i am once again telling you that I have new ocs
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i am once again telling you that I have new ocs
Apotelesma
Gif not mine, credits to owner.
Warnings: panic attack
Apotelesma from Latin means influence of stars on human destiny.
A knife tore through a piece of meat.
Amused smile etched on his face.
-Oh darling, she should go buy a brain!” exclaimed someone on his right.
The fork was on its way to his mouth when he felt it.
The all too familiar drop of something in his gut, as if suddenly his chest became empty but heavy all at the same time, he had to chew on whatever was in his mouth but getting it down to stomach felt impossible.
One question kept popping into his head whenever this happened: does something grow in his chest and leave no space for heart or is his heart growing so big it takes up whole space?! One way or another his heart clenched.
Rubatosis, the heart kept it’s slow, arduous rhythm.
It isn’t painful, not in a sense of excruciating, raw pain, but god knows he’d rather take a bullet than deal with aftermath.
Fear creeping up on him slowly, until it reaches his throat making it impossible to gulp, not that he’d need to, the mouth runs dry.
Familiar nausea.
The glass of wine in front of his plate was disgusting, why no one served him water?!
Monachopsis was the word people call it, out of place.
Cautiously glancing around he wanted to summon someone to bring him a glass of crystal clear substance with no taste but everyone was too busy, everyone was engaged in a conversation or rather anecdoche, the warm light now seemed too dim and depressing, the laughter fake, the topics meaningless, food on his plate too much…
All too familiar…
He tried his best: smile, think of something that feels good, touch the chair you’re sitting on, take a deep breath, slowly exhale…
Nausea was only growing…. try listening to others conversations and engage…
It only made the matter worse, a certain word, a certain look and avoidance of certain topics and his mind was going 100 miles per second, too fast for him or any other force to stop it…. The place felt smaller or maybe there were too many people…
Who in the world throws such huge parties, half the people must be seeing each other for the first time!
The breathing is shallow, not that much oxygen left with so many people sucking it out of space… Now this becomes just another matter of concern…
Are there any windows?! Can anyone open a window?! Who invented the stupid dress code, one can boil alive in those button downs and suits….
Yet he shivers, his hands are cold as usual.
-Are you alright?” the question sounded distant but he nodded way too many times and gave a perfect haunted smile, which assured whoever it might’ve been that nothing with him can ever be wrong…
And it hit even worse, nausea, lack of oxygen and guilt now.
Such a pathetic liar… nothing ever goes right does it?! Life is completely empty of meaning, he’d go home after this and wouldn’t want to wake up because what’s the point…He should’ve stayed at home to start with, then maybe all this could’ve been avoided.
The heat is becoming too much, maybe he’d need to throw up after all…. He excuses himself and heads for the bathroom….
Water clear and cold, the buzzing is so distant in the bathroom it almost feels like party is at neighbors house… the bathroom occupies a tiny space though, and water does help nausea, very slightly….
Everything is so ephemeral, this thought usually helps, it will pass…everything does….But why is it getting worse….
The list of concerns grows.
Should’ve taken those damned pills.
He picks up some bottle and reads the tiny text “ingredients: aqua (water), Glycine, oil…” the words are so small it takes all of his powers to focus on it, perfect… “sodium lactate…” there’s a knock on the door and all words become blurry, he leaves in haste.
While searching for hosts his mind buzzes with thoughts: Aqua, Latin, Greek dresses, Hellenistic period, his chemistry teacher, who invented soap, medicine still uses Latin, did they use creams in old Rome, Alexander, Cleopatra, Richard Burton, Nefertiti and Nefernari?! ignored, baths with milk, so many myths, how did they know stars, what was that word I read once….”
Finding the hosts excusing himself…
“You see I received a call….I’m terribly sorry…. it’s an emergency…. wouldn’t want to leave….” the conversation makes him feel even worse, he’s lying but he’d hate to hurt them, if only he could….
Pathetic liar no better than his own father. Fresh air outside is nice, feels less like throwing up.
Walking is also nice.
Why does it feel like crying tho.
The night is starry too.
“Apotelesma!” he remembers.
Just keep walking….
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💫apotelesma~part one💫
Summary: You can’t run from destiny. Erik learns that the hard way.
Word Count: 830..not a lot...yikes
A/N: Okay, I know I haven’t posted part three of your ways, but listen, this idea has been on my mind for a while and I wanted to put it on here. I tried my best to write my thoughts down and execute the idea. Of course criticism is welcome. Tell me if it’s shit or not
Erik Killmonger x Black! Female Reader
When you and Erik first started talking. He teased you about your fascination with the stars. “Everything is written in the stars Erik, even our destiny.”, you’d say with the brightest smile on your face. “What type of white people shit is that?”, he joked. “You’re an idiot.”. you pushed him playfully.
Erik’s voice was hoarse and gravelly when he woke up in the mornings. you would know, you woke up next to him every morning for the past two years.
