#author is yapping

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new put me back in it chapter is at 1900 words, half way through maybe a quarter, someone send me your saddest songs so i can power through

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Happy Sunday! <3

What’s your favourite fic you’ve ever written? 

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hello fen , thanks for the ask !

EVER ?? — man , you be asking me questions that get me overthinking and shit lol .

i do enjoy that i am writing fanfic more than i have in the longest time ( think the last time i did that was in high school ?) ; and it’s frankly people like you on tumblr that kept me inspired 🥹 .

but if we’re talking ever, i think for now i’d have to give this spot to a little something i wrote about five years ago . 😅

not sure if it’s to your preference because it’s a whole different fandom altogether .

back then , i had it down bad for theseus scamander ( and callum turner way before he became pseudo-famous dating dua lipa ) when he came into the fantastic beasts franchise . he used to date vanessa kirby too and even though they have broken up when i wrote this , she was how i imagined my oc looked like heh .

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i be yapping behind the cut sorry i went overboard as usual lmao

it was during the pandemic and i had a wfh job back then , so i had more time on my hands , and i was able to hyper-fixate like crazy with the most intricate research you can think of about . starting with the correlation with theseus in the greek mythology . the first world war ( literally researching on the kind of uniforms they wore at the somme ) , the interwar period , the very early days of nazi germany . the life and culture in london , paris , germany , even russia at one point from the early-1900s . so , books first released then ( the fact that a.a milne’s pooh books were released back then made me very happy ) , songs that were famous at that time ( my melancholy baby by gene austin became a personal favourite since ) , even made a playlist for it — heh . i was even going through etsy and pinterest looking for the kind of cuffs theseus was wearing , and the type of engagement ring and wedding dress the oc would wear . there is even an appendix going on which i never got around to writing lol .

i had fun with the challenge of weaving my headcanons with the fantastic beasts film canons , especially for theseus’ backstory pertaining the oc — very very careful not to “disturb” the rowling canons ; worried for a moment they might off his character when the trailer for secrets of dumbledore came out and how that might affect my story . but it was just so very invigorating when i managed to come out on the other side .

i even toyed with the idea of writing a sequel ; had like a rough draft going on that spans the second world war until the present day . not sure if i’ll be able to go back there now since the hyper-fixation has ended but — never say never i guess ?

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guys im still alive chapters are still coming i fear i had a busy start to the new year but hey! guess who’s 25 now!

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do you guys ever wonder how much of neil’s provocation in the books was his personality and how much was grief? yes we know that to some degree he was always a shit stirrer and that’s why neil josten as an identity wasn’t meant to get into fights, but also consider that his mum died, his only actual connection to the world. neil didn’t have a way of processing that grief imo, his survival instincts relied a lot on him shoving stuff down in canon and barely ever thinking of it. he never developed any personal connections in millport that would’ve helped him move forward and even with the foxes she was rarely discussed, i wonder sometimes how much of his jump to insults is grief manifesting as anger and recklessness and how much is just him

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possible songs for next chapter: strangers by ethel cain ( am i making you feel sick? ) the yawning grave by lord houron ( oh the reckoning begins ) running up that hill by kate bush ( I’ll make a deal with god / i’d get him to swap our places ) die your daughter by susannah joffe ( i will die your daughter partner ) blood upon the snow by hozier ( nature offers a violence )

the escape chapter likely wait for me from hadestown specifically Irish orpheus’ version

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parkovitch writers im begging u to churn out more fics im dying i need more give me more

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kevjean but it’s hozier going ‘you called me “angel” for the first time and my heart leapt from me. you smile now, i can see it’s pieces still stuck in your teeth and what’s left of it, i listen to it tick.’ except it’s about jean teaching kevin french. that’s it. send tweet.

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what if ahahaha what if hahaha what if there were jean povs in the nest chapters ahahaha hhahaha hahaaaaaa what if we got to see the internal conflict aha of him wanting to be saved but having spent so long knowing he’ll never get out ahahahaha what if we see the first time someone has made him a promise and gone through hell to keep it through his eyes hahahaha aha what if we finally get an unabridged version of the horrors Neil goes through in the nest bc it’s through someone else’s eyes and if there is a basic truth to jean’s life it is pain ahahahahahahaha wouldn’t that be so funny guy haha wouldn’t it