A few days ago nakasalubong ko kayo magkasama ni 2. After countless number of times I asked you not to be. Nagpromise ka pa nga. Pero as predicted, hindi ka nakinig. It ruined my day, I won't lie. I wanted to punch someone in the face. I wanted to scream and pout. I didn't like what i saw. Pero more importantly, I didn't like what it made me feel. It made me angry. It made me possessive. I wanted to claw her eyes out. Pero sino nga ba ako para pagsabihan ka ng dapat at hindi mo dapat gawin? Maybe it is irrational nga na nagagalit ako, pero fuck it. Fuck you. Fuck you because I care. I care for you too much. I've asked you to avoid her not for my own selfish, jealous intentions but because I want to fckin help you. But maybe this is for the best. Baka nga naman pareho kami ng intention ni 2. Baka naman gusto ka lang din niya tulungan. Bakit nga ba ako nagpapakamartyr kung meron pang gusto magpakamartyr dyan para sayo?
Right now I don't know where I stand. Though I'd rather not stand anywhere near you at all, my heart knows it is weak. My heart would still welcome you with the open arms you've taken for granted. What can I say, it's stupid like that, and so are you.