“Good morning baby girl.”, he wrapped his arm around your waist. You were sitting up, reading a book. Erik flopped his head in your lap and you winced, “Erik! You act like yo head weighs an ounce! Big refrigerator head ass!”, you scolded him, you out your book on the nightstand. He laughed, “Stop all that complaining and give me a kiss.”, he rubbed your thigh. He lifted his head up towards you and you pecked him on the lips. “A good way to start the morning.”, he smiled and sat up in the bed. You watched him and he stared back.
Silence.
A mischievous smirk spread across Erik’s face before he pounced on you. You squealed, “Erik! You play too much!”, you giggled as he attacked you in kisses all over you neck and chest. “Erik stop.”, you laughed and grabbed his head in your hands. As you held his head up, he was trying to give you the puppy eyes. “Don’t make that face.”, you laughed. “I’m trying to make moments with my favorite girl in the world.”, he responded as you let his head go.
He sat back up and you put your head on his shoulders,“Do you really have to go?”, you stared at the black, silk sheets on the bed. “Princess, I’ll be back before you know it.”, he reassured you. You looked at him,”When are you going to tell me where you’re going?”, you asked quietly. “When it’s time.”, he simply responded. “Erik...I’m not a kid.”, you rolled your eyes. “What you want for breakfast ma?”, Erik dodged the question. “Erik-”, you started but he interrupted you.
“(Y/N), what did I just say?”, he started getting up, ‘When the time is right.”, he repeated. You sighed, “Pancakes.” “Anything else?”, he looked at you.
“You cooking?”, you asked. “Yes (Y/N).’, he slipped on his shirt that was on the floor. “I’m not sure if you’re being sarcastic or if you’re mad at me.”, you groaned. “Eggs? Bacon?”, he was dodging you again. “Erik you can’t blame me for being curious about where you’re going.”, you explained.
“(Y/N), I told you not to stress too much about it. Just know, ya man will be back in a month...or two.”, he cleared his throat and started putting on his boxers.
“Or two! Erik you didn’t mention that.”, you stood up also. Erik sighed, “Minor changes.”, he shrugged. “Nigga! Minor changes! Why are you being so nonchalant about this?!”, you exclaimed. “Aye. Chill baby girl. And put on some clothes. The window is open.”, his eyes traveled to your breasts. You let out a frustrated sigh and got one his shirts out the drawer and slipped it over your head. “You always looked good in my shirts.”, he smiled. “Erik stop doing that.”, you snapped. “Stop doing what?”, Erik tilted his head. “Stop avoiding the topic.”
“Aye, you remember what you said anything that happens is written in the stars and where we end is in our destiny?”
“Okay and?”, you shrugged. “Don’t worry about it.” Erik left out the room to the bathroom and you followed,”Erik you can’t use my shit against me ad just walk away.” Erik laughed, “I did. I’m not arguing with you.” You looked at him with that stupid ass grin on is face as he moisturized his locs.
“I could slap the shit out of you.”, you sneered. Erik looked at you, “I double dog dare you.”, he said mockingly. You raised your hand and he didn’t flinch. “I hate you,”, you rolled your eyes. “Girl, you know damn well you love the hell outta me.”, Erik stuck his tongue out at you. You flipped him off and turned to go back to the bedroom. Erik slapped your ass and cupped your whole ass cheek in his left hand. You froze, “Erik-”, Erik cut you off, “Don’t even say nothing. Take off that shirt and lay on the bed.” You looked at him, “What about breakfast?” Erik smirked, “I know what I’m eating. Go lay down.”
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for all the ghosts that are never gonna catch me
happy (late) halloween, and happy first day of nano! no one’s gonna care that i have an update for this fic, but i do and here have it i’m tired of looking at it
Necromancy, all things considered, isn’t all it’s cracked up to be. Sure, sometimes you get to do the exciting stuff, like talking to the dead, or sitting in musty old basements waiting for the souls of the damned to visit. But most of the time it’s a hell of a lot more boring than that. Stumbling through a graveyard at the ass crack of dawn, looking for one particular headstone, level boring. At least Koutarou didn’t choose a public cemetery, this time. Trying to explain to grieving members of the public that seances are neither illegal, or dangerous is a mistake Tetsurou has sworn to make only once. A glance at his phone tells him they’ve only been here for ten minutes, at most, and that includes the circus that was getting out of Koutarou’s rust bucket of a car, but he already wants to go home. Not that that’s a surprise, necessarily, given that he’d wanted to go back to bed moments after he’d clipped himself into Koutarou’s rust bucket of a car. But Akaashi had levelled him with one of his looks, and any argument he might have had had shrivelled to dust on his tongue.
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i started mindlessly writing this morning and realized that i was writing another apotelesma story instead of the novella i should be working on. ah well, muses are fickle misses, and i should take advantage of this opportunity
I'm down to one moresecrion/1,500 words left to write in the first chapter of my last story in apotelesma! (yeah there was definitely a better way to phrase that) I'm so excited, I can barely focus on the other shit I'm meant to be doing(piano practice? who's she?) also drew up some ideas for illustrations in the book, so I may be posting one of them soon ;)
An Archive of Our Own, a project of the Organization for Transformative Works
a series of short stories, all featuring queer characters, set in a universe filled with magic and mystery. only 3 stories up so far, but im working on the 4th right now, with ideas for a 5th!