’s not stupid.”
He relaxed his shoulders and she let go of him, going back to sit on the bed and hoping he would follow her.
“Then you…were y—were you thinking…”
“This is definitely a side of you I’ve never seen before.” She smiled.
“Shut up.” He smiled back, moving to sit next to her. “So it’s not a bad idea?”
Y/N shook her head. Levi looked away from her and down at his hands. He couldn’t even describe how he was feeling. Anxious was definitely up there though.
“So, what are we… What will we be to each other? Are there certain steps we have to…?” He stopped talking as he watched her smile grow at his question. “I don’t… I’ve never…”
“How about you decide. You tell me what we are.” She replied leaning back on her arms.
He knew what he actually wanted to tell her. He wanted to tell her that she was everything to him. One of his best friends. That she was one of the only things he would give everything up for. That his heart had started beating quickly every time he sees her and he doesn’t know why, but he wants to figure it out.
She could see how overwhelmed he was just by looking at his face. He got lost in his own thoughts and probably wasn’t going to come out of there for a while so she spoke first.
“I care about you Levi,” she started, “I value you as a friend. I don’t know what I would do if I lost you. You’ve been here for me in a way no one else has and in a way I didn’t even know I needed. You’re someone in my life that I could never replace.”
Levi watched her as she spoke.
“You’re also one of the only people I can tolerate being around for more than 20 minutes.” She smiled at him and he laughed lightly at her using what he said to her. “I have a lot of respect for you, but these last few weeks have been making me think about what Hange said as well.”
His heart skipped a little. Did she just say…
“Maybe Hange knows something we don’t.” She held his hand. He looked down at their hands then intertwined their fingers. She smiled at him and he smiled back. “Let’s see where it goes.”
Y/N started leaning closer to him. He froze and the closer she got, the heavier his breathing got. She was so close to his face now.
“Levi?” She stopped moving forward.
“Yeah?”
“You’re going to break my hand.” He looked down and realized he had been squeezing her hand so tightly his knuckles were white. He quickly released it.
“I—I’m sorry.” He stood up, walking to the wall and back a couple times. “I don’t really… I mean, I’ve never been in a relationship, so all the things that come with it. Like…”
“Kissing.”
“Yes… kissing. I don’t have much experience with it.” He stopped pacing and stood in front of her.
She leaned her arms back on the bed.
“Well we don’t have to kiss. There are other things we could do. You seem pretty okay with holding hands. There’s hugging, or even just sitting closely to each other. We already eat meals together so that one is good. Eventually there’s sex, but without kiss—”
A high-pitched noise escaped Levi’s mouth and his eyes went wide. He quickly slammed his mouth shut.
“What was that?” Y/N teased, chuckling at him.
“Nothing.” He answered quickly, moving over to the wall, resting his head against it.
“Levi, we don’t have to do any of that stuff if you don’t want to.” She reassured him.
“I want to though. I really do.” He took a deep breath.
He started rubbing his nail against the wall, trying to get himself together and Y/N stood up, wanting to help him relax.
“I’m sorry. I’m not confident with any of this.” He whispered.
“You’re just nervous.” She comforted him, not wanting to walk any closer in case it would make him feel weird. “That’s not bad.”
“But I do want to kiss you. I do.”
“Do you want me to help you?” She asked quietly. “I mean, you are dealing with a rather dominant woman.”
He laughed in agreement.
“I don’t mind helping you along.” She continued. “It will be more of a push than guidance. And if I’m being honest it will be more of a shove than a light push. I’ve never been very gentle.”
He laughed again and nodded at the wall.
“Well first, close your eyes.” She started.
He stayed where he was, standing up straight and following what she said.
“Now take a deep breath.” He did.
“Another.” He did.
“One more.” He did what she said, feeling a bit calmer.
“You can open your eyes.” Her voice was right in front of him.
He opened his eyes and looked at her. She was so close to his face now, her skin looking as soft and smooth as it always did. He could see how the moonlight painted shadows on her face and it showed how high her cheekbones were. Even in the near darkness, her eyes still looked so beautiful.
She moved her hand down his arm until she was holding his hand. Her other hand moved away some of the hair in his eyes and then lightly brushed across his cheek. His eyes fluttered closed at her touch and he took a deep breath. Not a calming deep breath, but a forced one. He was very sure she could feel his heart beat in his hand and he wanted anything to distract him from it. He took another deep breath and opened his eyes.
