#arma virumqueue cano

[nonameformesorry]

Things to tell yourself to combat stress.

1) I am going to school, not running a bridge on a plateau assault where the parshendi arrived first.

2) I am going on a date, not getting betrayed by my childhood friend in the middle of a battle against TWO parshendi armies.

3) I am going to a job interview, not staying out during a highstorm completely unaided (yes, that includes Syl)

4) I have received an email, not a shardblade while being a darkeyes in Amarams army

5) I am stressed and anxious, but I am NOT Kaladin Stormblessed that one night at the chasm.

You can do this! I believe in you! And if nothing works, carrying your bridge sideways does!

[nonameformesorry]

Wakes up.

Waits for the Kaladin thoughts to arrive.

Kaladin thoughts arrive.

Shit.

Productivity gets crushed by a siege bridge.

[most-sane-classicist]

just found out someone uses the same queue tag as me noooooooooo

[nonameformesorry]

Did I want to sleep early? Yes. Did I instead spend my time starting on making beaded bracelets for all 19 members of the theater club? Perchance.

[nonameformesorry]

Why do I only get the magic "maybe things aren't as bad, maybe there's beauty, and home, and belonging for me too" feeling at 1AM?

[nonameformesorry]

The feeling when you go through the old messages and just... Wait, HOW AM I THIS STABLE RN???

[nonameformesorry]

The problem with seeing friendship as transactional, making up strategies to talk to people and just trying to be so useful they won't leave you, is that you'll end up in so much debt. I can't pay any of my friends back for what they do, by just staying with me even for a second. But I promise to keep trying and failing.