I WANNA BE YOUR GF! ミ★ barbara
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cw: pining, fem reader (this is very much wlw), barbara is a little bit scared of being attracted to a woman but she realizes that it’s okay, sorta angst to major sickening fluff, barbara has sort of internal homophobia in the beginning
a/n: i have a crush on her i just wanna give her kisses all over her face and just pat her head :( this is just a short little thing not really having a full on plot
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barbara grew up believing that she was wrong for the things she felt. every time you came to the cathedral to give her some fruits from your family’s garden, barbara’s heart would stop. her face would heat up and she could barely speak without stuttering. part of her wanted to stuff these feelings deep into the darkest parts of her and never think of it ever again, but she knew that wasn’t possible.
barbara would find herself praying to barbatos at night, praying that he’d guide her into “the right side” but her prayers were always unanswered.
so when you came to give her fruit, she asked if she could talk to you for a moment.
“what’s up, barbara?” you asked softly as you sat under the windrise tree, the soft breeze giving the outdoors a nice touch.
barbara’s eyes softened as she avoided eye contact. “i think.. i’m not fit to be in the cathedral..” she spoke softly, her voice breaking a little.
your eyes softened as you gently held her hand. “why do you say that?” you asked, your voice gentle as you felt her squeeze your hand.
“because.. i’m sinning.. i-i’m thinking about you a lot.. in the way i should be thinking of a man..” she confessed, tears beginning to run down her cheeks. your heart shattered at the sight and you gently pulled her into a hug.
“nothing’s wrong with how you feel.. barbatos would never judge you for something like that..” you reassured her, stroking her hair softly as she cried onto your chest. “it’s perfectly okay.. you’re not sinning just because you think about another woman..”
barbara continued to cry onto your chest, sniffling softly after a moment as she sat up. she looked at you softly, her breath hitching as you caressed her cheek. “do you mean it?.. is it really okay to feel this way?” she asked softly, her voice breaking a little.
“more than okay..” you said softly. you smiled when you saw barbara calm down. you gently wiped her tears away, kissing the tears away.
“i love you..” barbara admitted softly, leaning into your touch as you caressed her cheek.
you smiled softly as you heard her words, and you couldn’t help but feel the urge to kiss her on her forehead. and so you did. you chuckled softly as you saw her face redden, acting all shy. “i love you too..” you said sweetly, wiping her remaining tears.
“what does this mean, now?” she asked softly, looking at you with those soft eyes you adored so much.
“this means that i’m yours.. and you’re mine.” you spoke, your voice gentle as you kissed the tip of her nose.
“i.. i’d like that..” barbara admitted, blushing as she held your hand.
it took a while, but barbara managed to gain the courage to tell her sister.
jean of course supported barbara unconditionally, and even hugged her as she uttered the words, “i’m so proud of you..” you remembered how barbara basically bawled her eyes out to you that night simply because she felt so loved.
and eventually.. you two decided to have your first date in the city as a couple. of course you two were nervous, you two were going out as a couple instead of pretending to be just two girl friends hanging out.
barbara’s eyes lit up as she met up with you near the city’s fountain. “you look lovely..” she said softly as she reached out to hold hands with you. you gladly took her hand in yours beginning to walk together.
“you look good too..” you said softly as you looked at her outfit, a simple blue and white dress similar to the one you were so used to seeing her in. you even noticed she was wearing a little bit of makeup too. she looked so cute and you wanted to just kiss her pretty face, but you knew better. “can we stop for food? i haven’t eaten lunch yet..”
barbara nodded. “can i pay for it?” she asked, her thumb brushing on your hand sweetly.
you pouted a little as the two of you walked. “are you sure? i don’t want you to feel like you need to spend your money on me..” you spoke softly, your tone a little shy as you looked at her sweetly.
“i know i don’t need to.. i want to.. i want to spoil you today..” barbara said as you stopped near good hunter. she looked at you softly before looking around before giving you a sweet kiss.
you smiled as you wrapped your arms around her waist, looking at her softly after she pulled away from the kiss. “i’ll let you spoil me.. just this once.” you said before kissing her on the cheek.














