#apartness

[theweirdthoughts]

Erased from life

I was happier in the life,

I tried to forget those,

Nights which I spend,

Under your shadow,

Under your breath,

I tried to forget those,

Eyes which gives,

The false feeling of happiness.

But the moment,

When I saw those eyes again,

Then the feeling of the curse,

The grief which soul caries,

Arises to hold you up,

And begged you,

To take away those moments,

Back away from the heart,

Which was engraved by your,

Existence which I can’t,

Erased from my life.

25-June-2022

[thomasbernhard]

Making yourself understood is impossible, there’s no such thing as doing that. Out of solitude, out of aloneness grows an even more intense aloneness, apartness. Eventually you change scenes at ever-briefer intervals. You believe that ever-larger cities—your small home town is no longer enough for you, Vienna is no longer enough, London is no longer enough. You’re forced to go to another continent, you try going here and there, speaking foreign languages—is Brussels perchance the right place? Is it perchance Rome? And you travel to every place in the world and you are always alone with yourself and with your ever-more abominable work.

--Thomas Bernhard, "Drei Tage," translated by Douglas Robertson

[inagrayroom]

It’s not all bad. Heightened self-consciousness, apartness, an inability to join in, physical shame and self-loathing—they are not all bad. Those devils have been my angels. Without them I would never have disappeared into language, literature, the mind, laughter and all the mad intensities that made and unmade me.

Stephen Fry, Moab Is My Washpot

[probablyatumor]

Apartness Color Sundays

Well, all the art for Apartness is done. All that remains now is to make it into an actual book.

In the grand tradition of the Sunday funnies, I've colored the larger half-page strips that I made for Apartness. This is how they'll appear in the book. Here you can compare them to the black and white versions. Click on an image and then hit the arrow keys to see them fade from black and white to full blazing color. Fun times!

[probablyatumor]

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Here is Apartness Issue 5.

[mypaletteofletters-blog]

It’s not all bad. Heightened self-consciousness, apartness, an inability to join in, physical shame, and self-loathing - they are not all bad. Those devils have also been my angels. Without them I would never have disappeared into language, literature, the mind, laughter, and all the mad intensities that made and unmade me.

Stephen Fry

[drunkonliterature]

It is not all bad. Heightened self-consciousness, apartness, an inability to join in, physical shame and self-loathing — they are not all bad. Those devils have been my angels. Without them I would never have disappeared into language, literature, the mind, laughter and all the mad intensities that made and unmade me.

Stephen Fry