spend most of the week mostly train which was really awesome. i haven’t been this sore for a long time. back hurting, neck sore, shoulder acting up and surprise... my rib is bugging me. i had a couple of injuries for the past 2 years ever since i started training on August 2014. i never really thought that i would go this far with training, only reason i decided to train was because wanted to learn how to defend myself..protect myself and others (who knows..just in case)
anyway.. (i say this all the damn time...i need to work on my vocabulary)
monday...what did i do...i think i was off and trained in the evening??? i don’t remember omg i’m getting old. but i do remember that i had shitty night at work and suddenly decided to deactivate my facebook, i really don’t find it healthy at the moment. like every time i see my former schoolmates being so successful..traveling the world...being doctors, lawyers,actors etc makes me always want to ask myself “what the fuck are you doing with your life?” or the most common one “what have you done?” with the follow up of “you could have done better”. yes, i could have done better, done amazing things, made the people who raised me proud. but i didn’t. so yeah i’m not in facebook atm, which leads me to getting addicted to instagram haha from one addiction to the other. kind of funny because i really don’t take selfies too much. i’m not as confident as most people.
later the week, on sunday (today or yesterday or the other day..depends on what time is there where you are..just in case there’s someone else reading this...thanks) after my night shift i went to tokyo budokan, for the asian open one my friends competed. came to show support, even wore their team t-shirt. i missed her fight. when i saw her she was already walking back to the warm up area sad and disappointed. glad i came, i get to comfort her. i know how it feels training really hard and then lose in a competition. i don’t know do i get discourage when i lose? i think i don’t? ‘coz if i do i probably won’t be competing again. i love the adrenaline, and i get to apply whatever i’ve been training on, i mean come on i can’t just walk down the street and pick a fight with some random stranger lol. competitions are great nerve wracking but worth it. so i’ll end this with a favorite quote from the Carlos Gracie.
“there is no losing in jiu-jitsu. you either win or you learn”