#astrological experiences

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4th house Sun trauma is being the older sibling. You’re responsible for holding your family together emotionally, morally and what not. It’s having to adultify yourself and become a parental type figure- earlier than you needed to be on a emotional and psychological front.

It’s having to give YOURSELF the absolute emotional stability the people outside of you refused you. It’s being bashed because ’you are too sensative’. Its people making assumptions about you because you clutched and protect the essence of your soul because it constantly has to act like the light in the dark. It’s creating a home and foundation within yourself and carrying it wherever you go giving bits and pieces to others so they don’t even come near to experiencing the pain and psychological torture you had to bare and hold within the deep core of your being.

It’s having to sacrifice a crucial part of self discovery and self identification to be a home and foundation for someone else to lean on. It’s becoming use to being used.

It’s breaking generational family curses and getting ridiculed, demonized and bashed for it. It’s seeing the deepest most darkest profound infrastructures of the earths core and human nature and still come out the other side empathetic and morally sane. It’s being aware that you were abused , but not becoming like your abusers.

The 4th house is at the bottom of the sky, when the sun goes there it becomes the dead of night. 4th housers don’t get props enough for the hell and back they have to go through.

To all the 4th house suns out there, I see you and I love you.

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Ever since my Mars Mahadasha started (ruler of my 4th house), I’ve become even more close to my family. I also started working in a real estate company owned by my sister's BF (but I work from home though)

4th house - family, real estate / lands & properties 

Mars - real estate business / lands & properties

other observations & experiences…  

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Lilith in the 11th house Composite

Ok this is gonna be a harsh start off but Composite Lilith in the 11th house could mean when you guys get into an argument the other could talk shit about you to their friends or vice versa. The friends know you don’t even mean it and you two will go right back to being with each other anyway, but will support you in your shit talking☠️😂

So yea it’s an indication of your immediate friend circle not liking the other person you’re with in this composite this is at first maybe. this goes for both sides. Especially the male in this dynamic the female friends of the girl he’s in this composite with, will not like him/be in disapproval of you guys dating.

The girls will talk shit on him depending on the sign/ element. If it’s an air sign it will be personality based insults rather than physical appearance looks like if it were fire or earth here. It’s typically not unwarranted, Lilith in the position only activates if the essence of her placement is ‘called’ upon. Could be a lot of socially unacceptable shit coming from the male with this composite chart. Lilith for a woman is her empowerment, Lilith for a man is his insecurity/shame where he showcases his bad and uncouth behaviors.

So put that together in a composite chart and you get two different povs in one relationship. If you guys share a friend group the male could behave in a socially unacceptable way to the female friends/ acquaintances of the girl in this composite. It’s nothing like cheating or flirting although it definitely could be..it’s more so of a back handed insult/unnecessarily blunt kind of energy coming off the male. It’s petty and the girls clap back. Your girl friends respectfully tolerate him..and not genuinely like him☠️

Lilith in the 11th composite can also mean you share friends that may face ridiculing by societies standards of sorts.. just for the way they are. Like having queer friends and friends apart of the LGBTQ with this composite, you may especially attract friends of that caliber while together regardless of if your a homo/hetro relationship or not. The female in this composite is more open hearted to taboos of life and people in general here with this aspect and that part of her is highlighted within this relationship, she feels like a safe space for these new people/friends. People with this placement in the natal chart would probably somewhat relate as well😭

Um on a more lighter note you two with you guy’s friend group might like to play horror games all together a lot. Or together you find yourself doing more riskier things with the friend group. The energy of a 11th house lilith natal, synastry and composite is such an iconic energy. Chaotic but ICONICC.

You like to get that thrill in with your friends while you two are together in a friendship and the friends love it/have invigorating fun doing activities with you two like games or maybe traveling somewhere because you as a pair just make things feel 10times more engaging. It’s addictive to see from the outside.

Lilith is a really raw and forward energy , she looks you deep in the core of your soul so Lilith in the 11th can mean you can get comfortable with your friendships/new acquaintances you make during this relationship fairly well and quickly. There may be more female/feminine friends than male.

