justTalk(Kevin);
For a long while, Daniel stands on the porch of the house he shares with his partner, holding his infant child in his arms, thinking about what first to say.
He almost never deliberates this long--being able to think so much faster than a human has its benefits--but for this... for all of this... there’s so much to consider. so much uncertainty. Even after spending the night with his family, asking his Father for advice and taking comfort in simple things, he still has so many questions. There are so many ways it could all go wrong and fall apart. He’s so scared of losing everything.
Should he just start with... ‘I’m sorry’? Or maybe ‘I love you’. Both of those things are true, but they don’t quite feel right. He’s never felt more fragmented and lost in his life. There’s no logic around emotion--no reason for the terrible things they both said. It has to get better, somehow. He’s never had a fight like this--not with someone he cares about so desperately.
But he looks down at Haven’s bright blue eyes, innocent and inquisitive--and he steadies himself, knowing if not only for the both of them, for Haven, he has to do this. He has to just... just...
He opens the door quietly, stepping inside, his eyes cast downward--he looks a mess, still, albeit with a clean shirt borrowed from his father. Kevin is there, at least--still there. And he just says the first words that jump to the front of his processing queue.
“I’m home.”
