4, 8 and 15 for the identity ask thingy
Thank you SO much for this ask @bakashisensei I'm super bored today ;asldkgjk
4. do you like your name? is there another name you think would fit you better?
I'm so sorry for the wall of text ahead, but I actually need to rant about this lmao
I have a love-hate relationship with my name. I think it's pretty and that it suits me, plus I get compliments on it all the time, but dear god is it a headache.
First of all, my full name is LONG. Which makes filling out paperwork with small boxes annoying.
Second, it's inconsistent on my most important documents because it includes a hyphen, which is allowed on birth certificates but not social security cards.
Third, I grew up thinking the hyphen was between my middle names, but it's actually between my first name and my first middle name. I didn't discover this until I went to college and had a reason to look at my birth certificate.
Fourth (and worst), there's also an apostrophe in my name, which gives panic attacks to computers on a regular basis. Pharmacies, hospitals, voting registration, websites, etc. I never know if it's going to take the apostrophe or not and it's enormously irritating.
Fifth, because I go by one of my middle names, I'm constantly called the wrong name. Teachers, doctors, therapists, physical therapists, etc. They call me by my first name, and even if I correct them repeatedly, they often never stop calling me by the wrong name.
Sixth, I'm named after the heroine of Gone with the Wind. Which. Well. When your namesake is the protagonist of (arguably) the most influential racist novel in the English language? I think the problem there speaks for itself.
The lesson you should take from this: think of the challenges that might come with the name you give your child!!
8. what musical artists have you most felt connected to over your lifetime?
I'm not really A Music Person, and there aren't any particular artists that I feel connected to, but there are a few songs that will make me instantly cry because of how much I feel when I hear them:
"Praying" by Kesha
"She Used to Be Mine" from "Waitress", particularly Katharine McPhee's version
"Sober" by Demi Lovato
"Sorry" by Halsey
15. five most influential books over your lifetime.
Beloved by Toni Morrison
The God of Small Things by Arundhati Roy
Harry Potter Series (god I hate that JKR made this painful to list, but I can't leave it out if I'm honest)
A Song of Ice and Fire Series
Rosemary for Remembrance by @sintari isn't a novel, but it's better than most actual published works so fuck the rules. This fic influenced my writing style more than any book I've ever read. It's brilliant and I'll never stop recommending it.
If anybody else wants to send me an ask for the identity game, feel free. I'll try not to be so wordy next time lol












