When You Loved Me (Preview)
-●●●- Pairing : NamjoonxAfab!reader ; YoongixAfab!reader; SeokjinxAfab!reader ; HoseokxAfab!reader
-●●●- Type : Serie
-●●●- Words : 473
-●●●- Rating : Mature (+18) ; Product do not suit Minors as the subject engage in sexual intercourse and sensible subjects.
-●●●- Genre : Smut, Romance, Josei
-●●●- Warnings : Sexual intercourse such as different positions ; Sexual preferences such as bondage/shibari art/degrading/blindfolding; Manipulation; Age difference (4 to 6 years); Mention of cheating; Culture differences; Breaks ups; Mention of illness; Drinkings.
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A/N : Spare me, I think I haven't written anything in like 4 years. lmao The alternative title is 爱我的时候 , gonna use that chinese bachelor degree I got, but also the title comes from Eric Chou's song with the same title bc here we love sad romantic chinese songs.
➡ First Part
As long as you can remember everyone of your friends would talk about boys and girls, from their simple puppy love in preschool and elementary school, crush and first love as teenagers to now as an adult in their mid twenties what they call love of their lives. At first you never understood, only having celebrity crushes until high school when a few boys made your heart swing a tiny bit in your ribcage. You thought you finally understood what the big L word was when you got your very first boyfriend in high school, that very senior you didn’t expect to have interaction with outside of greetings during dinner at the dorm’s cantine. As someone who never truly thought themselves as being attractive, who only started assuming wanting to be more unique in style but, also, still very much into a deep emo phase thanks to you keeping listening to MCR just like in middle school, even you would never have thought you will be getting a boyfriend. But it all happened so naturally when events brought you both together. He was your first ever romantic relationship, you went on your first dates together, held hands and shared first base affectionate scenes. He was what you thought was your ideal type at that time. In the end you learned the hard truth when he went abroad for university while you started your junior year in high school, and even now as a mid twenties person you still think the same way, first boyfriends sucks. You still remember the betrayal you felt when you learned from his friends abroad how he was cheating on you, the satisfaction you got when he got a punch in his nose but also how you learned you never truly loved him. What you thought was love was maybe simply just an elaborated crush where you let yourself just follow the mood. That could also explain why you never went further than preliminaries with him, not even letting him touch you that intimately; clearly you know now that it was a sign.
But you can thank him for one thing, that after him you really felt in love with some other men, started to build your self love and assume what you felt. As you approach your 25 year living on this earth with a bottle of alsacien beer in one hand while the other is petting your 3 years old cat during a fine Sunday evening you start to think; to reminisce about them, those men that made you learn what love is, all the different forms love takes and how again you envisage having a future with someone. You reminisce about the Intellectual and the Softy but also how things could have played with the Cute and the Package guy, all while smiling at your stupid self.
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