ramble bc every micaiah hate post i see in light of a new alt takes a week off my lifespan 💔
while i don't expect everyone to play RD and pick up on the nuances of characters it makes me sad to see how many people just see micaiah as "a groomer". i love both sothe and micaiah and don't think you can hate one and still fully appreciate the other
"he ruins her character" FEH ruins her character. they don't understand that his character centers around her while hers doesn't center around him. it adds a layer of depth to them both and illustrates how far ahead they each think and where their priorities lie. and that's part of why they make each other so interesting.
i think the view of her seeing him as a little brother makes sense narratively as he IS the little boy she rescued long ago who decided to dedicate his life to her and she still does not understand why (rafal bond convo). why did he continue to search her out when she abandoned him? in his eyes, she's practically all he has, while micaiah's selfless nature leads her to involve herself with the needs of others. on top of being a protagonist, her attentiveness towards others leads her to have a much wider variety of relationships in RD and i wish FEH would focus on that instead of assigning 1-2 prominent characters to protags (like ephraim and lyon for eirika). and i wish people wouldn't label her as a creep when it's clear that this is FEH taking that one aspect of micaiah, framing it as problematic, and running with it every chance they get
sothe is an important part of micaiah's character but she's so much more than that and if by some miracle FEH didn't reduce the dimensionality its characters there wouldn't be twitter riots each time she got an alt
and should they be glorifying this while simultaneously putting them in bridal outfits while calling them siblings? no. that's weird. it sends mixed signals and this is why this discourse exists
tw: mentions of abuse jeremy has rather complicated feelings when it comes to his grandfather. edward danvers practically raised him, since malcolm (jeremy’s father) clearly had no interest in it. edward clearly loved jeremy, and jeremy loved edward. however edward - made some choices that ended up impacting jeremy in a negative way.
1. edward told no one that malcolm killed jeremy’s mother ( killing “humans” for no reason is a crime against pack law ) and while the pack SUSPECTED this was the case, they had no proof, and also weren’t too interested in investigating it. edward also didn’t tell jeremy that his mother was japanese, something jeremy ended up figuring out himself a little bit later.
2. edward set up something to “protect” jeremy from malcolm. basically if jeremy was killed or ‘permanently injured’ then a list of malcolms crimes would be sent to the pack alpha, exposing malcolm and either getting him banished from the pack or killed. does this list exist? who knows. it might have just been a bluff. but there is clearly an obvious loophole and it enabled malcolm to still abuse jeremy, as long as it wasn’t permanent (and he did). edward also knew that if it benefitted malcolm, then malcolm would kill his own father. he had precautions set up for that too.
3. upon edwards death, stonehaven and all of the inheritance went to JEREMY; which on the surface is good. however, edward died when jeremy was looking to go to college - and at that point, the danvers family was not rich. jeremy was forced to not go to college, and come home and work to afford to keep the family home. additionally, malcolm was still living there. now jeremy COULD have kicked him out, but he kept his grandfathers mentality of ‘if malcolm is here then he can’t cause too much damage out there’. this just continued the emotional abuse and started the financial abuse, as malcolm pressured and manipulated jeremy into giving him ( jeremy’s hard earned) money instead of getting a job himself.
jeremy has no doubt that edward did what he thought was best, tried his hardest, but as jeremy got older he started to realise that... perhaps there had been other ways. perhaps if edward had taken the plunge and exposed malcolms crimes instead of covering it up, things would have been different for jeremy. he doesn’t know. he doesn’t hold that against his grandfather, as he did the same thing for a long time - but it is something he occasionally ponders upon.
Oh! I just thought of another Bangel parallel. While Buffy is dealing with Riley (a love interest) learning the truth about her, Angel is dealing with what was supposed to be a love interest (Kate) finding out he’s a vampire, and there’s fallout in both cases.
And now that I think about it... there are some similarities between Riley and Kate, which makes it even more of a parallel.
Summary: Post-RttE. Hiccup whump. As he grows older, Hiccup's insecurities with his physical body seem to take a bit of a backseat. They never completely disappear, but in time they are mere whispers that only occasionally bother him with their awful words. But his appearance, whether the features of his face are attractive or not, is one of the few things that never quite come to mind. Until one incident puts a stain on what many have called is a face carved by divinity.
Rating: Teen and up
Words: 1 238
Author’s Notes: This has been collecting dust on my list of finished fic for a year now.
Hiccup has always struck me as someone who wouldn't care much about his face. His insecurities have always seemed to be about how he isn't built like everyone else in his village. But even so, your face is important. So I figured Hiccup wouldn't be okay with having a big ol' scar on his either.
It's quiet as Hiccup sits on his spot at the table. He holds a mug in his hands that he's been staring at as it remains untouched. He's tired and should really be heading to bed now. The sun has set a while ago and he's taken some painkilling herbs given to him by Gothi, which are making him a little bit drowsy.
