#badboyzico

[disappearedxleehayi]

1-102 -innocent smile-

too late, buddy. Someone beat you to it

oh! and I hate you u_u

[disappearedxleehayi]

Mourn Me ~ Hayi & Zico

"Be strong." She told herself as she tried to surpress her tears. "It's what he would have expected. To be strong."  Hayi took a deep breath as she looked herself in the mirror. The words she had written before were lingering in her mind and she was sure she wouldn't forget them even if she wanted to.

The young girl greeted her best friend's parents and brother politely as she arrived at the ceremony, tears welling up in her eyes upon seeing his mother cry and hugged the girl closely. Jiho's mother muttering soothing words to her. 

She got up from her seat midway the ceremony, holding tightly onto a sheet of paper as she walked forward. 

Hayi let out a deep sigh before speaking. "Today is one of the saddest days in my life. It's the day we finally say goodbye to a beloved friend, son, or brother... The past few days I'd been hoping this day would never come." She kept silent for a minute to wipe away her tears and taking another deep breath and then went on to finish her little speech with a cracking voice. 

Of course she was the last to stay behind by his grave. At first she sat in front of his headstone in silence, an occasional sob escaping from her lips as she reread his name on the headstone over and over again. 

"The past few days have been hell, Zi..." She mumbled as she traced her small hand over his name. "I don't get it. I don't see why you would have to leave like this. It makes me feel angry, sad, hopeless but mostly alone. As far as I can remember, you were always around, we were always hanging out and we talked every single day. We did stupid things and made fun of each other. I can't believe we'll won't be able to do that anymore... I feel so small without our friendship, I feel like I'm nothing. I don't know what to do without you and without our friendship." 

Tears were making their way down her cheeks as she moved closer to the headstone and leaned against the side of it. 

"I just need you to come back... You have to come back, Jiho. You have to call me stupid for crying and tell me that everything is okay, that you are okay. I need my best friend..." Her voice cracked slightly as more tears rolled down her cheeks. "I never imagined this would happen to you. You were always so tough, never showing your weaknesses. I admire you. I know I never said that to you when you were still alive, but I do. I hope you know that I do. I'll miss you, babo and you better miss me too. You just wait up for me over there and then we'll create chaos over there, but for now be happy. It's what I'll try to be." 

A small smile spread on her face as she closed her eyes, knowing she'd never be as happy again. "I love you." She whispered softly and then remained silent. It only took a few moments for her to fall asleep, her best friend being her last thought before she drifted of into a dreamless sleep.

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badboy-zico replied to your post: -kneels down in front of your headstone, swallowing hard- so… I acutally don’t really know what to say… you know little sisters aren’t supposed to die before their big brother right? -lays my hand on the headstone and closes my eyes- I miss you, you evil little shit… My life just isn’t the same anymore without your smile lightening up my day… -wipes away some tears from my face- I hope you feel better now, wherever you may be… I love you, little sis and I miss you… every day more…

DONT YOU EVEN DARE, YOU LITTLE SHIT

LIKE I'D LEAVE YOUR STUPID FACE ALONE, YOU JACKASS, WHO ELSE IS GOING TO ANNOY THE CRAP OUT OF YOU LIKE REALLY. 

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-kneels down in front of your headstone, swallowing hard- so... I acutally don't really know what to say... you know little sisters aren't supposed to die before their big brother right? -lays my hand on the headstone and closes my eyes- I miss you, you evil little shit... My life just isn't the same anymore without your smile lightening up my day... -wipes away some tears from my face- I hope you feel better now, wherever you may be... I love you, little sis and I miss you... every day more...

why isn’t there a gif of Zico and Hayi hugging? 

I love you okay!!!! I'm not ever leaving -clings-

[disappearedxleehayi]

2/7/13

It's been almost a month since I joined Troll Entertainment, five more days to go to be exact. I'm really grateful for all the friends I have made in this rather short amount of time.

The first friend I made must have been Zico-ssi. It was really funny meeting him and it didn't take long, at all, before we got along. I think we met because he was laughing at me when tumblr wasn't working properly for me. I got back at him for that though. Bless that magic anon, whoever it was. I call him Babo Oppa now, clearly because he is a babo but he's also very caring and he's become like an older brother. No matter how badly I make fun of him or laugh at him, he still likes me. I know he likes to tease me as well, especially because I'm little in his eyes. I'm grateful for him considering me as his little sister.

More friends quickly followed.

Kyung-ssi is one of those who stands out as well. He's pretty amazing and easygoing. I've grown to like him a lot. His nagging about how I should eat more, I think, made me think of him as an appa. Just like a good appa, he's very caring and sweet. He always makes me laugh too. I don't know how but the most simple things he does or says always makes me smile or burst out in laughter. I also like it when he talks to me about more serious things, making me feel trustworthy. I really care about him a lot.

Dahee unnie is also one of my close friends. It started off pretty funny; by throwing marshmallows at each other, but it has started a pretty great friendship. Going camping with her hopefully gives me a chance to learn more about my marhsmallow unni.

Chaerin unni is probably one of the sweetest friends I have. Not only do I consider her a close friends, she's also like my big sister. We've grown really close to each other and it's great to have someone watching over me and doing fun stuff with her. She's probably one of the greatest I'll ever get to meet.

Yongguk-ssi, hmm.. he's really troublesome sometimes, but it's okay because I have had a lot of great moments with him this far. He took me on a picnic once, to a place we weren't even supposed to be. I didn't really know how to react at first but it was actually pretty fun and we didn't get in trouble for it so I guess it was all good. He's really funny and I like hanging out with him. I don't think he minds being my friend despite being six years older than me. I know a few things about him but not everything, I'd love to get to know more things about him.

Cutie Patootie, or Minki-ssi, who I have met not too long ago. It surprised me a little how quickly we managed to become friends. I really like hanging out with him since he's so sweet and it feels like we're on the same kind of level. Sometimes he really seems so vulnerable and breakable, it's not a bad thing at all, and I'm glad he opened up to me even though we're still somewhat strangers towards each other. I also love to get to know more about him in the future because he's probably one of the sweetest, and he has a great personality. 

The one that's still a mystery to me, but someone I do like is Seunghyun-ssi. We've talked only a little bit but I think he's really nice. I'm really curious about him and  hope to get more time to spend with him so I can get to know him better.

I have talked to a lot more people than that and I'm also grateful for those people and I will try my best to talk to more people and befriend a lot of them.Like Daehyun-ssi and Daesung-ssi, they surely could become great friends in the future and I would really like to get to know them as well.

But something has made me slightly sad though. I've had a very warm welcome in Troll Entertainment and I was pretty excited to be in this ohana, but I can't help but to feel kind of left out. Most people that I have talked to this far are not even in Troll Entertainment. Of course I have talked to some of this ohana, but I'd like to get to know more people from my own family. So I surely will try to talk to people from the ohana more as well. 

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badboy-zico replied to your post: badboy-zico replied to...

a lovable idiot -grins-

EGOOOooooOOOOOooooOOOOOooo

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badboy-zico replied to your post: badboy-zico replied to...

-doesn’t hit girls but hits you in my head tbh-

-laughs at you- you're an idiot

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badboy-zico replied to your post: badboy-zico replied to...

laughing too hard tbh

-hits you tbh-