“Y/N…” His voice was shaky as he looked at her through the curtain of his bangs, his arm resting on the wall just to the side of her head.
“Yes…?” She was smiling and secretly loving every second of his embarrassing discomfort. He was cute. A word she never thought she would use to describe Levi. Handsome? Yes. Debonair? Definitely. He was even charming in his own way, but cute? Never would she have thought it.
“Can I…” He looked away, eyes darting left and right aimed at the floor while he tried to get the words out.
“Can you...” She could barely hold in her excitement almost bouncing while she waited for him to finish his question. He slowly looked up at her. The expression on his face the same as it always was. Though this time a slight tint of pink sat on his cheeks while his pupils were fully dilated.
“Can I kiss you?” He breathed, his voice just over a whisper.
Y/N smiled. She took in the moment enjoying his face being so close to hers, watching how his eyes searched her face, desperate for her answer, his breath, smelling faintly of black tea, hitting her face with each exhale.
She could only imagine his heart beating as fast as hers right now. She was excited too. It wasn’t just Levi who was nervous. She wanted this just as badly as he did and if it weren’t for her trying to comfort him, she would probably be as visibly awkward.
She looked down, searching his body for anything appropriate to touch to bring even more heat into the moment. Finally, she settled on his hip and lightly looped her first finger into his pant loop then replied.
“Yes.”
Levi took a small step closer to her while bringing his free hand to her cheek. He lifted his head and leaned in further then kissed her.
It was a little slow at first. Only just pecking his closed lips to hers. She was reminded that this was most likely one of Levi’s first kisses. She relaxed a little, letting him take the lead. Her stomach fluttered at his inexperience and she wondered how he must be feeling.
He continued slowly and after a few more pecks and some angled rotations of his head, he was getting more comfortable and his lips started lingering longer on hers. With his hand still on the wall behind her, he leaned into her body a little more.
Feeling him move closer, Y/N utilized the opportunity to push the kiss slightly deeper. She used the tip of her tongue to barely touch his upper lip, grazing across the front. With this he let out the softest, breathy moan and immediately felt self-conscious.
Before he could pull away, Y/N wrapped one arm around his neck and the other around his waist pulling him even deeper into her arms while never letting his lips leave hers. She sighed quietly into his mouth to let him know it’s okay and his hand went to her waist, lightly squeezing her.
They both pushed away from the wall a bit as they closed the gap in between their bodies entirely. Levi moved his hand up to Y/N’s upper back, pulling her even closer. Y/N could tell he was much more comfortable now, opening his mouth and deepening the kiss.
Levi could feel himself getting hotter, sparks moving through his body and building heat in his stomach. He pulled her as close as he could and began lowering his hand to her hips and pushing his hips against hers. She moaned into him and couldn’t stop herself from sliding her tongue into his mouth.
He let out a loud exhale, breathing heavier as both of his hands reached her hips and he roughly grinded himself against her. Y/N could start to feel a hardness hitting her upper thigh and she moved her hand to try to rub harder against him, her own breathing getting heavy.
Knock! Knock!
They both pulled away looking at the door wondering who was knocking this late at night. Reluctantly, they separated from each other and Y/N went to open the door.
“Hange?” Levi questioned. The other captain looked from Y/N to Levi. A slow, but very large grin growing on their face. Oh shit.
this is my way of apologizing for disappearing/thanks for waiting for me!
dividers by @uzmacchiato
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☆ surprise work visits!
when he’s not on an expedition, he’s cooped up in his office with hours worth of paperwork to do. you know he hates this, so to lift his spirits you love randomly surprising him at the office. you know he’s thankful too, when you enter the room and his face immediately relaxes just at the sight of you and his lips curve into a soft smile <3
☆ morning routine!
waking up in tune to his early morning alarm; as he gets ready for another long day at work you end up downstairs, making him a fresh cup of tea to start his day. you bring it up to him as he’s fresh out of the shower, and as he begins to brush his teeth you set down the cup on the counter and wrap your arms around him, hugging him from the back. he smiles at you in the mirror and you place kisses on his back as he continues to get ready <3
☆ pocky!
