#autistic trangender

[ayman-eckford]

There are more and more articles about transgender girls and transgender boys starting publishing.

There are more and more stories that “transgender girls/transgender boys really know what they want”. And it’s really cool!

But what about non-binary trans* kids?

Why trans* and queer community doesn’t talk about us?

Why youth liberationists doesn’t talk about us?

We are exist! WE EXIST!

I knew that because I felt that I am not a boy or a girl when I was 3-4 years old ( despite the fact that didn’t know the word “non-binary” or the word “transgender”)

And now, when I am 23, my feeling has not changed.

So! Stop erasing us!

(Image of a transgender non-binary person near the transgender flag. drawing made for me by my friend: https://vk.com/markryowi_art)

[ayman-eckford]

We need to talk more about autistic girls and women!

We need to talk explain people how autism manifests itself in most autistic women.

We must fight with assumption that the "female type" of autism is not a “real” autism, that common in the contemporary autism community. We need to make sure that society know that autistic women are real autistic people.

But beside this, we need to talk about autistic women who have "male type" of autism. Because autistic women who look like the embodiment of autism stereotypes (or the embodiment of Kanner’s and Asperger’s work) are really exist. And if you're one of these autistic women, that's OK. YOU ARE OK!

It doesn't make you "the wrong woman" or "the wrong autistic."

Similarly, if you are an autistic man whose manifestation of autism is more like "femail" type of autism, you are not a “wrong man" or a “wrong autistic."

P.S. And, of course, we need to talk about autistic non-binary and intersex people who can manifest thier neurodiversity in different way.

(One autistic non-binary person (me) in at a very young age. and she is a classic example of "autistic girl”)

[ayman-eckford]

TW: child abuse, transphobia.

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Our Little Mowgli is transgender kid. Like some of you already know, he was splited when Ayman had to go on and call herself a “girl” because Ayman was born in a “female body”.

Well, Ayman has a huge problem with understanding their body. Like almost all alters who were splitted from Ayman.

We tried to solve these problems with grounding exercises and therapy.

At the same time Mowgli better understands his physical feeling - he feels gender dysphoria too strong but he better feel other stuff too. And he is the only one of us who actually has this natural physical sensation that we are part of the nature, of the world around us, like all these trees and grass and stuff around in some way is connected to us. Mowgli has better contact with the outside world like in some way it is part of him because he knows nothing outside of his mind.

And he is more observant, less in his anxious thoughts.

He is in better contact with the environment and himself.

Just like Ayman in their childhood. Before this split on Mowgli and Ayman.

And in many ways it’s happened because our natural body image, our understanding themself like a person who need to have a male or completely androgynous body was destroyed.

And after that all stuff that connected to our understanding of our body was destroyed too - like better understanding of an outside world.

This is how our parents' transphobia actually takes much more from us than the right to be ourselves.

We do not regret that Mowgli exists as an alter. But we regret that transphobia takes away our natural sense of being.

-Ayman and Abu Hamza.

(Abu Hamza’s photo)

[ayman-eckford]

PRIDE MONTH Special: transgender children and dissociative identity. SWITCH catched on camera

We are telling our own experience of recognizing our trans 🏳️‍⚧️ identity in childhood, parent’s transphobia and dissociation as a result of trauma

https://youtu.be/_cEDrsBRHvc

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Meet the alters. Part 3. Mowgli

Ayman helps me write it, because I’m not so good at writing. They asked questions. I answered.

Name: My name is Mowgli, but I’m not an introject. I’m not Mowgli from the book, I just like that name.

Age: I’m 4 years old. Me and Lisa are the youngest in our System.

Gender: My old name was Nika and I hate it because I don’t feel like I’m a girl. I’m a boy.

Neurotype: I’m Autistic, just like my tween-sister Lisa, and my big sibling Ayman.

Role and history: Ayman used to hear my voice when they felt strong gender dysphoria or when someone shout at them. Sometimes it cause switching and I became so scared that I even want to die. I have shouting trigger and gender dysphoria trigger. Please, don’t shout at us and don’t call Ayman “a women”!

Also sometimes I became scared when someone doing homework and I could accidentally spoilt something. But when Ayman started to tell me that it’s ok and they see me, I started to feel better.

So they think I’m not just Little, I’m a trauma holder.

My body: I felt like a giant in that body. I always banging my head on something. It’s so weird that I suddenly became so huge when I’m fronting. It makes me even more clumsy.

Hobby: I love Kipling’s books, and Jacqueline Wilson’s books and everything about dinosaurs. I like Disney films. Also I like some super-hero and sci-fie stuff. I like dramatic and a little scary story.

Also I like crayoning. And running. And swinging.

My favorite music is Disney songs and old Soviet songs.

My favorite films is Home Alone, Moana, Tarzan and The jungle book. Also I like Doctor Who. And stuff about dinosaurs.

And despite that I’m a boy I like dolls (Ayman said it’s OK). Also I love when Abu Umar tells me about Islam and Islamic history, and when Lil tells me about Black Hols and Space and M-theory.

My favorite animals are lemurs, cats, dogs, foxes, wolfs, chimpanzees, tigers and lions.

(Photo: The little Ayman... or no, it’s was me. Only unfortunately I have a girl’s hairstyle)