#ask adrian

[ask-a-raines]

how would you feel if Amy decided to leave you because of a small reason?Would you let her go and move on or not?

If I am honest, watching Amy go would be incredibly painful; I cherish her more than words can express, so to lose her would feel like my world was ending.

However, I would never stand in her way if she chose to leave.

The most important thing to me is that Amy is happy; though it would hurt to lose her, I would find joy in knowing that she was in good spirits.

[its-my-mental-breakdown]

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90: One night you wake up because you heard a noise. You turn on the light to find that you are surrounded by MUMMIES. The mummies aren’t really doing anything, they’re just standing around your bed. What do you do?

What do I do,, well I leave the hecking room bc I've seen the mummy and I don't like how that ended so I'm gonna get the heck outs there and probably knock one over and then apologize to it.

[montparnassee]

I've just started following you are your s/o I was wondering what attracted you to them. Not in a bad way !! Just curious

As a DemiRomantic, it is hard as hell for me to make a bond. So, I am going to be honest here and say their looks. I had never seen such a unique, classic face. When they smiled it lit up the room. I want to be cut by their jawline. The next thing I noticed was their dress sense. I have to pick an outfit two days before I wear it, and it it isn’t perfect I am so moody. They are so free with what they wear, and find beauty in more fashion than I do. Liberating.I was also stunned by their fire. They were reserved, quiet, blushing. But talk to them about literature or Politics, they lost their front and became the most beautiful creature I have ever beheld. The potency of their Kindness, tolerance, loyalty and fierceness is what attracted me to them within the first week of meeting them. I tried to sum it up eloquently but really I just want to scream about them 

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Hey! Has Amy tried to get you to play video games with her? Or maybe got you to try some different foods?

Hello, Anon. I hope that this finds you well.

Amy has introduced me to many new things, though I have always been given the option as to whether I partake.

She is, however, very convincing.

I actually spent yesterday evening playing Mario Kart on Amy’s device. I did need an introduction to the game so that I didn’t completely mess it up - Lily was a very good teacher.

[ask-a-raines]

Hello Hello!

This one's for Adrian:

Do you let Amy walk out on the streets alone at night? Recently, the world has been a bit more scary out there and I'm a bit concerned. It's not too safe out on the streets, and it's even worse late at night...

Hello Anon; I hope that you are well.

I am afraid that this one is rather difficult to answer. I do not like the idea of her walking on her own at night, so will often accompany her or, if I am not available, ask someone else to do so in my stead. However, I would never force her to put up with my company if she does not wish to have anyone with her. She has yet to request that, so I am able to say that there has always been someone walking beside her at night, but I would respect her decision if she decided against it. It would make me uncomfortable to allow it, but I would need to take Amy’s wishes into account.

[ask-a-raines]

Hey Adrian, how has Priya been coping with Adam's death and the fact that it was you who did it? Ever feel guilty?

From what I saw, Priya was unaffected; her relationship with Adam ended years ago, and after which she did not see him as anything more than a means to an end. I think, if anything, the only thing that Priya felt was anger, and that was because she was not able to do it herself.

I do not feel guilty for what I did, and I apologise if that was not the answer that you were hoping for; it needed to be done, and it just so happened that I was the only one available at that time to do it.

[ask-a-raines]

Adrian why did you kiss Amy back at the rooftop lounge when Lily was turned why did you not pull away?Like you two only knew each other for like, a week, so why?

I am afraid that I cannot grace you with a definitive answer, as I do not know the answer myself.

I do not regret our first kiss, as being with Amy has been a true blessing, but I do regret the circumstances that led to that being the day when it happened.

If I did not care about Amy or if I had refused to let myself get to know her, then chances are that I would have pulled away - but it seems as though that was never to be the case. I guess, in all honesty, I must have let my feelings for her cloud my judgment; I allowed my happiness to get in the way of rational thought, and though it troubles me to admit that, it is the only explanation that seems plausible.

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Adrian, does Amy have any siblings, if so have you met any of them?

She has an older brother; he was rather skeptical of my intentions with Amy at first, but after a couple of meetings, the pair of us actually started to get to know one another in an environment that was suitable for all of us to have a proper conversation, without causing either of us further discomfort.

I met her parents a couple of weeks prior, as he was out of town with his wife and their children. They have recently welcomed a new addition to their family, actually; the child is doing well, but due to the current climate, neither Amy or I are able to visit.

*He pauses for a moment, unsure as to how he should continue*

I can tell that not being able to meet the baby is getting to Amy a little bit; she was very excited to meet him, but does not want to risk anyone getting ill; we may not be able to become sick ourselves, but that does not mean that we cannot carry anything with us. I have asked her if there is anything that I can do to cheer her up, but she told me that she does not wish to burden me with her feelings on the matter - apparently, I have more important things that I could focus my attention on than my wife and her well-being.

I hope to be able to make her smile again, as words cannot describe how much I miss her laughter.