he’d occasionally surprise you with your favorite snack; strawberry pocky and as you would contently enjoy it on your own, he’d have an idea come to mind. he’d sit down next to you on the couch and before you knew it the unfrosted end of the pocky would be in his mouth. you’d blush but wouldn’t back away; the two of you would slowly eat your way closer and closer to the other, and before he could take the last bite near your lips, you’d pull away and laugh. he’d sit on the couch and call you a brat as you laughed from embarrassment<3
levi waited restlessly in his office for the scouts to return. his injured foot kept him from the most recent mission and he’s never felt more anxious. of course he was worried about everyone and hoped they’d all make it back in one piece, but his mind kept wandering to you. why am i so worried about her? he had no reason to be, you were riding along commander erwin and other strong squad leaders, so why? i have no reason to worry about her, they’ll all be fine. but even so, he ignored the throbbing pain in his foot and paced around his small workspace.
a messenger suddenly knocked on the wooden door, making levi freeze in his tracks; “sir! the troops are back!”
he couldn’t stop himself from leaving his office; couldn’t stop himself as he practically ran outside, and couldn’t stop himself from gasping in shock, not only at how many didnt return but also from seeing you on the back of someone’s horse, knocked unconscious. he took in how blood ran from your head and leg while your arm was heavily bandaged.
“what happened here?” levi asked, walking up to the man on the horse as he attempted to get off without you falling. before he could think, he reached up and pulled you off the horse himself, barely hearing the man as he walked away with you in his arms. “she was cornered by titans, we’re lucky she’s even here….”
once again, levi’s forgotten about his own injury as he studies yours. as he studies you he realizes, he wouldn’t know what to do if you didnt come back. yes you’re unconscious, but you’re here now and hes gonna do everything in his power to ensure you wake up.
he gently places you in a cot at the infirmary, covering you and taking the seat next to your bed. he stares at the dried blood clinging to your fingers and he reaches out to you, brushing his rough fingers against the back of your hand.
late at night, long after the sun has set was always your favorite time of day. after all the paperwork, after a long, tiring day of expeditions and strategic talk, you loved to just unwind with your boyfriend. of course being humanity’s strongest comes with a lot of responsibilities. he’s away longer, has more paperwork, and as a result you don’t get to see him as much as you’d like. but at the end of the day after all the work, he always comes home to you. just like now.
you wrap your arms around him as the front door closes; the cold air from outside still whirling around the entryway. he wraps an arm around your waist while the other hangs his cloak on the hook. he smiles at you and you’re grateful he’s home safe.
after eating and showering, he joins you in bed. both sets of hands go to their designated spots. his grab around your waist and pull you close, yours cup his face; thumb stroking his cheek. this is your favorite part of your nights. watching and holding him close; holding him like he’d never go anywhere again. you were so proud and thankful for this man and by looking into his eyes you could tell he thought the same about you.
smiling, you ask him to tell you about his day and he does. you start to doze to his sweet voice, and cuddle up closer to his chest,
“your voice is making me fall asleep” you sigh.
“are you saying i’m boring you, brat?”
you chuckle, “no i’m saying i feel safe with you”
he shifts and pulls you on top of his chest, reaching an arm under your shirt and scratching your back. he doesn’t respond, but he places kisses on top of your head and tightly hugs you, knowing he doesn’t want to let you go.
❥ you walk straight into levi’s room after a long day of training. as you walk into his bathroom to wash up, he already has a fresh towel, your necessities and a candle lit in the bathroom, ready for you to use. the gesture warms your heart, he always knows how to help you relax
❥ after your shower, you leave the bathroom to find levi, who’s sitting on his bed with his eyes closed. smiling, you creep up next to him and attempt to kiss him on the cheek, but he was expecting it (as he always does) he grabs your arm before you could plant a kiss, and he pulls you onto his lap, planting a kiss of his own on your cheek which makes you giddy
❥ the two of you tell each other about your day, he tells you how he was busy with paperwork and you tell him about how stressed you are to which he listens intently which makes you appreciate how he makes you feel heard
❥ afterwords the two of you begin to relax, he blows out the candles he had lit and tucks you in tight. he briefly leaves the room to bring you a glass of water and pulls you in close as he gets into bed himself.
❥ as you lay in a comforting silence, you realize how much you truly love and are thankful for levi, and how much he makes you feel like he’s your person. your comfort. your home.
What abt Levi with squad leader reader and it’s night and they spend the night talking to eachother on the roof of the survey corps?
