I wish father cared about me, like, at all. I mean what did he expect me to do? I was at an age where you do dumb things. I wish he would have listened to me. Saying it's not real doesnt make the hallucinations go away. Optimism doesnt make the paranoia go away. Ignoring it all doesnt make the psychosis go away. I had schizophrenia, and all he did was patronize me. [1/3]
Maybe he just didnt know what to do? Tch, that's only an excuse for a bit. After a few years of it he could have found at least some way to alleviate symptoms. I found ways to alleviate symptoms in that time. I found ways to cope. He wouldnt listen. He didnt care. He claimed he did! He thought he did. He cared about me and what he thought was happening to me. He didnt care about the truth. [2/3]
Father, wherever you are, what did you expect me to do when every method of "become stronger, so you wont have to be afraid of x happening" was exhausted and i was no closer to being cured? What did you really want from me... - Asura, who has schizophrenia again but at least I can get a diagnosis and medicine this time. [3/3]