Toothless is present, too, as they rarely leave each other's side. The dragon would've chased him upstairs himself if he wasn't napping near the fire burning in the fire pit. The flames the only thing making any kind of sound in their living space. Well, that and the dragon's soft snoring.
His dad isn't here yet. He must either be running late or is being held up by something or someone. And with how late it is, Hiccup figures his friends must be home already. Astrid might already be asleep, as a matter of fact.
This leaves him plenty of time and quiet to think.
A couple of days ago, he's gotten hurt during some stupid experiment of his. He got the bright idea to create small canisters that can hold a certain amount of pressurized Zippleback gas or an amount of Nightmare saliva. If he could pull them off right, it would've done wonders for his Inferno. Whenever its fire would inevitably die down, he could refill it and ignite it again.
But alas, one of his prototypes has failed, again, and with painful consequences as a result.
He was testing one with Zippleback gas and something had caused it to go off. He doesn't know what sparked it, everything about that particular memory is quite vague to him now. He just knows that his face, hands, and shoulder took most of it. He's lost three of his fingers. One on his left, two on his right.
He screamed. A lot. The little that he does remember is that Gobber had come running when he heard him and that Toothless had been sent into a panicked frenzy, wanting to help and having no clue on what to do.
He had curled up against the workbench he was working on, bleeding profusely and blinded by both the pain and the smoke and heat affecting his eyes.
His father reached the forge just seconds later, having already been in the general area when he heard his son screaming bloody murder.
But in the end, it really isn't all that bad all things considered. Gothi has taken expert care of his injuries, has told him that he's fortunate he still has his hands and face at all after an explosion from such close proximity.
In the past few days since his accident, Astrid, Fishlegs, and his father have been taking care of his wounds.
Some shrapnel has cut into his shoulder. The wounds aren't deep, though they are probably going to leave some scarring. Hiccup counts himself lucky that it means he won't lose any functionality in that part of his body.
As for his facial injury...
Hiccup supposes it isn't too bad. It had become clear that same day that there was nothing wrong with his eyes. A good thing. And then there is the wound his face did sustain. It starts on the side of his head and goes all the way down to his jaw. It's a jagged line that breaks off into two branches near the bottom of his face, the much shorter one nearly cutting into his upper lip.
It's an especially painful injure. It pales in comparison to the phantom limb and chronic pains he frequently suffers from in his stump, but it's certainly up there. Hiccup already knew the face is one of the more sensitive parts of the human body, he knows the same counts for dragons. But he never knew how much a facial injury could actually hurt until it happened to him.
It made him feel some sympathy for Dagur. The former Berserker Chief now turned Consort-prince has his own scars on his face, which are uglier and look like they were once far more painful than his.
And unlike him, Hiccup is surrounded by a whole team of loved ones willing to help him heal and keep his injuries from getting infected. Snotlout and the Thorston twins haven't needed to do it yet, but Hiccup knows they will volunteer if they need to.
Honestly, Hiccup feels bad for just feeling bad about his own hurt. Dagur has suffered far worse than he did and the main reasons for being so down now are rather shallow.
It's a first for him and he should much more upset that another one of his inventions turned out to be a grand mistake. He will always admit to his flaws, but he never considered himself shallow before. But apparently, that is a side to himself that he hasn't discovered until his accident.
He hates this blemish on his face. He didn't used to worry about his looks or how attractive he is to other people. Whenever he did worry about his appearance, it was more about the scrawny nature of his built. But he worries about his looks now.
People often comment on how much they like his face. It never fails to catch him off guard or even make him feel embarrassed. They tell him or even Stoick that the Gods were in a very good mood the day they decided to give humanity Hiccup Horrendous Haddock the Third. Sometimes, he catches his own friends staring, too.
He has seen his reflection before and he never thought he saw anything special, but after the accident, he worries.
Astrid has reassured him that it isn't as bad as he's making it out to be last time she helped change his bandages. She even stated how sure she is that it's going to him look badass, rougher.
Not that he cared much before, but hearing her say that still helped him feel at least a little bit better about his situation.
The other Riders try to make him believe he looks better now. That this future scar will give him more credit as a Viking and Dragon Rider, but Hiccup can see them cringe whenever they see it.
At least the swelling is going down. And the wound didn't go through his eyes, which could've cost him his sight on that side if it did. He should be grateful for all of this!
And yet...
It has taken him so long to feel any kind of confidence with his own body. It's taken him years for those berating voices in his head to finally become nothing but inaudible background noise. Now that his face is sure to scar, by his own fault no less, those voices are quickly growing louder again.
After years of suppressing them, they are there, they are as loud as ever, and they are given something else to yell at him about.
Hiccup lets out a deep sigh. He would've hung his head if it didn't make his wound pound so much.
Gently laying a hand on the bandaged part of his face, he supposes he needs to start from scratch and spent another four years building his confidence from the ground up again. Until the next time he inevitably gets himself hurt by his own stupid fault and he'll have to start all over once more.
