#arden talks

[of-stars-and-sea]

Venus Day prayers. Charging some crystals.

[malfovs]

i was wondering if i could start a fanfic blog for draco, iʼve been in my writing spirit for quite a few days and i have written stuff before so this has been on my mind for a long while, should i do it?

[iovehemmings]

Tis very drunk but imma tell you my favourite accounts on here and that you should follow them;

@lukeisbaby @talkfastromance4 @irwinkitten @sexgodashton @maluminspace @prettyyyboyluke

honestly the best writers ever and deserve the world

dat is all tanks :)

[kitaguwu]

print preorders

hello! i'm arden, a singaporean cosplayer uwu!! since posting my cosplays on tumblr i've gained a small audience of people (thank you so much) and as a result i'm opening international preorders for my cosplay prints!!

the selection will be from my instagram account @/swankyturtles, but if you don't have an instagram, i'll be compiling the photos and posting them on tumblr!

here's an example of a few:

in the meantime, if you'd like to preorder the prints, the link is here !! please do support me if you'd like! (ﾉ´∀｀*) it would be super appreciated since my family isn't supportive of me being trans so i really need to save money for my transition once i move out / potentially get disowned (´；ω；｀)

the payment will be by paypal!! i'll release the details once preorders are over — they close on the 1st of october 11.59pm SGT (GMT + 8)

it's $5 SGD each for one if you live overseas! $2 SGD if you live in singapore too (exclusive of shipping, i'll let you know)

thank you!!

[quasarden]

ashfklshad your art is EXTREMELY pretty and your style is to die for, part of me would love to ask if you could doodle something for me but as an artist myself the other part of me says 'NOT WITHOUT PAYING LIKE 30 BUCKS YOU IDIOT' bc i wouldnt want to make you draw smth you dont wanna draw for free

This is so incredibly sweet, thank you! I completely understand that feeling.

However, I’m in the need of practicing drawing since I haven’t in a while (I took a break because of research and coursework). So feel free to send in requests, I’d be more than happy to doodle/draw something for you. 

[of-stars-and-sea]

A trick for myself, I'm finding, to a successful spell, is to accept whatever feelings you have about it after the fact.

I tend to worry. Especially when my OCD gets more severe, the thoughts just don't stop. Casting a spell is difficult when my mental health gets bad, because all I can think of is how I'll mess it up, or how it won't work, or how I'm doing it wrong, it won't help...

And the worst part is! I'll then beat myself up for having doubts in the first place. Then I'll feel bad about having beaten myself up. And then, and then, and then, down the hypothetical rabbit hole we go, over-intellectualizing my own feelings.

When you can't stop a worry, you can accept the worry. Embrace it. I know, deep down, that my brain is trying to help me but is going too far in the pursuit of saving myself. I thank my brain for trying, and tell it that I understand where it's coming from. I sit with the worry instead of worrying about the worry. I sit with the doubt.

I've been working on a good thing to say to finish spells. I will always have a weakness for "so mote it be," if I'm being honest (or maybe that's because my beloved has finally gotten me to play Hades 2, despite me not having played the first game, and I quite enjoy the way that Hecate says the phrase).

But I think my favorite is becoming- It is done. Simple. A clear, defined end point that my mind can understand. It's as though a line is drawn between the working magic and my overactive mind. Whether I worry or not, it doesn't matter. It is done!

[of-stars-and-sea]

Or you can finish a spell by going "BAM!" like Emeril

[of-stars-and-sea]

My life has gotten so much better since I remembered that I'm a witch.

This has been a part of me for so, so long. I was so young when I fell in love with witchcraft.

In a way, I'm glad I let it leave my mind for five years. Some part of me needed to let it breathe, needed to connect to other things, settle on who I am. I learned a lot, and came to appreciate a lot of things.

When I took on this path again at last, I felt like I'd forgotten everything about it. It comes back quickly to me every day. I read, and I write, and I practice.

I buried myself for such a long time. I've carried so much shame.

I grow more proud by the day. I don't hide my altars when guests come over. I've met so many wonderful people.

For the first time in, perhaps my entire life, I am starting to realize that I know who I am.