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Could you please spare a cute sketch of Optimus giving big dad energy? That man… that man does things to me.

i bestow optimus with my highest badge of honour... diagnosed with Dad

#griff's doobles #transformers #optimus prime #bumblebee #mirage #arcee #rise of the beasts #maccadam #hes trying his best...#ask box things

i've read all of the ameSMP fics on ao3 and i fucking love díi

Me too man, me too. She's such a Creature. What if love had power and that was the problem?

I'm glad you enjoyed our silly scribbles!!

Díi has been voted most scary on the server which seems like an overreaction until I remember that she's actually a little insane.

#jaymeow speaks #ask box things #Fireboaserpent #Also you spelled her name right! Points!#Amesmp #Díi has canonically committed a genocide and lots of kidnappings and has Via in her basement rn #She still doesn't understand why anyone would be scared of her #AmeSMP

While I'm happy u feel better I mourn my peace.

LET ME BE

nooooooooooooo tormenting you is directly tied to my healthhhhhhhhhh

#jaymeow speaks #Bookwalmartav #Hi pumpkin #Tormenting pumpkin for fun and profit #Ask box things

sorry if you've been asked them before but 4, 14, and 19 for the fic writer asks?

!!! Thank you for asking!!

4. a story idea you haven’t written yet

-oh god I have So Many, but I can narrow it down to a couple I've been tossing around more seriously in my head lately.

A. I really desperately want to write something from Jack Jr's perspective as an adult. I've already implied in one fic (as of yet unpublished) that once he's grown, he moves away further up the East coast of the US (like Maine or something) and doesn't go no contact exactly, but...definitely low contact. He's not entirely mad at his moms and Ed and Izzy and Stede for leaving him to languish with his grandmother (Jack's abusive mum), because he's old enough to understand the legal red tape they were fighting, but at the same time...they were able to look after him, have them at their houses often enough, surely they could have tried harder to get him away from her? And he hasn't really worked out all those feelings yet on his own or with a therapist, so he's just this bundle of frustration and worries and shame for feeling like he wanted more from them.

I want to tie it into the aforementioned unpublished fic; he's been asked/offered to come down to where Mary (Read, not Bonnet, for clarification) and Ed are staying after the death of Anne, to have a sort of family mourning/get together thing. He's got his own kids at this point, a wife who's told him that he doesn't owe his family anything and that if he doesn't want to go, he shouldn't. But...he does kind of want to go. He does miss them, but seeing them reminds him of everything fucked up in his childhood, just as much as it does the good memories. I think part of the reason I haven't written this yet is simply bc idk if he'll go or not lol. I'd like him to, but he's not sure of that yet so I'm patiently waiting on him to figure it out.

B. I haven't forced Stede into enough pain recently, in my opinion, so I think a fic in the modern au where I force him to relive/go over his time with Mary around the time they were having Louis and Alma would be good lol. Namely that he has to face that even if he and Mary weren't into each other, and they had kids to please their families, he does love his kids so...how is he supposed to feel about all of those years?

Realistically speaking, he lost so much time and potential opportunities over those years; maybe if he hadn't been forced into marriage with Mary he would have met Ed sooner. Then again, maybe he wouldn't have wound up meeting Ed at all, and he hates that thought.

Then there's the fact that he might not be a great dad, or even a good dad at times, but he cares for his kids and now that he's sharing custody and gets time off from them, he's realised he actually likes being a dad. He's not going to have any more kids now though (that's a different fic idea lol) with Ed or Izzy, so he's got big feelings about that too. Just thinking about spending sleepless nights up with Alma and Louis as newborns, reading books about sailing and pirates and ships to them, watching them learn and grow into the little personalities they are now brings him to tears and makes him ache for the idea of having another, but it's not realistic.

He didn't want the life he had. It wasn't working for him or Mary; they're all better off in the current arrangement. But there are bits of it he wishes he could have kept as they were, that more kids with his new partners would be on the table. All of it is just sort of at war inside of his mind, and despite being the one to encourage others to talk it out, he can't seem to make himself talk to anyone about this.

14. where do you get your inspiration?

-God I wish I knew lmaoooo, but on a serious note! A lot comes from a bit of projection (or a lot) on situations I've been in and processing the feelings from that; giving myself a chance to go answer the question of 'okay here's how I handled this, how would one of my favourite characters, who arguably is in even a worse mental state than I was at that time, do with it?' I don't know why it helps so much to do that, but it does for me.

I also take a lot from the things I haven't done/will never do. Like I'm never gonna have kids, but I helped raise my cousins so I do have some experience and there's something fun/satisfying in getting to write parenting fic where what little knowledge I have already is useful, but also I get to look up and learn about a topic I won't have to really deal much with in my life. The parenting modern au ed and izzy fics in particular have had me learning So Much and trying to blend current best practices vs what would have been done at the time of the fic, and that's been interesting to explore and to write!

