The Only Place I can Vent Safely.
Okay, so please just note a lot of this is childhood pain and internal battles. So, I'm an equestrian. I've working with horses since I was 7 and recently decided to get serious about riding. So, after years of stable hand work, I saved up and started the lessons. I've been battling with leg issues that have kept me from moving forward without extra help. And right now I'm not taking any just because I'm trying to pay a 1,000$ trip to NY. Well, my little cousin has decided to start riding. And I'm upset about it because when I was little I wanted to ride and take lessons. But, my mom and dad couldn't do it. My grandparents however are pretty well off. And were when I was younger. Never got the lessons. So being unable to ride hurts. I miss my old lesson horse and wanna see her lazy butt soon again. I was getting much better at things, it just took time. Anywho. My cousin hasn't had ANY work with horses. Not even books! My shelf if 80% horse 20% other. I worked in a stable for awhile, dealt with wheeling shit up to the top of the hill, and going back down for more. I've dealt with feeding, nasty horses, shoeing, everything. Shoot! I was nearly killed by a horse because I was right behind him when he started kicking and flaring around! I've done so much more in my equestrian career than my cousin. And not to mention, I've gottwn 2 other equestrian family members. They've gone through it all too. Yet, here's my cousin who gets her way all the time and brags and is spoiled. I feel like I was robbed of so much by her deciding she wanted to. So you know what? All money from mowing, birthday, etc. That's going straight into lessons because I need to ride and I'm going to show my cousin who's boss in the arena.








