#bapple feels

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---Currently Writing:---

🍎 Say Hello, Wave Goodbye (A Radiostatic Love Story) 18+

🍎 RadioCotton Saga (Book 1 finished, Book 2 in progress) 18+

🍎 Hazbin One-shots (Suggestions welcome) 18+

---Writing Guides:---

🍎 Velvette Slang Masterlist : A humble guide to British / South London slang for fellow writers, from a British person with love x

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bapple writes / radiocotton / bluest monday = fic stuff

verity = my Hazbin OC 🐰

bapple chats / bapple goofs / bapple's art / bapple draws / q&a etc = me messin' about or doodlin' or answerin'

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Do you think about me when you're all alone? The things we used to do, we used to be, I could be the one to make you feel that way, I could be the one to set you free

Do you think about me when the crowd is gone? It used to be so easy, you and me, I could be the one to make you feel that way, I could be the one to set you free

I Could Be The One - Avicii, Nicky Romero

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[bapple117]

well hey would you look at that

I made this blog a year ago when I started posting fanfic actively again, mostly just as a place to dump my OC art and randomly have a presence online to go along side the story I was writing at the time, which was a Hazbin fic. From there, I went on to make my discord server just over a month later, and since then I’ve grown a really lovely little community & branched out in terms of what I post & what fandoms I’m active in.

This time last year I was the lowest I’ve been mentally in a very, very long time. A lot was happening in my life and my brain just collapsed with overwhelm. It wasn’t even depression as such, it was like pure burn out. I was sub-human. Only capable of existing and listening to music and watching things. I dove into fandom stuff as an escape and coping mechanism, and I truly think in a lot of ways it saved me.

I’m doing a lot better now, and a huge part of that is thanks to having made amazing friends & the fact I’ve been able to achieve catharsis through my writing. For me it’s always been about a lot more than just writing fanfics / making fanart and getting it “seen”. This has been a holistic hobby for me, almost a kind of therapy, and my stories are a small piece of the heart I wear on my sleeve. I know that sounds overly deep and ridiculous to say, but it’s true. I think we all recoil from earnestness and dub it as cringe or “deeping it”, but that’s a reflex caused by insecurity, and our own fears of being perceived. Sometimes it’s okay to be earnest and express yourself in a meaningful way. I’d argue it’s actually essential.

Not to put my sincere hat on or anything. But… yeah. Thanks to all of you who follow me on here, I hope I can keep making silly posts that make you laugh for another year or two yet :)

[bapple117]

I’m on the discord but since I should not be awake right now I’m submitting this anonymously (you’ll never catch me)

BUT we are all content to wait if you need to take some time to rest and refocus ♥️ pauses in the creative process happen from time to time and you were putting out SO MUCH for SO LONG I think you can be forgiven for stepping back and taking a bit of a break now (ALSO NOT JUST FORGIVEN BUT VERY MUCH ENCOURAGED TO IF ITS NEEDED)

We love you and many of us are in the discord not just for your works but to hang out and chill because you’re sweet and fun and have put together a lovely community for people to gather and discuss this show and grow closer to each other and you ♥️

IN CONCLUSION BE KIND TO YOURSELF WE WILL WAIT AS LONG AS NEEDED THANKS LOVE YOU HAVE A GREAT DAY 🥰

To whoever this was, thank you so much. I promise I read it when you posted it, and have re-read it a few times since, I've just been a bit avoidant about answering my inbox due to some pesky ol' anxiety

I think a break was really needed, to be honest! I'm starting to feel the desire to write coming back to me now and I really really want to get the story finished.

Thank you so much for the kind words and the support, it means more than you can ever know. 💜

[bapple117]

being a bit raw™️ on main for a sec but I actually had a bit of a lil cry earlier because I finished my first ever full fic for the first time this week and I ?? like ?? I'll never get to experience that rush again of just LIVING and BREATHING that story. I wrote 110k words in 3 weeks, I was barely sleeping / eating (not supes healthy but w/e) and like laying in bed writing love scenes with music on my headphones just so so in love with the story I was making. I literally poured my HEART into this story, so much of what the characters feel comes from MY soul lmao I'm being so dramatic BUT

And now I'm worried that I won't feel that way about anything else I write again or no one cares about the continuation but I guess I need to remember to write for mySELF first? Like as soon as it's for external validation then it isn't right anymore y'know?

I wrote this story for myself first and foremost, I wrote the story I'D want to read and I'm so proud of it. I've never felt that way about any art I've made ever. I've always been a writer, ever since I was a little kid but this is the first time in my life I feel like I actually DID something with it and it's goddamn fanfiction LMAO

Anyway yeah just a lot of feelings. I'll never forget the night I wrote the first love scene with that pearly drops song playing on loop in my headphones and I was just so IMMERSED into the story and the characters. Happy sigh I guess but I just hope I feel that way about something else one day :) And I hope people actually read the part two bc I have some real GOOD shit I wanna do in there like guys you don't understand the angst and pining is going to be ELITE like UGH I just wanna spoil all the plot points LOL

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I just wanna say I’m super grateful for all the moots and sweet lovely people I’ve met and talk to on here. Thank you for always interacting with my posts and reading my fics and sending me fan art & other things, it means the world. The last couple months of my life have been some of the hardest I’ve ever had and I am leaning HEAVILY into this fandom & writing & making fandom content as a coping mechanism, and I feel so at home here and SEEN and cared about.

Thank you all sm 😭 the Hazbin family is so special and ily all ❤️

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dude your bluest monday fic is honest to god one of the most greatest and well written pieces of fanfiction i have read throughout my days. Its so good, the characters are so good and my heart freakin Aches for them so badly. Keep up the amazing work and i cannot wait to see what comes next!! (Chapter 13 really killed me bruh))

WAAAAAAHHHHHHHHH THANK YOU SO SO MUCH AHDHSJDHSKJHDKSHFKJHFKJHDK

GAH. Thank you thank you thank you so much for reading!! It makes me so happy to hear people like it and enjoy it ARUGHG

I promise I will fix the hurt!! Eventually!! please hold on tight

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https://www.tiktok.com/t/ZTLrWqLQc/

its not quite the vibe of blue monday but I thought it was very very important that you see this!!!

Chapter 4 of Bluest Monday will be up later gang! LMAO

Please send me all the radiostatic content you find y'all, it fuels me I need it FEED ME