jordan but the most lives he's lived the more of a disconnect he has. he's numb to tragedy, bored almost, always tired, and going through motions as if on autopilot. safe with conversations. it's like watching someone play a videogame for the 100th time. he knows it all already, he's just going through the motions. he's so far beyond broken, there's almost nothing left of him. and to everyone else? the ones who don't know? he went from a little awkward, nervous, protective to.. 1/2
to numb, robotic, checked out. they ask what's wrong, he's says nothing, and of conversation. he doesnt get real nightmares anymore because hes lived through worse than anything his brain can throw at him. oh, he still follows his role, still fights for balance, his friends, but there's no passion. it's an obligation. he's been doing the same thing for hundreds, maybe thousands of lives. you can't do that without becoming nothing. he's barely jordan anymore. void inhabits his soul. 2/2
he’s tired and he’s done and he just is not allowed rest
