#asshole doctors

[watchforstars]

...Fuck adulting. I’m over work today...

[starlightoffandoms]

I had a melt down in a doctor's office today. I've been dealing with chronic pain since I was a teenager. I've tried everything. Today this new doctor said things that just made me break down. "I don't prescribe medication here. You've got others for that. I fix the problem." And "yeah you're over weight but that's not why you have these problems. You can be healthy and overweight. You've got a lot of good habits. We'll just enhance those and get you consistent while adding a few more good habits to your routine."

Like literally world changing for me. 27 doctors I've seen in over a decade and it's always been "here's some pills go away" or "it's b/c you're fat go away" or "you're making it up" or "your mom is making it up go away".

In the recent past I had one doctor listen and find a treatment that mostly worked. But now refuses to see me b/c I didn't make an appointment in eight months when I was literally on suicide watch. And he wouldn't hear me out even after my therapist called. So I was back to suffering. I came across a Groupon for a spinal correction center. Bought it and after months of bullshitting around finally made my appointment. And today I was in tears and losing my shut b/c finally there was another doctor that wanted to help. And got a bonus massage out of it. Today was a good day.

[allthestuffandeverything]

me: *has chest pains*

doctor: it’s anxiety

me: *passes out multiple times per day*

doctor: it’s anxiety

me: *has seizures*

doctor: it’s anxiety

me: *has migraines*

doctor: it’s anxiety

me: so I have anxiety?  can i get help or something with that?

doctor: woah not so fast labels aren’t needed uwu :) 

[drmonkeysetroscans]

God complex.

[auntie-doom]

I think I have pinpointed the behavior that people find awkward and off-putting in phone calls.[*] The Audio Processing Disorder is so bad on the phone, I simply wait for people to say whatever it was that was SO IMPORTANT that they had to PLACE AN ACTUAL CALL, and struggle to understand it. After four and a half decades, I think I have it down: they're expecting me to hold up half the conversation, even though I have no information about the call yet.

I very attentively say things like "Speaking." and "Yes?" and "I see." when the person on the other end pauses for my input, which results, inexplicably, in a long uncomfortable pause. I am trying to HELP you get to the freaking point would you just TALK. I assume the neurodivergence is why I don't understand this discomfort on their parts.

[*] my phone demeanor is so bad, when my now-spouse called to ask me on a second date, he thought I was blowing him off

anyway.

I bring this up to tell you that I had the most *enjoyable* awkward phone conversation of my life, inflicting uncomfortable pauses repeatedly while being breathlessly attentive to the cruel cardio doc who answered all my questions with "I don't know" at the first appointment.

By exaggerating my usual attempts to quickly move through a conversation, I made it last at least four times longer than he had apparently planned to spend, caused him to go on an apparently unrehearsed tangent, and had him sputtering in perplexity, without asking a single question (I did not want any further information from him).

I was already going to have a phone call migraine. That? That made it *worth* it.

[jackdanielsxorangejuice]

I saw the worst fucking doctor yesterday. I went to see him because my depression's gotten worse since I started working again and I just need some time off please and thank you. At one point he asked how my childhood was (???) and if there was any abuse or alcoholism in my family, and I said no there wasn't, and he had the absolute fucking audacity to say "well everything's alright in your life then" and just :--------))) exactly what every depressed person wants to hear, that there's no reason for me to have this disease, apparently I'm just whiny and lazy. Thank you Mr Doctor, somehow I'm all cured now, how did I not see that before, yes everything's coming up fucking roses

[drmonkeysetroscans]

“It’s all squishy in here.”

[kettish]

Well, I was put in for a consult for a breast reduction this week...but got a call today saying the clinic rejected it because I need to have a BMI of 30 or less. Thats 175 lbs for me max, or 45 lbs less than I weigh now.

So I guess because I'm overweight I deserve these fucking overlarge H-cup tits that give me headaches *literally every day now.* And a reduction wouldnt help me be more active. Nope, not a bit. Sorry, fatty, but you get what you deserve!

I looked up studies at the National Institute of Health Website and turns out there's a very minimal increase in risk of post-surgical complications for people above an average BMI. Like maybe a 2% increase . From 2% to 4%. So my happy ass is going in again, with studies, and with my personal health history in mind, and I'm going to argue with my doctor. Over whether it's worth doing the surgery that would increase my quality of living.

I'm so mad right now I want to cry and yell and my head hurts *again.* UGH. I finally got to the point where I accepted my body as it is and then this shit happens! I hate dieting! I love being active but I'm already hurting by the end of the day when I have the opportunity to work out. I bartered for a massage today and the masseuse said she was almost positive that my boobs are why I am having such horrible headaches. Also that my shoulders were like concrete slabs, and she worked on those things for an hour and a half before having to throw in the towel for the day.

fuck everything about this.