well hey would you look at that
I made this blog a year ago when I started posting fanfic actively again, mostly just as a place to dump my OC art and randomly have a presence online to go along side the story I was writing at the time, which was a Hazbin fic. From there, I went on to make my discord server just over a month later, and since then I’ve grown a really lovely little community & branched out in terms of what I post & what fandoms I’m active in.
This time last year I was the lowest I’ve been mentally in a very, very long time. A lot was happening in my life and my brain just collapsed with overwhelm. It wasn’t even depression as such, it was like pure burn out. I was sub-human. Only capable of existing and listening to music and watching things. I dove into fandom stuff as an escape and coping mechanism, and I truly think in a lot of ways it saved me.
I’m doing a lot better now, and a huge part of that is thanks to having made amazing friends & the fact I’ve been able to achieve catharsis through my writing. For me it’s always been about a lot more than just writing fanfics / making fanart and getting it “seen”. This has been a holistic hobby for me, almost a kind of therapy, and my stories are a small piece of the heart I wear on my sleeve. I know that sounds overly deep and ridiculous to say, but it’s true. I think we all recoil from earnestness and dub it as cringe or “deeping it”, but that’s a reflex caused by insecurity, and our own fears of being perceived. Sometimes it’s okay to be earnest and express yourself in a meaningful way. I’d argue it’s actually essential.
Not to put my sincere hat on or anything. But… yeah. Thanks to all of you who follow me on here, I hope I can keep making silly posts that make you laugh for another year or two yet :)