Jul 24
Going to a new restaurant and ordering the one thing that I know I've had other places and hopefully will enjoy because nothing else sounds appealing and sounds frightening
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Going to a new restaurant and ordering the one thing that I know I've had other places and hopefully will enjoy because nothing else sounds appealing and sounds frightening
Live laugh love the fact I cry at both Cherik fanfiction and at Fernando Pessoa poetry
I’ve always known I’m a big weirdo but I think part of the reason I’m as ok with it as I am is because I grew up watching Leo Bloom in “the producers” be a huge weirdo and also be sympathetic.
(It’s also absolutely baffling what movies my very religious & controlling parents felt were appropriate for kids.)
Hated wearing jackets and long sleeves as a kid because I hated feeling stuff touch me it made me so uncomfy. It was like everything that touched me made it more overstimulating (the air, clothes, my hair, a pencil in my hand etc) so I would have tantrums (meltdowns?) about jackets and coats being too much until I got older and my tolerance got higher lol.
The urge to learn the entire 36 minute long song (technically multiple songs) that list all of the counties in the united states.
There's an entire section that just goes "Washington and Washington and Washington and Washington" because there's so many counties called Washington
This also makes me want to finish memorizing the nation's of the world
My first instinct whenever something surprises/startles me is to yell, and every time it happens everyone arounds me goes "calm down j!" Or " why are you screaming? Are you crazy?" Or some Variation and it pisses me off because instead of asking " are you ok?" Or anything like that they're more concerned with me making noise then anything, it's just a instinctual reflex and not a conscious decision like I don't like yelling and I don't like screaming but is always like "you're causing a scene" FUCK OFF! It's just how I react ok? If I hear a loud bang or something starts spilling or I just lose control of the situation I'm going to scream as a initial reaction and then work on solving the issue like fuck stop judging me for being scared and help for fuck sake god dammit!
Played so much Minecraft the last couple of days I can just permanently hear the background music if I'm not listening to something else
If I start hearing those random spooky sounds I'll get worried
I get so incredibly attached to my best friend each time I get one. It's to the point that I get so emotionally attatched to this one person to the level of them being my significant other. I think about them all the time and miss them and wanna talk to them. Friendships are so much more intimate to me than they seem to be for other people. I've never dated anyone but I view all of my ex bestfriends my exes because I formed an otherworldy connection with them. Is this some type of mental disorder or am I just overthinking what everyone finds normal. xoxo