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A sunshine named Stana 46/?

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riffing on my radiohuskerdust au where husk wins angel's soul but still ends up losing it all to alastor, it just occurred to me how funny it would be if angel finally decides to move out of the shitty flat he's been unhappily sharing with husk's self-destructive ass, get his shattered life together, and get sober by checking into the happy hotel, only to be there for barely two weeks before alastor comes crashing back into his life and forcing him to cohabitate with husk AGAIN. and by funny i mean possibly mental breakdown-inducing

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Angel sort of hates himself for the little ember of pride behind his ribs at getting Husk to laugh—makes him feel like he’s still chasing the guy’s approval, trying to figure out how best to make himself appealing to his new master in all the ways he used to be appealing to Valentino. The thought that maybe if he could hit whatever button would make Husk’s gaze focus on him instead of the next big gamble, to make him recognize Angel’s value, he wouldn’t be thrown away again.

Look where that got him. A decade of nothing, and now he’s starting from scratch. He’s supernaturally gifted at wasting his life on shitty men.

or: in the eighties, overlord husk swindles valentino for angel dust's soul—not that it really changes anything. a decade later, husk loses everything to the radio demon. angel's still working out his feelings about that.

inspired by this au, which has frankly occupied my every waking thought since i wrote it. enjoy!

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I can't help but feel a sense of impending doom while reading your radiohuskerdust fic, because if Alastor also being on a leash becomes part of this au, then Angel has a 4th owner. On other hand, it's kinda hilarious in messed up way, them forming a little chained up train of regrets

YES. YEAH. i hc that a good chunk of the way alastor tends to treat husk is just projection. alastor redirects his own helplessness and anger about his situation onto husk, who he thinks objectively deserves it, but he doesn't really do the same to angel because he doesn't really view angel as someone with the agency to offend his sensibilities the way husk did. in a roundabout, dehumanizing, and super condescending way, alastor is easier on angel just because there's not a lot of fun in exacting karmic retribution on someone who's like an abused shelter dog to him. though that changes eventually! but yeah angel's got owners-in-law through alastor and i'm sure none of them would be happy to have that particular secret spilled

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I am not sure if you are still interested in asks about your radiohuskerdust au, but it has been haunting me. If both Husk and Angel found out about Alastor's leash, how would they react?

i am ALWAYS interested in asks about any of my aus, but in particular this one has also been haunting me, anon, so thank you very much for opening this can of worms for me again >:)

ohhh boy. i think alastor's leash, canonically, plays a role in the way he treats husk, as it's both his hard limit wrt the disrespect that husk can get away with and the whole hallway scene just reeks of projection. this is alastor lashing out because husk has, for the first time that we've seen (and i think his first time overall), struck a genuine nerve because he's pissed off and humiliated and wants to make alastor feel even a fraction of that. but crucial to this scene is that husk even KNOWS about this in the first place. i really doubt alastor would've just told him, so he must've found out another way, either by meeting whoever alastor's deal is with or figuring it out somehow (personally i love the idea of alastor bringing husk along to meet whoever it is at their request/order, but that's just me).

so. presuming that husk and angel find out on their own, together. husk is stunned at first but pretty quickly slides back into gruff apathy over it. angel is also startled but he also knows what it's like -- to be such a hotshot when someone else is pulling your strings backstage. he understands even when alastor doesn't want him to. it's almost a cycle of unwanted sympathy: alastor has a little bit of pity for angel, angel has a little bit of pity for husk, husk has a little bit of pity for alastor -- and all of them range from indifferent to deeply resentful about this. but at the end of the day, all three of them have the exact same mindset about soul deals: you damn yourself.

angel tends to victim-blame himself for the situation he's in, taking undue responsibility for the violence that other people inflict on him because at one point, many decades ago, he signed on the dotted line with someone he thought loved him. husk and alastor, on the other hand, know exactly what they did and why they did it, even if they regret it. they don't blame themselves so much as they're realistic about how complicit they've been in their own fuckups. all three of them have to believe they're responsible for their own misery to maintain an illusion of control (+ pride in alastor's case).

but also!! i'm definitely working under the impression that alastor's situation is tangibly different from angel and husk's. i think we're given good reason to believe in s1 that alastor isn't owned by anyone so much as he's just working under some constraints or possibly indebted to someone, literally a leash rather than the kind of complete, unconditional soul ownership that he has over angel and husk. so there's a sense of indignant unfairness there too -- alastor might be able to wiggle out of his deal eventually and fervently anticipates doing so, but there is nothing angel or husk can do about their contracts. so i definitely think there's some bitterness there between them over that. alastor takes out his frustrations with his own deal on angel & husk, who are free to just snap back at him when he's being a dick because he finds it funny, and they just kind of go back and forth nipping at each other forever like a bunch of dogs tied together by their collars. sooo functional guys great job

[kate--beckett]

A sunshine named Stana 47/?