#badwritting

[tinybree-blog]

Abyss

Do you ever feel like you are in a boat, in the middle of the ocean, and in any direction you look as far as the eye can see is..

Black.. 

No lights, no flickers, no sound, 360 degrease of darkness,  you start to wonder if you are even real. You just float along in this sea of sadness not even hoping for a light anymore. It gets very comfortable in this abyss, no expectations, no wants, needs, (other than the drugs ). Going days without even looking in a mirror and when you do hating what you see.. Ive spent so much time in this abyss, Im ready to be free! Heres to learning to swim!

Welcome to my brain 

[nxvocaines]

If we are friends i shouldn't have to walk on eggshells around you just to keep you around for a few more days,so don't come back when you have pushed everyone else out of your life.

don't want to be a shitty friend but im done with your bullshit

[ficcionar]

Ya no me acuerdo cómo es vivir sin el constante fantasma de lo estúpida que fui

[medstudygdl]

Planner

My handwriting isn't the nicest, but I want to purchase a new planner .... BuJo sounds great if my crap was legible 😂😂 Thus I'm debating between Plum Paper vs. Erin Condren Love Plum Paper more but man is it pricey ! Will keep you posted

[commonpaperbag]

Cowardly Me

Every time I watch you cry part of me dies. You sit there all alone on a bench hunched over wanting to die and all I can do is watch from a distance wanting to hug you and tell you that everything will be alright, that whatever problem you are facing I will support you. Unfortunately I’m a coward, my feet move away, all I can do is run away. I fear what may happen if I fill that empty space beside you. I rather watch others come and go and hurt you time after time than to try and be the one that will make your day. I’m more afraid of “go away” than dying. For now I guess I’ll watch someone else take that empty space and pray that it won’t end the same, just so that I won’t have to opportunity to fill the space, because in the end it’s always the same cowardly me running away.

[soupandthoughts]

People is mean, usually.

I am turning 24 in one month. When I was born, the first lesson I learnt, well actually my mom told me but same thing, that people is mean, and will be mean, and they will never ever stop doing so. My mom told me that the first thing I heard in this world was "What an ugly baby!". Right? I didn't recall that but probably because I was asleep. Every times, something happen to me, I remembered that stories. I turned out alright I must say. Not overly gorgeous but to an extend that people have to turn their heads to check me out. So I am not too worry about the thing that nurse said. Yesterday, June 2th. It was exactly 10 months since I met him also it was the first day he got back from his cruise vacation. Before he left, I texted him about stopping the fwb stuff. Since we were not exclusive on any levels, I didn't expect he was only sleeping with me. I am sure he was still out there chasing all the young college girls. What I didn't expect was an immature respond to my text. I know I am terrible at responding text, mostly because I don't want to just spur out stuff that could hurt people. I'b be down to explain and make him feel good about himself, but seriously? Me: It was fun. I am sure you will be find other funs soon enough. Take care :) Him: I already have this time 21 year old.Take care best of luck!!! What is all that for? I am sure you are mad at being dumped too. But rubbing it in is just an immature move. What do you expected to respond to that? I meant sure I guess I am happy for you, you are like 30 and still chasing after college girls and told them that you are 25. What is the deal with that? Personally, I think his text was just mean. I was nice about breaking it off why did he has to be so... bitter about it? I don't know. Sure I should not done it over texts but what different would it make? Yeah I felt kind hurt reading that at first, but I guess if saying hurtful things like that back to me and make the other person feel better or feel good about themselves... okay? I should be expecting an apology but I can't really see that happen, anyway. So yeah best of luck to you with hanging around a 21 years old chick. May be it will make you feel better about being old and still not be able to establish anything beside sleeping with young girls. People is just weird and complicated and just overall... weird.