hc + clothing
meme: send me ‘ hc ‘ + a word and i’ll write a headcanon about it regarding my character.
don’tjudge a book by it’s cover they say- but how else are you supposed to knowit’ll be up to par without sitting down to read it, and risk discovering300 pages later than you’ve royally wasted your time? no- sunah always firmlybelieved that appearances were important. not everything- but close.
herconstant need for validation (thanks mom) expressed itself in many ways; one ofthe most obvious would be how she tried to control the way people perceivedher- sometimes by censoring herself, other times through little white lies (ohme? i study physics at snu)
clothingwas naturally another facet of her trying to control the little she could; amake believe as she tried to pretend who she wanted to be- her clothing didafter all represent the duality in her life. the girl who has failed yet keepstrying with less dignity each time. or just the stark contrast between herlifelong dream and her much less shiny reality.
and so, if caught off guard or just busy in the relative comfort she could find in huge cements buildings and windowless practice rooms- her incarnation of the athletic girl who has spent most of her life in dance studios is obvious. her clothing is almost on the default background dancer in practice videos; calculated to look effortless on those days where she knows she’d sweat off any makeup- days she’d train from dawn to dusk (those were always surprisingly comforting to her).
the other part of this unbalanced yin and yang was the one where she tried to be what she wasn’t but craved. shopping had always been an outlet for her, a therapy, but as things went downhill it went out of hand- same for her luxurious tastes. she relishes in the gaudy and ostentatious. it’s not important if others think it’s ugly- as long as they know it was expensive. ( but her credit card debts pile up and she can only squeeze so much out of a foolish man- each new item is an extra nail in her coffin)
in the end it was fitting; the flashy clothing represented her perfectly. a try hard. a failure. the celebrity she never was trying to show the money shenever had in the first place
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