Is it like lazy/bad that I want a life partner but like I want to be Old Couple married? Because I just can’t stand the idea of big romantic gestures or like dramatics or whatever. I don’t like austentatious declarations. I don’t like social events or super fancy restaurants or whatever. But idk its probably perpetuated by society but I feel like there’s an expectation that young love has to be big and adventurous and expressive. Sure, it can be.
But I want to take things slow. One day, long in the future, I want a life partner (in crime, lol) and not to be sappy but I want domestic. I want to know that they’re around every day, doing their thing, being happy and safe, and that at the end of the day we can go home, make dinner, and relax together. I want to see their work and support them wholeheartedly, watching as passion lights their eyes. I want them to see my work, listen to my incoherent ramblings, and somehow understand everything I mean. I want to be able to talk about things I never talk about to anyone. I want to surprise them when they come home to see that I’ve made something for them, whether it’s music or art or writing. I want to learn things together. I want to grow together. I want to make jokes with them that no one else will understand and drink tea together in the early morning. I want to watch them read or do yard work just content to know that they’re in my life. I want to go out and do mundane things like grocery shopping and laundry with them. I want to love someone with my entire spirit, and I want to love them for their entire spirit.
And honestly? I don’t care if this person is like a QPP or a romantic significant other. And I’m confused. Because idk if it’s my lack of romantic experience that makes me want to take things slow, or if I only think it’s “weird” because of insecurity pushed by society, or if I’m like arospec or something because I can’t stand most love languages. (My platonic/romantic love language is quality time and gift giving (usually by me making something for someone) but I hate physical touch and am...tentative about words of affection). maybe it’s just my reserved personality.