#audhd rambles

[elviraaxen]

Hello fellow burnouts I'm just coming on here to remind everyone that unless you have an active deadline or time you must be somewhere, there's literally no need to hurry! Your body cannot tell the difference between real and arbitrary urgency, so stop walking so fast, stop brushing your teeth so aggressively, and stop doing the dishes like they're gonna despawn if you leave them too long. Reminder; you do not get a medal for doing things fast when they don't need to be done fast! It will, in fact, only stress you out.

Pause, check in, breathe, start again but slower. Gold star! ⭐

[echoisquiet]

I know some people probably don’t enjoy the swapping bodies trope but I FIND IT SO SILLY AND FUN!

Especially how the characters get to know more about each other from it and the silly shenanigans that follow

[elviraaxen]

If adhd is like being a race car driver but your car has no breaks because you go-go-go until you crash or run out of fuel, then autism is like being a sail boat when everyone else is a motor boat -- I'm slower, setting sail takes longer because it includes many many more steps, I have to rely on the right conditions to get somewhere, and if I do things in the wrong order I tip over.

Being auDHD is like being a racecar with no breaks in a sailboat and you could just imagine how that goes.

[elviraaxen]

Not that we need another reason to hate TikTok diagnosis but I've never encountered a group of people with a worse case of learned helplessness and whatabout-ism than the "tiktok neurospicy (they exclusively mean audhd) uwu" crowd.

Like, yes, it's harder to be disabled and keeping a routine is practically impossible and you're gonna be more tired, stressed, and in pain than the general public because you are disabled and that sucks and it's unfair. But there's a massive difference between "I couldn't do this even if I tried, I'm sorry" and "I don't want to be uncomfortable even if it's at the expense of my health and other people's feelings". Like I hate to break it to you but humans are like neurologically programmed to not want to do the things that are good for us and nobody's exempt from learning and growing regardless of neurotype, even you.

[elviraaxen]

So APPARENTLY fructose can be a contributor as to why I'm so tired so instead of having fruit I'm gonna drink milk I'll check in at the end of the day

[elviraaxen]

Does anyone else get random sensations, memories, or repeating phrases attached to completely unrelated everyday actions?

For example, every time I look at a one of my characters my brain instinctively goes "skibbidi" and I have to sit in disbelief over how stupid my brain is to attach skibbidi to a character that has fucking nothing to do with skibbidi. Another thing is when I draw a different character's hair, my brain insta-plays that one time I accidentally deeply insulted one of my dearest friends and I have to RELIVE it every time. Mind you, this memory is like two years older than this character, so I have no idea why they're attached and no they don't look alike at all. Also when I load my dishwasher my brain plays an audio clip from the Swedish dub of my little pony and friends where a character goes "vill ni ha hjälp?" in a really shrieky voice and while it's admittedly really funny it's also REALLY DUMB and why do I do that. Like what's happening here? What's going on?

[elviraaxen]

coping with ADHD as a fem adult is like 30% getting meds that work and 70% learning how to cope with the constant judgement of being a "failed woman", and I think in my case that has significantly contributed to my gender-indifference. Because, while yes, in a way I know I am agender because if I woke up tomorrow as a man I would not care, but ALSO distancing myself from womanhood as a performance has allowed me to escape a lot of the judgement that made me uncomfortable/unwelcome partaking in womanhood in the first place. And thinking about it.. if this wasn't who I truly was.. that would be really fucking sad?

Like people don't really judge the fact that I don't want to be a parent because they take one look at me, see short self-cut hair, greasy glasses and men's clothes, and go "yeah you're not mom-material" and genderonormatively move on. People don't judge the fact that I never pick up my laundry from the floor because I label myself as "a gremlin going goblin mode" as opposed to a cottagecore lesbian or clean girl, of whom we expect a certain level of put-togetherness, which if I were to upkeep, would burn me out so fucking hard.

Idk where exactly I was going with this but I think women with ADHD deserve to be cut some fucking slack...

[krympy]

It's hard to really get into Pinterest like I used to. I like things, but it's such a dull feeling compared to what it used to be.

Anhedonia is a bitch.