i don't know if this was the show's express intent, but murderbot's sex repulsion in the show in tandem with how much its traits have been compared to those of a Sex/ComfortBot and how Leebeebee was constantly sexualizing it and talking about forcing it to have sexual organs for her to find attractive and then kissed it against its will — all of that feels so very reminiscent of my own experiences as an asexual person and it is making me sooooooooo
The idea that even well meaning people keep comparing you to 'more available' versions of yourself. The idea that your body is most relevant to others when pleasure can be sought from it. Not wanting to be looked at, if the only way people look at you is with lust, with misunderstanding.
Obviously murderbot isn't a show primarily about this, but I don't feel like I've ever seen sexual violence against asexuals represented in a media like this, if at all. It's a horrible fact about our demographic, but it is true that we face drastic levels of abuse, conversion therapy, corrective assault, and more. To see a window into the trauma of asexuality taken seriously and handled with even a little compassion truly means a LOT to me.
