#aurintalk

[aurinthusiast]

my apologies for not using the blog all too much recently. it's just i've been feeling the ever increasing need to just kind of... move on from ws. i feel awful for saying it, but i feel like this small community, albeit one of the best i've felt a part of, is just kind of stifling my progress as a person. i need to broaden my horizons, i need to stop clinging on to the past, i just need to move on. i mean like i don't hate the game but it doesn't captivate me in the same way it used to. i don't wake up giddy to play the game anymore, i only log on to roleplay sometimes. if it weren't for all the commitments i've made to ws, i would quit and move on, but it's those commitments which are holding me back. ideally, i want to take a break. a proper break for a good 6 months or so, so much i feel excited to return. except, i feel like if i take a break now there won't be much, if anything, to come back to by the end of the year. i'm not quitting quite yet, but honestly? if the steam release doesn't go as well as expected i can see myself leaving. maybe it's the bad night's roleplay event talking or maybe i'm just feeling down anyway, but i feel like i need to find my closure at this point and move on. i'm sorry.

[aurinthusiast]

shIT WENT DOWN IN THE BLACKTHORNE LOUNGE TONIGHT

ruuli then encountered dynna ( @fuzzballfirefly ) and ajah ( @stonespeakerr ) and well ruuli and dynna aren’t exactly on the best of terms. their interaction ended when dynna offered a hug to which ruuli refused and pretty much non-verbally admitted defeat to him by just bitterly slumping off and not giving much of a fight - and if you know ruuli you’ll know that she never admits defeat.

[aurinthusiast]

finally decided to do something about the awful, awful heaviness i feel whenever i look at my friendlist in-game and at all the friends i haven’t seen in over a year. 

i’ve spent most of today frantically googling my old friend’s in-game names, searching through forums and even going so far to contact my really old rp-partner’s guild master and see if she has any way of contacting her.

that rp partner just kind of... disappeared one day. she told me she was moving houses and might not be able to be online for a while and then she never logged back in again. i’ve been restless about it for over a year and i just need closure, y’know?

[aurinthusiast]

キタ━━━(゜∀゜)━━━!!!!! （´-`）.｡oO( ... ) & （・Ａ・）

キタ━━━(゜∀゜)━━━!!!!! : What does your muse do when very excited?

ruuli doesn’t get excited very often but when she does she typically tries her best to hide it. though you might be able to spot a general restlessness and positive attitude if she fails to mask it very well.

（´-`）.｡oO( ... ) :What does your muse think about a lot?

beyond your expected suspicion of others and obsessing over hot women,  and she really, really would never admit it, but she actually thinks about her tribe from arboria a lot. she knows they’re mostly still alive (she has secret tabs on all of them) apart from her mother, who was the matria on arboria, who died shortly after arriving on nexus, and at that point ruuli had seperated herself from them anyway. she often considers finding them again but then remembers how much she’s changed, mostly for the worst.

（・Ａ・） :What does your muse consider to be bad?

traitorous acts, betrayal, harming innocents and, once again though she’d never admit it, harming the environment. she might not make it obvious that she does actually care about wildlife, but she does, so much so that she often purposely avoids being around animals and plants because she fears she’ll accidentally harm them.

thank you for the ask!!

[aurinthusiast]

hm. if the faction barrier does drop, i have no idea how i'm gonna rp ruuli with it, since she pretty much will try to kill any dominion on sight. anlini, however, will be basking in the glory of being able to seduce all the cassians she wants without being locked up for cooperating with the enemy.

[aurinthusiast]

hey so i have a feeling a lot of people in the wildstar community are a bit down in the dumps right now, especially given the recent news. in an attempt to liven the mood, please reblog this with pictures of your wildstar characters and i'll pick a few, or maybe all, depending on how many i get, to sketch/draw. all i ask is suitable reference pictures and that you're following me, thank you!!

[aurinthusiast]

i have no doubt that most of my followers have heard of the layoffs and carbine and the cancellation of the chinese release. after hearing of the news i had a pretty bad panic attack, after a fairly good day, as well. the news isn't easy to swallow, i know, and raises a lot of questions about the future of wildstar. right now, the way i see it, is that wildstar's future success now leans very heavily on the steam release which, admitted, i do believe will certainly help out the game a lot if it's still to go forward as planned. however, it's hard not to speculate about the possibility of the game's closure, especially when some other things at carbine haven't been looking all too sunny, either. when i was younger, my favourite mmo at the time - and my first - shut down. it broke my young heart and having to watch as something i loved so dearly be pulled away from me forever, it still haunts me; i have no doubt if things are to go down very south with wildstar, i'll feel the exact same way as i did back then. however, when that game did shut down, i found myself shattered but i then looked into other mmos, i played another mmo afterwards which i then fell in love with and getting into that community then led me on into online forums and a lot of other good things, including getting into being a serious artist and eventually discovering tumblr, i very much doubt i'd be writing this today if that game hadn't shut down. what i'm trying to say is that if wildstar shuts down, it might be the end of wildstar but isn't the end for you and your journey. whenever a door closes, a window is opened. that window might not be in immediate sight or easy to get to, but it's there. i don't believe anything is ever truly a dead end. change isn't naturally without hurt but it's the only thing that can open new opportunities for you. i'll still be holding on to that cautiously optimistic steam release thread as best i can. don't worry, i'm not going anywhere quite yet. in the meantime, i'd like to say thank you so much to every single person ever involved with the game. whether that be carbine devs or players, i am forever grateful for helping you keep one of my favourite games of all time afloat. i've met a lot of truly amazing people through wildstar, people who've shaped me in to who i am now, and i am so indescribably thankful for every single one of you. thank you.

[aurinthusiast]

hey guys, just a head’s up, timetravel has left carbine. to those who don’t know of him, he was the guy in charge of pve content and was pretty much the driving force behind the dungeons and raids. he hasn’t stated why he left but either way i wish the best for him wherever he chooses to go next.

as you’d expect, a lot of people are saying him leaving is the end of wildstar and he was the last hope for the game and blah blah blah, while i personally disagree with this, i’m still feeling a little paranoid and i don’t blame others for feeling the same way, especially since redmoon terror was recently announced and is currently in the ptr.

if anyone needs to chat about it, feel free to message me or anything. also, be prepared for a lot of people claiming wildstar is now destined to die because of this.