december 20. — i packed up most of my childhood bedroom today. tomorrow i'm getting the keys to my first own place. i lived in this bedroom for a decade. it's so weird to think about, in a couple weeks i'll be falling asleep in my own apartment. i'm both excited and scared; excited to furnish my place and live on my own, scared it might get lonely. i can't even begin to explain the emotions i'm feeling right now. it's still a miracle for me that i'm at this place now. four years ago i required 24h care in a mental health facility, now i am moving out. i've come a long way and it's hard to see this most times but right now i just see it so clearly it's honestly incredible.