bnha — when you sacrificed yourself while on a mission
characters : bakugou k. + iida t. + ashido m.
cw : angst, mentions of death, grief and dealing with loss
bakugou k.
immediately upon your death, he found that he was blaming himself everyday to be responsible for it, he'd been with you, why had he been so slow? you plagued his mind, he imagined you were there. he believed with his whole heart it was his fault, and no matter how much his classmates, his family, his teachers told him it wasn't, he continued to believe it. he found it impossible to forgive himself, but swore he'd become the best hero he could and save as many people as he could, though in his mind, it'd never make up for your death. it wasn't until he was in his 3rd year he finally sought help, he couldn't deal with the thoughts of you dancing in his mind, simply a memory at that point. he got professional help, and after a few years of therapy sessions and being a hero, he managed to forgive himself. now he devotes his hero work to you, to make you proud. he eventually accepted that no one could've helped your death, as it had been your choice in the end, but he still missed you greatly, and he often finds himself breaking down, he can't help it, you were the first person to truly love him and show him that raw, true emotion and intimacy, and it was ripped from him. he mourns you often and always makes sure your death was known as honorable and heroic.
iida t.
it hits hard. really hard. but he hides it behind a strong image, he acts as if everything is okay. he needs to be strong for his classmates, as their class president. he takes all the weight, continuing his hero studies and work, continuing his life as if he didn't think it was his fault. it only took a few months for him to crack, under the weight of your death on his shoulders and how he'd pushed himself with all his other duties, he broke down. he took a break, albeit a bit short because he was determined to continue, but with the help of his friends and family he began to take care of himself again. he still bears the weight of your death, but the loss is also a hard drive for him, giving him fierce determination and devotion to his job as a hero to save anyone he can. no one else would be dying if he could help it. at times he'll find himself wondering why you'd done it, even though he knew the answer. you were simply too selfless, so devoted to your heroic tendencies that you'd let yourself go so easily. he can't help but wish it had been him instead of you sometimes.
ashido m.
she had been right there as the life faded from your eyes. she'd held you in her arms, begging you to stay, but she knew it was hopeless. you'd made your choice, that you were simply too damn reckless for your own good, and you'd immediately put your life last to anyone else's. her first reaction had been locking herself in her room, barely eating or sleeping. she'd show up to class with dark circles under her black eyes and she'd always look a mess. her temper seemed to shorten and she'd snap at her classmates easily. she didn't mean to. she was just so emotional. with time came recovery, she slowly found herself accepting what had happened, slowly coming back out to her classmates and friends. she is angry that you left her like that, and can't help but feel a bit resentment towards the person you'd sacrificed your life for, even though she's aware that in the end you'd decided to lay down your life.