#avpd things

[me-beef]

traumatized

[narcissisdicks]

Avpd fr

[memsys-parallel]

I cannot fathom myself being someone's priority. It feels so foreign to me. I am a ghost of a person, a background actor, nothing and no one—what is there to value so highly?

[sensi-coins]

i just got out of a depressive episode and all i have to show for it are these coins !

>> AVPD — AGENDER

╋━ FLAG FOR AGENDERS WITH AVOIDANT PERSONALITY DISORDER , THOSE WHOSE AVPD IMPACTS THEIR AGENDER IDENTITY , ETC .

not exclusive to those who are professionally diagnosed.

tagging : @radiomogai @pdsarchive . inspired by [x] avpd flag by avpdvoidspace .

[pt start: i just got out of a depressive episode and all i have to show for it are these coins! avpd agender. flag for agenders with avoidant personality disorder, those whose avpd impacts their agender identity, etc. not exclusive to those who are professionally diagnosed. tagging @/radiomogai @/pdsarchive. inspired by [link] avpd flag by avpdvoidspace. end pt.]

[humani-dar-te]

fight or flight mode?? i only have flight or jump into a volcano or bury myself in a hole or lock myself in my room for 3 weeks or move to another continent mode, does that count?

[wonderland-hospital]

Avoidant personality disorder and masking

My therapist has expressed his speculation of me having avpd. He’s said my behavior and inner thoughts sound a lot like avpd and common in pwavpd.

I used to force myself to socialize and be very very extroverted in order to get myself out of my quiet shell. It helps, a lot with my generalized and social anxiety. But I feel so distant from people.

I would like to have more close relationships and open up, but I just can’t . I’m deeply afraid of ridicule and being embarrassed. I’m constantly embarrassed. I’m naturally loud and sort of obnoxious but I don’t know if I can help it, and everytime I socialize it ends up in me feeling ridiculed and like a clown.

I push people away not because I don’t love or want to be close with them, I don’t think I’m shy, I’m just afraid .

[graphicdesignevident]

💐 AVPD Sub-type flags! And description for types + flag color meanings. (I also made blinkies on a new post with these flags)

(description, left to right in both rows)

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1st: phobic avoidant - Features include strong fear of specific objects or situations, and may also present with dependent traits like passivity and clinginess. #979034 : anxious, overthinking, emotional tension, hypervigilance, feeling of sickness from intense emotions of fear/anxiety.

#B6B381 : passivity rooted in insecurity, emotional avoidance, shutting down under stress, fear of conflict.

#C7C5AA : numbness after emotional overload, resigned sadness, feeling unworthy of love, quiet self-doubt.

#A97A70 : emotional exhaustion, melancholy, insecurity, vulnerability.

#983A33 : longing for closeness, emotional clinginess that comes from wanting to feel safe, vulnerability mixed with shame.

#98376A : insecurity in relationships, self-doubt.

• 2nd: Conflicted avoidant - Characterized by internal conflict and unresolvable anxiety, with potential features of passive aggressive behavior. #641126 : brooding, suppressed rage, intensity, smoldering emotions, internal battles.

#7B161E : volatility, emotional overwhelm, danger, distrust, bitterness.

#EF8E5B : instability, emotional overstimulation, emotional fragility, surface-level warmth masking deeper fear, people-pleasing.

#F9DA67 : anxiety, nervous energy, fear of criticism, restlessness, fear of judgment, overthinking social impressions, scattered attention.

#64104E : isolation, internal conflict, mistrust, emotional withdrawal, suspicion toward others, difficulty trusting, feeling “other” or different.

#530C6A : escapism, overthinking, fantasy avoidance.

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3rd: Hypersensitive avoidant - Marked by feelings of suspicion and panic, where individuals may be thin-skinned and exhibit paranoid features, such as being hypersensitive to perceived threats.

#2E0473 : heaviness, over-analysis, emotional distance, existential anxiety, perfectionism, fear of failure.

#600F74 : paranoia, intensity, hidden fears, distrust of others, overwhelming inner intensity, unhealthy fixation.

#F19C63 : fickleness, over-sensitivity, fragile ego, discomfort with confrontation.

#EC6267 : jealousy, emotional instability, stress cycles.

#851853 : insecurity, emotional turbulence, mistrust, feelings of inadequacy, feeling misunderstood.

#6E1257 : repression, emotional burden, fear of vulnerability, difficulty letting go.

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4th: Self-deserting avoidant - involves a state of self-neglect and the abandonment of one’s own needs and desires. Depressive symptoms, agitation and suicidal thoughts are often present.

#041435 : depression, emotional heaviness, suppression, fear of opening up, seriousness, heaviness, fear of expressing needs, self-blame.

#172E64 : pessimism, emotional distance, fear of vulnerability, inhibition.

#575F70 : apathy, fatigue, little motivation, detachment, loss of excitement or purpose, disconnection.

#905727 : bitterness, heaviness, overload or burnout, guardedness.

#5C270B : pessimism, distrust, isolation, emotional blockages, isolation, feeling stuck.

#5B0E18 : internalized anger, shame, emotional repression, rumination, self-doubt, self criticism, fear of being seen.

[astrangerthatlovesyou]

Having AvPD is like: I’m so open, everyone knows everything about me. That’s terrifying, everyone must hate how much I share. God I feel so exposed I feel sick. And the last time you opened up to someone was October of 2021 when you told your mom you were a little stressed.