#auxspeaks

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HOLD ON

tattooartist!jean ?????

I JUST THOUGHT OF THIS AND IM IMMEDIATELY SWEATING I THINK I HAVE TO DO IT

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a collection of old tweets about anime circa 2020-2021`, courtesy of yours truly. enjoy.

- “my quirk is that i can fly but unfortunately i’m afraid of heights”

- “currently making a fancam for byakuya ishigami”

- “let senku say fuck 2021”

- “i’m actively sobbing rn bc i started rewatching bnha and pre-quirk izuku is making me emo. literally don’t even know why this is happening these are COLORFUL SHAPES on a TV”

- “thinkin about eren jaeger”

- “my favorite thing in anime is when the characters are shown just being friends :)”

- “just wanna say happy pride month to everyone in sk8: the infinity except for joe. also except for adam bc he doesn’t deserve it”

- “the fact that hangeki no daichi isn’t on spotify is a crime against humanity”

- “jumanji is an isekai send tweet”

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hey lol

to make a long fuckin story short, my computer broke a long ass time ago, and it was broken for so long that i lost all my creative juices :( but i started an mha rewatch this week, and i kinda feel a lil juicy again. i also found a bunch of stuff that i just hadn’t posted before my computer broke, and idk i thought someone may appreciate it!

not making promises or upload schedules here. a lot has changed in this past year, and i’m kind of a busy gal these days! but writing brings me joy, and i could use more of that.

ta-ta for now

-ally

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listen, it's 4am (where i am at least), but i was hit by a stroke of inspiration today and i've been slaving away for a while on somethin.

it's not lessons in living (but i'm scheduling an update now), and it's not workaholic (i have writers block but i've been chipping away at it). it's new. it's an smau. i'm excited. it'll be posted in 7 hours :)

(also, i had my surgery. all is well. i feel much better)

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i've awoken from the dead to let y'all know that jean kirschtein is a greta van fleet stan. end of story

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hi again (tw: medical talk, female reproductive system talk)

things have been very chaotic for the last little bit. to make a long story short, i'm gettin my coochie removed!!!!

so i have a uterus, and She is non-functional. i have a condition called endometriosis, which is when the tissue that exists on the inside of one's uterus grows on the outside of it and beyond. i've been having issues with this for a decade, got formally diagnosed about three years ago, and have been doing various treatments since then. my doctors and i have reached the end of the road, so it's time to cut that bitch out!!!!!!

as you can probably tell, i'm not super upset about this. this condition comes with chronic pain, which has reached ridiculous levels in the past month. having a partial hysterectomy will, worst case scenario, take care of 80% of that pain. best case scenario, it will take care of all of it. i don't want children, and even now i'm pretty sure i can't conceive or carry a child to term. so, this is very much a win-win.

that being said, i've been doing a lot of thinking and sitting around. i'm still working and doing the things i need to do in order to survive until my surgery. i have tried to go out for fun a few times in the past month, but it's hard to even make it out of the door. when i do, i usually pay for it the next day (which i am doing right now lmao). so, i am very bored. since all of the mystery and confusion has dissipated regarding this situation, i'm in a good place to sit down and start writing and posting again.

i have a shit ton of content stockpiled for lessons in living, which i will be scheduling to be posted on a weekly basis from now on. workaholic is definitely still on bc i really like the concept. i know where i want this chapter to go, i'm just having a difficult time getting the words onto the mf page. but as far as anything new, i have this really cracky fic i've been cooking up in my lil brain that i really want to make a reality. to make things easier on myself, it's gonna be about 50% smau, 50% written. i can't wait to share all of this with you, and i appreciate you guys being patient with me. i didn't abandon this blog; in fact, i thought about it almost every day, and saw every notification pop up. this probably won't reach a lot of people, and i'm definitely not looking for sympathy or pity. i just think it's important to talk about stuff like this in general, and i wanted to say something to anyone who might be paying attention to this little corner of the internet.

much love

- aux

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hey guys, i'm alive!!! july is just hard. i am feeling better tho, so content incoming :)

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okay so to be honest i'm having an Emotional Night but like i'm okay, like i'm not having a breakdown or anything, i just realized that i hate someone. that's kind of an uncomfortable feeling for me. so i think i'm gonna write something about it. just like a one shot probably. but it is going to be BRUTAL and angsty, all hurt, zero comfort.

i'm thinking eren x reader, because fanon eren reminds me a lot of this person. hell, canon eren reminds me a lot of this person. (so you can imagine the shit that i've been through lmao) so give me a bit to crank this out and i'll probably post this hellish, self indulgent monstrosity.