as a result of feeling so so unwell and not knowing why, i'm just experiencing like. every kind of disordered response imaginable.
i'm sick and i'm going to die
i'm sick and i'm going to kill myself
i'm not actually sick i'm making it up somehow
if i tell people i'm unwell i'm being manipulative
if i don't tell people i'm unwell and then i still seem unwell i'm being manipulative
if i adapt my plans to my unwellness i'm being weak and avoidant
if i can't get the chores done then i don't deserve to rest
if i'm too unwell to do chores then i must also be too sick to play video games
and on and on. and on.


