Lastly I take a lot from the art I take in; certain horror movies, indie movies, books, music, if it has a vibe that I like and that I want to see if I could create for others with my art, then I like to give it a go. Since starting the modern au I've had more of a spectrum in term of vibes: from the sometimes cosy but also uncomfortable (due to everything ongoing with Jack and his kid and that unfortunate mess) feeling of coming together as found family over the years, to the eerie and unsettling vibes you might find from some A24 movies or Jozef Van Wissem's music (he's so good for fic writing playlists if the fic leans horror/creepy/eerie/unsettling; I cannot recommend him enough.)

19. the most interesting topic you’ve researched for a fic

-I answered this one, but I also have multiple answers for it jfdlskafjdk. I will always be amazed at how much research it took to find out what the fuck horses can and cannot have for treats; especially when they're dying and you're trying to give them a fun little treat (like how you might buy a dog a burger before they get put to sleep at the vet.)

At one point I stumbled upon an old school forum of vets that work with big animals and the discourse over horses! One side was of the opinion if you ever give an animal a treat like that for any reason ever you should be strung up, the other felt that hey, if the animal is already being put down and it's not the worst thing they could have as a treat, then why not let them have a special snack before the end?

Personally I fall on the latter side, especially because the fic I wrote it for had Stede's horse Arthur dying and like. That man would not let his horse pass without getting him a little treat and doing everything he could to make Arthur as comfortable as a horse could be at that point.

#Ben thank u so much for asking and also I am so sorry I got so wordy fkdjsaflkdsja #Been having lots of inspiration and fic idea thoughts so had a lot of words on it all today #it could have been worse; i could have gone into the 'jack jr bieng born' fic idea lmaoooo #that has required. so much research and at one point i did have a paragraph written!#that I then hated and deleted so it's back to existing in idea only #text post #ask box things

Just a quick reminder!

I don’t mind getting sent P.Links and stuff but I do need a warning. I know some people like using this as references and that’s great, but a little NSFW is needed if it’s that just for my state of mind as I do check my Ask Box in public sometimes and well.

I just don’t want to be caught opening something like that in public (not that I have btw! but the thought came to me now.)

Thank you <3

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how much of his experiences with Caro does Johnny remember rn in SD? Is he getting them back at all?

Spoileryish stuff under the cut for his memories

Long story long RIGHT now at this moment in SD, it still vague for him but he is slowly getting things back. He remembers a cheerleader (he makes reference to a 'cute little cheerleader' in the Creaky chapter that Caro confirms was in fact them.) PTSD, Trauma and brain damage from both abuse and actually physically dying for a short period all contribute to Johnny having a lot of blank spots and fuzzy details in his memories of childhood/teenagehood. He remembers Caro was his neighbor after he puts together that Caro and Carrie are the same person (which takes a bit longer for him since they look and sound a little different these days and his memory of them is distorted, he has no pictures or anything to remind him. There is a scene in Mil-Liminal where Maddie shows him a yearbook photo and at least the part that he knows them QUITE WELL comes crashing back.) He does not remember they did have a chance to become 'official,' and actually dated, it happened so close to his major injuries/brush with death, but he does know it happened at this point, cuz Caro's told him. Things do come back to him, if he's reminded, for instance, Caro being trans now reminds him they told him about it once when they were kids, that it was something he knew about. Caro having their attack the night he hangs out with them reminds him they've ALWAYS experienced the supernatural. he falls into patterns with them that he did when he was younger, such as the way he sings to them or held them because of habit and familiarity even if he doesnt exactly remember. He's slowly putting the pieces back together as they are presented to him. i was asked while writing this reply if he has sense memory, and yes, caros scent, the feel of them, songs they liked together, if he ever gets into the Datsun again, all those things play into it. He does NOT remember the pendant Caro wears. Or that he gave it to them. Or that it was even his. When Caro speaks of him in the podcast, and he listens to it, he does not realize its him they are talking about. When they tell him it was about him, he actually still has a hard time believing that someone could speak about HIM in such a poetic and yearning way. Theres many things he remembers, and many things he knows because hes been told, but he does still have a hard time distinguishing which is which. I do want to note that there is inconsistencies in SD when it comes to these two, mostly because their relationship wasnt actually supposed to be canon, and Caro wasnt supposed to be in SD at all, its been a fun challenge to tie things back together with it, when i first started making the comic, I decided I'd leave room in my narratives for me to be creative and change up original concepts and even the way i draw if i wanted too as long as the Main Story was consistent, which helps keep things fun to create for me, especially for something ive been working on for 6 years! I'm actually touching on Johns memories in i think next months episode of SD, (it can be read early on Tapas's Early access with ink right now) so theres definitely more about it coming up <3

#ask box things #poor sweet johnny #childhood trauma #ptsd recovery #relationships #seemingly dark #trans #i always write WAY TOO MUCH for these but i find it really inspiring #memory

I love all your OCS dude they're all so peaks

Ahh, thank you so much! I'm super happy to hear that! :) I would've even made a piece of art with all of my fellas thanking you, but I messed up my back and can't properly draw for now... And I didn't want you to hang even more without me acknowledging your kind words! I still will make an appreciation piece tho! But when I will recover a bit <':)

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