I JUST NEED TO LET THIS OUUUUUUT!
Even if I am controlling myself not to admire you more,
I JUST CAN’T HELP IT!
I always caught myself smiling everytime you message me,
everytime we’re talking, every “good mornings”,
every moment you call me “panda” or “pandakekok”
- weird choice of nickname but kinda cute,
every cute pictures of you you’ve sent me.
I also like it whenever you remember some small details about me.
Like remembering how much I like weird and creepy stuff.
Like remembering how much I like cute things especially cute cats.
Proof that you’re paying attention whenever I am opening myself.
I like everything about you.
How strong you are holding on to life knowing that you’re still struggling
with your lonely past, but I know you are a strong person, and I believe in you.
How artistic you are, how nice you are.
I know you have flaws, but I don’t care, ‘cause you’re perfect just the way you are.
I like your smile, your laugh, the way you talk to me,
I like how you tell corny jokes and pickup lines.
I like you.
I like the way you’ve lifted my soul whenever I have my dark moments.
I like the way how you make me happy.
I like the way how you’re teasing me with my height, forehead, about how I act when I am annoyed with something.
It’s just so cute, you’re cute.
But I’m scared. I’m scared that my heart would give up controlling these feelings.
And then I’d end up falling completely in love with you.
But that’s fine. If it’s not me the one you’re looking for,
I just hope you’d find that person who is willing to risk just to know you,
Willing to risk just to love you fully by heart.
I hope one day you’ll find that one person who will make you genuinely happy,
and make you feel loved even though you don’t have much to offer.
And make you realize how beautiful it is to be in love again.
Just so you know there’s still someone like me, who is looking up to you.
Wishing you nothing but happiness and hope for eveything’s going on in your life.
I’m just here, if you need someone to talk to.
Friends or more than friends, I still hope you’d stay.
You are an important person to me, monkey.