Dean was never going to grow into John's jacket and I think that's both a heartbreak and a victory
this absolutely crushed me

seen from Russia
seen from Russia

seen from Ukraine
seen from China
seen from United States

seen from United States
seen from Kazakhstan
seen from Malaysia
seen from United States

seen from Germany

seen from United States
seen from United Kingdom
seen from United States
seen from Saudi Arabia

seen from Japan
seen from China
seen from Russia
seen from United Kingdom
seen from United States
seen from China
Dean was never going to grow into John's jacket and I think that's both a heartbreak and a victory
this absolutely crushed me
Are you also unable to stop thinking about what kind of shenanigans they must get up to off camera that it got referenced in the half time show? Because I can't move on from that
so sorry i'm responding to this super late, i saw it was in my asks but then the little notification thingy goes away so i forget again completely 😭 but yes i am always wondering wtf they are doing that we don't see because the smosh editors are also make jokes (kortney in flashback, rock in the anthony getting slapped vid) so i cannot even imagine wtf they are like off camera is this is what they're like on camera. straight men are sometimes so gay it boggles my mind lmao
Dearest mutual. I know nothing of formula 1. Why are the ferrari and red bull brands fighting???
oh frosty i am so so so glad you asked bc now i get to be insane.
(this got super long so I essentially have an essay below the cut. if you're curious about formula 1, give it a read!)
seeing all the jokes about how anthony will just not stop complimenting ian -> hearing the reason of why he's been doing that in the letter vid made me CRUMBLE oh my god
like he's reflected on the fact that in the past he had become so self-conscious it prevented him from praising his best friend and now he's making 110% sure he doesn't repeat the same mistake. and now we see the rapid-fire compliments and appreciation and admiration, but it doesn't feel forced? it's like he's had it stored up for so long that he just wants to get it all out so he takes every chance he can get. i just think it's so sweet :') more!!! openness!! no more walls!!!
this!!! they're learning and growing and choosing to be better!!!! i'm so unbelievably happy for them.
the way anthony clearly thought the world of ian and their friendship but had his own stuff to work through, and now that he's grown he can express how much he values ian. it's such a beautiful story, and i respect anthony so much for recognizing what was actually holding him back and working through it
I think the only thing Ian was genuinely hurt by, only for a moment, was “I’m beginning to truly believe you’re not a good person anymore.” I think he’s done a lot of work on himself and he clearly has a lot of embarrassment thinking abt the person he used to be, but it can’t feel good to hear that from someone you love. the good thing was that immediately after he finished the letter, Anthony said “I don’t think you’re a bad person.”
oh god that was so hard to watch. if i was in ian's position i would have definitely cried lmao.
that moments was difficult and also when anthony said that he felt their best friendship started to deteriorate in 2009 and ian was a bit taken aback by how early that was :(
i'm so impressed by how much bravery it must have taken on both sides to be able to talk about the contents of the letter so openly. they've so obviously matured and grown so much from the dark days, and i feel privileged in a way to be able to watch them be so vulnerable.
Someone suggested Dan Howell showing up as a surprise guest and now I can't stop thinking about Sister Daniel coming in. They're just gonna make the cuntiest church group with pastor ian as the leader
this would be insane and i would explode
I loved that you already turned that iconic moment into your blog title!
it had to be done, i almost cried
i'm going to take this opportunity to be sappy, because truly until june 20th of this year, when ian and anthony dropped the insane bomb that they bought smosh, i didn't realize how much smosh meant to me. i've watched them since i was 10! it's been 11 years!!! i grew up watching them all throughout middle school and their content was always something i could rely on. i fell off a bit in high school bc life but still remember crying at the dining room table when anthony announced he was leaving smosh even though i was barely watching.
flash forward to now, i'm 21 and and was chilling in my college apartment just scrolling through tiktok when i saw someone causally mention ian and anthony bought smosh. and i thought it was a joke. it was so out of the realm of possibility and i had let go of the hope i'd ever see them together in a video again in like 2018. but it was true and i lost my fucking marbles. my love for smosh has gone through a renaissance, and watching ian and anthony is such a fucking joy. their journey has been so insane, and they just bring me hope that everything will work out and things will always end up the way they are meant to be.
I am still trying to process this entire letter but the thing that continues to stick out to me is that Anthony has felt like this since 2009 and how much small things that Ian said just stuck with him so much that eventually he thought his best friend resented him and how in turn it made him resent his best friend. The part where he says that he thinks that Ian is a bad person just killed me and I don't know how Ian kept a straight face through that. This entire video will haunt me for weeks.
oh absolutely. i haven't fully processed the video at all, and i know i'm going to rewatch it later today. i kept have to pause and take multiple breathers because some of the things anthony wrote about hit way too close to home.
in a way anthony describing the letter as "angry" is a bit misleading. the journal entry is honestly a love letter to an old friendship that's being grieved and it's filled with self loathing and resentment that i'm sure a lot of people can relate to, because unfortunately having those negative thoughts towards loved ones is part of the human experience.
the ian that anthony was so resentful towards was ultimately a version of ian that anthony had built up in his head, because the two of them weren't communicating. ian most likely had a version of anthony he unconsciously created that he also resented, and we can see that a bit when ian talked about being suspicious of anthony's motives for opening up to him in 2016. it's so beautiful that they were able to rebuild the trust between them, and it's clear how strong their relationship is now because they were able to discuss the letter in a healthy way.