#aug 11 2019

[cxhnow]

Chloe Bailey and Halle Bailey with Zendaya at FOX’s Teen Choice Awards 2019 on August 11, 2019 in Hermosa Beach, California.

[bisapositivity]

to everyone who says that nobody cares about themselves on my posts and those who think nobody cares for you, i do. i am thinking of every single person who feels forgotten or not loved. i am here for you. i am hoping for your health and safety and hoping that your day was okay. i hope that you’ve eaten enough and drank enough water. i hope you’ve taken any necessary medications to feel okay. i hope that life makes you feel wanted and makes you want to see tomorrow. you are so great and so deserving of a happy life, my friend.

[kiiteor]

Condensed Chaos, ch 10 Basic Exercises

Phil notes that these may be entirely useless or they may be super important. I have basically copy-pasted them here, although I have shortened a few of the bullet points because they’re quite long

When obtaining any magical result (including “failure”) always think of several explanations for it. These explanations should contain at least one each of the following types:

An explanation based on the parameters of the magical system that you have been employing.

Strict materialism

Something exceptionally silly.

When you have been experimenting with belief-shifting for a while, try contemplating two which appear to be mutually exclusive such as Christianity and Tantra, Islam and Radical Feminism, New Age Celtic Revivals and Marxism.

Meditations in Menzies. Read specialist magazines that you have no interest in, especially those written by enthusiastic amateurs. Also read publications with oppposing views in quick succession, such as Playboy and Spare Rib, or Andrea Dworkin and the Marquis de Sade.

Do not put live toads in your mouth.

Everyone else in the world is a buddha except you! And they are all waiting for you to get your act together, so get out of bed and get going! (Buddhahood is especially manifest in all the people you carefully avoid on the street)

Try being consistently wrong - make wild statements and then, when someone pokes a hole in your argument, admit your mistake, profusely, if necessary. You can be wrong about the time, the day of the week, any expressed political statement, etc

Gods & Gurus. Possession by an entity (God, spirit, drug etc) allows you to do things that you would not ordinarily feel able to. So, to some extent, does the confidence of having a Guru. Such figures provide the confidence that you can walk a tightrope without falling off, play in the deep end of the swimming baths without drowning or run around wearing orange robes and banging a tambourine in a busy shopping centre. Chaos Magick allows you to send your mad thoughts out for a night out occasionally. Contrary to what comes over in books, magick is a street-level activity (gutter-level, even).

Chaotic Attractors. Occasionally you will be sure to run into someone who seems to attract chaos wherever they go. Obviously they have some strange and mighty power, but are often unaware, or merely embarrased by the frequency of weirdness that always abounds in their vicinity. Study them carefully (if from a safe distance), and you might learn a thing or two.

Deconditioning. As I pointed out earlier, it is relatively easy to shift between magical beliefs and produce concordant results. This is not to say, however, that all belief-shifting is so simple. Some levels of our attitude/belief structure are remarkably resiliant to conscious change. Indeed, some structures are able to resist change by remaining elusive and invisible to conscious awareness, and must be dragged, kicking, into the painful light of self-revelation. If I may use the analogy of beliefs as buildings (the city of Selfs), around the walls of which howls the wind of Kia, then the continual process of Deconditioning may be likened to chipping away at the towers, with the occasional nuke provided by recourse to a powerful form of gnosis such as sexual ecstasy, pain overload, or Albert Hoffman’s elixir. Deconditioning is a continual process - even as you discard one set of limitations, you may find that you acquire new ones, usually unconsciously. Often, belief-structures are nested within each other, and may have their roots in a powerful formative experience. Timothy Leary calls this process “Imprint Susceptibility”, where the imprint forms a baseline response to experience, and establishes the parameters within which any subsequent learning takes place. Leary’s 8-Circuit model of Metaprogramming can be employed as an aid to deconditioning. Be mindful that the Deconditioning Process is not merely an intellectual experience. It is relatively easy to “intellectually accept” some experience or belief which you have previously rejected or dismissed. It takes more resilience to take action from your new position, and risk the emotional upheaval that may result afterwards. Deconditioning is rarely simple. Often people who have had an experience of “Illumination” report that all their old repressive structures have dropped away. Tear down a building in the city of identities and it grows back, sometimes with a different shape. One of the effects of intense Gnosis is the shattering of layers of belief structure, but it is generally found that unless followup work is done, the sense of shattered belief-structures is transitory. You should also consider the effects this process is likely to have on others. The Ego, a self-regulatory structure which maintains the fiction of being a unique self, doesn’t like the process of becoming more adaptive to experience. One of the more subtle defences that it throws up is the sneaking suspicion (which can quickly become an obsession) is that you are better than everyone else. If you catch yourself reffering to everyone else as “the herd”, or “human cattle”, etc, then its time to take another look at where you’re going. One of the basic axioms of magical philosophy is that morality grows from within, once you have begun to know the difference between what you have learned to believe, and what you will to believe. Some excellent pointers towards the process of Deconditioning can be found in: Liber Null by Pete Carroll, Magick by Aleister Crowley, and Tantra Magick, the collected grade papers of the east-west Tantrik order, AMOOKOS.

Keeping A Diary. Despite the glamour of Chaos Magic as being spontaneous, do-what-you-like, smash-the-sephiroth and loose your demons magic, it’s generally considered that keeping a diary of experiences & magical experiments is essential. A magical record charters your progress, failures, experiments and insights. If after a brain-crunching ritual, you have a flash of illumination, and don’t write it down, chances are you’ll forget it, and that particular pearl of wisdom will be lost forever. Morever, it’s a good discipline to get into, and I often find that, when writing up a summary of a working, I often recall things that haven’t previously occurred to me.

[ohwondernews]

OhWonderMusic: Margot has been balancing this carrot on her head for about 26 days now.

[kiiteor]

Condensed Chaos, ch9 Belief -  A Key to Magick

Chaotes often end up working with non historical figures, such as the Lovecraft Mythos or Star Trek

Magic works through a belief system. Making yourself believe it will work is key to it actually working. Your explanation could be pseudoscience, could be Qabbalistic, as long as it increases your belief.

An Experiment: Tey meditating with the 7 chakras, note chakra related experiences. Then, try meditating with the 5 Sephiroth of the Middle Pillar, and note related experiences.

Suspend! Disbelief!

Adopt systems for short times (ie one ritual) but adopt them fully

Also try reading about systems you hate, as a way to suspend disbelief. I detest christian magic due to my upbringing but I’ve bee seeing stuff about it floating around enough that I maaaay try working with it! Progress??