The comfort is strangely natural and if the ruler of your Lilith/11th house is in an earth sign it can make the friends you guys make during this relationship almost long lasting even if the relationship itself is not more, long lasting especially for the girl.

As for you two as a couple with this placement there could also be ..some like online freaky stuff. Idk uhh, take that how you will BUT..YOU WILL absolutely have some kind of mixture between freaky and or taboo shit and the internet-webs. Like for example those horror games I mentioned bc Lilith rules the scary and banished stuff in society/generally speaking. So along side Pluto she’s definitely a horror gal. Mixing the internet (11th house) with a dash of thrilling horror/or taboo/freak stuff(Lilith).

This Lilith could also mean you guys are unafraid of breaking social/societal norms while together. It’s practically unconscious how easily you guys naturally fall into this dynamic. Like for example the girl is more calm one and the guy is more emotional one and you two will feel shamelessly about it. Or you guys are quite literally gay like either two gay boys two lesbian girls already lol. Regardless something is gonna be different and particularly unique within this relationship. It’s kind of like you are you and I am me and I respect you in your nature bc we’re weird in a way that compliments the other.

Could also indicate you guys never really had a friendship phase. Like from the jump.. just been absolutely..shamelessly freaky and open about how you feel with each other. The girl/more feminine energy in this dynamic could be a little restrictive(in a more hetro dynamic) but that’s not stopping the thrill at all..

Anyways I think that’s it. See yalsssis😘

[yrotic11]

1st house Neptune conjunct Chiron /chiron trined Lilith core

also this HEAVILY reminds me of UttarahBhadra nakshatra(mid degree sidereal Pisces.)

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Aesthetic for Chiron in the 1st house.

the tortured soul..

Lana Del Rey Brooklyn Baby (instrumental) slowed.🎶

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TW: Slightly Mature⚠️(astrology take)

Okay so…. I made a post a while back attributing my obsession with mother Mary to my Ardra Venus💎 since a lot of Mary’s depictions include tears and that’s Ardra nakshatra’s symbol.

But I think Mary may have a link with bharani as well

Which would just add extra confirmation for me and my resonance with her energy because im a bharani moon :

If you don’t know…yoni refers to the female reproductive part(the vag). It is also a very strong symbol for Bharani Nakshatra in sidereal astrology. It’s beginning to making sense now to me it’s tropical association…Tropically speaking, sidereal Aries becomes tropical Taurus, a place where most western astrologers classify the moon to be in exaltation. The unconscious classification to be the true epitome and the true embodiment of motherhood in western culture (mother Mary)…is actually sidereal bharani nakshatra.

Claire Nakti also made a video linking child birth and a strong connection between motherhood/birth and reincarnation/incarnation symbolism and Bharani nakshatra. It’s also funny the symbolism of the “in between” in films that have strong bharani influence on them, -mother Mary is said to be the in between-between us and God in heaven “intercession”, as they call it. And in a Catholic practice , you can pray to her on your or another’s behalf regarding your sins or otherwise, so she can bring to God on the behalf of whoever is praying. She is a guide towards getting sins or wrong doings atoned for on the spirit realm. Also C. Nakti explains themes of sacrifice for love in bharani , sometimes even involving death. Something we all know to be a highly related theme with Mary’s son, Jesus. It’s also to be noted that Bharani is in Aries, sign of the ram. A baby ram is called a lamb and with the themes of sacrifice heavily related in bharani nakshatra , this sounds awfully familiar doesn’t it?…almost like the story of Jesus.

Anyway here’s Claire Naktis video:

This was soo cool. This is one of my first actually lengthy posts on vedic/sidereal. I have another post I wanna put out there soon ,maybe. 💜

[yrotic11]

Fun fact actually really really strange fact, people with Venus in your 12th house especially if it’s in like a water sign or like conjunct trine or opposite Uranus or in Aquarius or something (it’s not limited to those placements though) they could really have a thing for YOUR toes and feet.💀