YES i’ve been wanting to write something like this tysm! (also sorry this took 936264827372 years) <3
starry night || levi || oneshot
fluff
aot masterlist
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after the sun had set and when the moon and stars reveal themselves most traumas were brought back to any and every soldiers’ mind. the horrendous memories often return as nightmares, robbing any sane person of sleep. naturally, deciding to avoid this as long as possible you once again find yourself on the roof of the barracks; the crisp night air brings a chill to you as it brushes up your arms, down your neck and to your back but you ignore it.
the second of peace you feel doesn’t last long as a set of footsteps approach you. opening an eye, you were a little surprised to see levi standing there, peering down at you.
you smirk before breaking the silence, “if you’re here to tell me my plan went to shit today, i already know.”
he doesn’t respond, but from the corner of your eye you catch him clenching his jaw. before glancing back up at him, you pat the empty spot next to you, “you can stay and get comfy if you want.” once again, he says nothing but silently joins you on the floor.
no words are shared as the two of you sit in a comfortable silence, both admiring the sky before you. the silence is broken when levi sighs; turning to face you you already know what he’s going to say.
“you should get some rest. we’re going back outside the walls tomorrow and you’ll need your strength.” you sigh in response before turning away from him, looking back up to the star-filled sky.
“i could say the same to you captain.”
he chuckles at your snarky response, “i’m not your captain anymore brat, you’re all grown up and you’ve even got your own squad now.”
an immediate frown finds your face; “yea, but after today i’m thinking i’d rather not be a captain at all. it’s pretty clear im not a great leader. i led so many people to their deaths today.” just the reminder has you wincing.
he doesn’t respond but just shakes his head in disagreement. there’s another moment of silence, but this one isn’t comfortable, it’s awkward and you can feel the tension in the air.
“being a captain won’t always be a positive thing, it comes with lots of responsibility and even more loss, but you have to be strong enough to deal with it.”
his speech does little to cheer you up, but you’re a bit glad to have his company. the thought of him just being up on the roof with you brings a slight smile to your face, which he notices.
“now that you don’t feel like shit anymore let’s go back inside, it’s cold out here.” you don’t make a move to follow him, you just look back up to the star-lit sky; “i think i’ll stay out here a little longer.”
he pauses, removes his cloak and crouches down beside you, gently placing it around you and covering your shoulders. his warm breath hits your neck and you don’t miss how he once again clenches his jaw. he briefly looks you in the eyes and you swear you see a slight blush but he stands too fast for you to confirm it.
“don’t stay out here too long.” he calls, back faced toward you as he climbs back down the building.
he definitely wasn’t blushing
you lie to yourself.
it’s just cold out here.
regardless, you clench the cloth and smile down at it.
the wind beat down against your face as you flew through the trees; swinging, spinning and dodging the wooden dummy titans. you mentally count your twenty-third ‘kill’ and decide to call it a day. as you land at the edge of the forest, you see levi waiting for you with that same, unreadable expression as always. quickly catching up to him he speaks before you can:
“only twenty-three today? we’re doubling it tomorrow.” you groan and he turns to walk away. training was tough enough as it is, but when levi trained you himself? you left everyday more sore than the last. he pushed you to your max and more. you knew all the extra training was making you stronger, but you begin to question his intentions. why am i the only one he trains privately? why go to this extent to help me?
jogging to catch up with levi, you question him; “why are you helping me so much?”
he waists no time and answers you immediately; “because i’m your captain.”
you think his fast, short answer is unusual, almost like he knew you’d question him so you continue on:
“you’re right, but doesn’t a captain want to help the whole squad?”
he stays silent but quickens his pace; “we’re done with this conversation.”
“no we’re not!” you match his pace, acting on instinct. you definitely should not be talking to your captain this way but you push that aside, this ‘special help’ of his has gone on too long and you need answers.
“why can’t you just answer me? help me understand why you’re going out of your way to help me!” he stops in his tracks and you curiously stop in front of him. he sighs before speaking;
“are you really that oblivious?” caught off guard you question him back; this time before answering you he hesitates;
“don’t make me say it…” he trails off and you notice a slight blush. captain levi? blushing???
“captain.. don’t tell me you..” this time you trail off, completely dumbfounded.
“you’re all i can think about, cadet. i’ve grown to care very deeply for you.”
your eyes never tear from his as he continues;
“is it so wrong of me to want to take care of you?”
you swallow back your tears before a smile spreads across your face.
“it’s about time captain, i’ve been waiting to hear that for a while”
