#aster rants

[apoororphanboy]

So apparently it’s completely ok for my sister to have a bad day and we should all tiptoe around her

But when I’m having a bad day I’m a brat, whiny b-, and told to stop with the attitude

BECAUSE THAT MAKES SOOOO MUCH SENSE

AGGJFCH RHN A DR

[staticvoidzz]

CW: Rant

Guess who is expected to do like 8-12 hours of school work every day until Tuesday? Me! FUCK.

I ALREADY DO LIKE 6-7 HOURS OF WORK EVERYDAY AND LIFES BEEN SHITTY RECENTLY BRO 💔 I JUST WANT A DAY WHERE I DONT START GETTING LIGHTHEADED FROM STRESS.

Also, the reason why I’m expected to work more hours is because I need to show lots of progress in an online school I just enrolled in for court!! FML

I am not doing 12 hours of work every day 💔

You physically can’t make me.

[staticvoidzz]

Cw: Rant Post

I hate whenever my mom compares me and my older siblings singing.

Whenever I sing in the car with her, she just side eyes me and just talks about my sibling and how great their singing is and how talented they are.

Like, wooow! No way the person who has 4 years of musical theatre and vocal lessons under their belt sounds better than me? A kid who’s only been in choir occasionally??

I genuinely think my mom made me hate my voice and i stopped singing for a while until I didn’t hate myself whenever I do start singing, I just only sing when I’m home alone now so I don’t annoy my family

Ughh sorry for ranting again, i promise I’m usually not like this

[staticvoidzz]

I’m tired but I can’t go to sleep. Wanna know why? Because it’s storming outside and my screen door got broken from huge winds a bit ago…meaning that every 2 minutes, I just hear BANG BANG BANG from the screen door being hit against my actual door and the house 💔💔

Like, cmon broooo I was already having a bad day, I wanna go to beddddd💔💔

[staticvoidzz]

I midkey hate my AUDhd.

But I don’t want to live in a world without it, because I wouldn’t be Aster, I wouldn’t be me.

I wouldn’t be the kid who adores Ride The Cyclone, Rielle!Ocean, Play to Win, and all my OCS.

I wouldn’t have met the people I did, most likely.

It’s kinda complicated?

[staticvoidzz]

I sometimes hate the victim blaming my mom does whenever I start to have an “Autistic Freakout”.

Since I can get very overwhelmed very easily in public, crowded spaces, I tend to go almost nonverbal.

And she’s always like “tell me what’s wrong” and when I do, I tend to do it in a sharper tone because if not then I’d be a stuttering mess and she would just continue to say “tell me what’s wrong” in a more demanding tone.

When I do eventually say what’s wrong she’s like: “Oh, I’m only trying to help you, stop acting like this to me, it’s not even that big of a deal”

LIKE BRO YOU KNOW I HAVE AUTISM, WHY DO YOU START TO GET PISSY AT ME FOR MY DISABLE BEING DISABLING??

Like sorry, I can’t help it.

[staticvoidzz]

I’m not the biggest fan of being “popular” on Social Media, especially on an app like TT.

Where people can harass and attack you for basically no reason. I’m not saying that all people do this, it’s just a pattern I’ve been noticing in the FYP. It’s slowly starting to get to the point where I get anxious about what I post on there, due to the social pressure of being “perfect” Also I’m not being ungrateful, over 9000 people watching me (well technically not, but you get the point) Its a little intimidating?

[asterjupit3r]

I hate the situation I'm in rn,long story short my friend's ex/groomer(he's 18) is coming to my school on the 10th cause he volunteer to do sm there(idk what my friend C kept contact with him that way she knows wtf that dude is planning for my friend L)and obviously hearing this made my friend go in a bit of panic fast forward to lunch and my whole friend group is talking bout how to keep L away from him the whole day,then my friend L suggested to ask help from the only one who knows more info on him aka a girl,who I'll call Chihuahua,who wants to fight me

Obviously I immediately said no cause she's a bitch,but L said the only way to know wtf he is and wtf he's gonna do that day is to ask help from her,and ngl she's fucking right ugggggh worst part is I have to ask Chihuahua for help cause if she says no or refuses I can easily blackmail her UGGGGH I DON’T WANNA DO THISSS