Treating my dysphoria with alcohol
I know this is getting out of hand and I should just take the bull by the horns and tell my hubby the frick I’m thinking and feeling.
Maybe it’s the Aspie in me or just me being a coward afraid of change, but I’m truly scared of telling him about my thoughts regarding trans and my own feeling with it.
I just drink during the nights I’m not working and sit in a seperate room from him, going through the motions and doing other stuff. I actually don’t think I’ve had a proper serious conversation with him in months.. It’s like we both try to avoid it at all cost and only fight when it comes to kids and the way we should fix with the house and stuff..
Lucky I got more drinky and Journal number 3 from Gravity Falls, so I have something to keep myself occupied with, aside from the occasional searched on reddit/ftm... MEHD