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this is basically what all of my social media feeds have been looking like for the past three days and rightfully so please go see this movie

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so much has happened since i was last on here, looking at my old posts makes me wanna cry a lil

she knew exactly who she was back then, she was so authentically herself. then the repping and cope and drug use started and after a decade of pain and confusion here i am: a woman, a grown-up, a soul inhabiting a broken body

maybe at some point i'll chronicle some of the things that happened between 2016 and now. its funny because i relate so much more to the person on this blog than i do the person i was in my early 20s.

anyways. i'm back on here, maybe, we'll see <3

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please nikki PLEEEAAAASSSSEEEEE one chance 🙏

(manifesting she likes everyone’s letterboxd reviews, like to charge reblog to cast ✨)

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girls with big brown boba eyes whose lives are irrevocably changed after losing the people they love most to The Horrors…

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the more i think about it the more i realize chiaki in a shipping context is so funny to me bc everyone she gets shipped with is kind of a freak in different ways (ranging from /affectionate to /derogatory)

ok so for the girls (bc she’s a lesbian to me) we got:

sonia, who on the outside is your typical princess but then the more time you spend w her the more you find out she’s super into occultism, serial killers, slasher movies, etc

mikan. oh, mikan…my darling disaster, where do we start with you. became a nurse bc it was the only way she could have control over someone. such low self-esteem that she grows obsessively attached to anyone who shows her basic human kindness. idk what it says about me that i ship nanamiki the most out of all of these (i can explain they’re just so doomed by the narrative to me)

junko. self-explanatory

ibuki is literally textbook Weird Girl™ she’s canonically bitten people and would do it again

mukuro should also be self-explanatory

and as for the guys:

so hajime is often stereotyped as the One Normal Guy. the Straight (but not straight) Man. but what a lot of people forget to take into acct is that he always steps up for the insane shit bc he “has to.” mikan wanted to break his legs so she could care for him for the rest of his life & he proposed on the spot. don’t even get me STARTED on nagito. and ofc there’s also the fact that he was izuru

komanami is a BIG notp for me for several reasons (i’m sorry they’re both gay to me) but i’d be remiss if i didn’t include him here bc what the fuck is going on inside this man’s head. what is his DEAL

tl;dr girliepop has a type & i can respect her for that

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meant to post this a LONG time ago but anyways! natrox nation come get y’all juice <3

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thinking abt a scott pilgrim wicked au…

did anyone ask for this? no! but you’re getting it anyway <3

OKAY SO

first of all it’s up to you whether you wanna interpret it as the scott pilgrim cast just being in a production of wicked or them actually literally being in oz in place of the wicked cast

so initially one of my first ideas was envy as glinda & ramona as elphie. but then i got to thinking…is ramona an elphaba?

i thought about it a little longer, and i eventually came to the conclusion that ramona is ultimately more of a glinda. sure, she doesn’t exactly fit the aesthetic, but like glinda she’s heavily idealized by everyone, has a tendency to run from her problems, and doesn’t always realize how much of an impact her actions have on others until it’s too late.

and if ramona is glinda, then there’s an obvious choice for her elphaba…it’s roxie. you all saw this coming. “wicked witch” vs “evil ex,” the fact that they were literally college roommates, the doomed yuri, the BETRAYAL…it’s too perfect.

(kim as an understudy perhaps? like elphie she’s kinda deadpan & cold on the outside as a way to protect herself but is still genuinely kind once you get to know her)

(lowkey matthew in drag with the demon hipster chicks as the flying monkeys would kinda eat but THIS AIN’T ABOUT HIM)

now lies the question of who to cast as fiyero. spoiler alert, it’s not gonna be scott (we’ll get to him later). matthew would BODY that role bc he’s a theatre kid, but whoever gets cast as him is being paired with roxie and there’s no WAY her lesbian ass is doing as long as you’re mine with a dude so it’s gotta be gender-flipped.

a lot of people would probably suggest kim, but kim’s not really much of a fiyero type (and hollie’s kind of a nothingburger i’m sorry). out of the girls, i’d say the closest to him is probably gonna be (and if you knew me you probs also saw THIS coming) envy. not just to fulfill my self-indulgent rarepair agenda, but also bc envy is someone who can easily be perceived as shallow, superficial, and kinda mean, but is a lot more introspective than she looks.

scott and knives are respectively boq and nessa. like their wicked counterparts, knives is hopelessly in love with scott but scott never truly loved her, he only rlly went out with her bc she happened to be standing there; in reality he only has eyes for ramona. also i love the idea of roxie being knives’s ninja big sister post-canon

gideon is the wizard because obviously, while julie is madame morrible (all i’ll say is this makes more sense if you’ve seen the anime).

stacey & wallace are shenshen & pfannee which actually works even BETTER if ramona is glinda

stephen is the cowardly lion, dorothy is lisa miller bc she shows up in the source material but is only referenced in the adaptations. idk who dr. dillamond would be but we’ll figure that out

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i am capable of living and doing things on my own. but i don’t want to. maybe i don’t necessarily need someone else to be complete, but self-love can’t replace companionship, whether platonic or romantic. my love language is physical touch. i can’t cuddle myself. i can’t kiss my own forehead. i want someone to walk down the street with me with our hands entwined. i want someone to hold me when i cry. i want someone to let me sleep in their arms, to run their fingers through my hair while i drift off to the sound of their heartbeat, or even their voice. it doesn’t matter if it’s from a friend or a partner; either is fine with me. i just need casual affection from someone. anyone. please i just need to feel safe and loved