#basically venting

[mrtoothpick64]

repost from my other socials based on an ask I received through my Strawpage 💪💪💪

[moophywowie]

cw for mental health talk

/nbh hey I know that i’m just a silly blog who has no consistent post schedule, but I wanted to do some seriousposting tonight. (this kinda turns into me venting so uh,,,)

this is just a reminder to check up on the people who you care about, and make sure you know that words can hurt. They can hurt like thousands of cuts at once, even if you don’t notice.

but, you can’t just say nothing to them. You can’t live in silence. So even if you say the wrong thing, you need to be there to show that you still care about them, even if you hurt them on accident. Don’t brush it off. Let them know, listen to them. Learn from your wrongs instead of turning them into rights.

I literally just had a breakdown over a passing comment someone made, and they didn’t brush it off, call me sensitive, or make it seem less serious. They listened to me, asked if we could touch to try and ground me, and talked. They tried to understand where I was. They listened to me. They kept me up here. Neither of us knew this would happen, I had just reached my breaking point of keeping it together for the day.

you’ve probably heard the metaphor of how you can feel like you’re going underwater if your headspace just isn’t safe anymore, right? Don’t be what shoves them under even farther. Be the lifesaver, or even just try and throw it to them.

To reiterate, don’t be the straw that breaks the camel’s back. /nbh

[lux420]

i havent written poetry in months and this is what i puled out of my asshole today enjyo

you fill me up forever you broke every single bone you choked out my lungs in me you dug a home out of my muddy slick material fashioned only from the stars and the bile that sit there settling beneath my buried heart you dug it out and upwards stared at me like prized meat and i your loving baby sat patient by your seat was blinded by the sunlight of your iridescent smile or the moonlight swaying lazily underneath the violet sky i had said it before babe that i was surprised that no monsters then drew near on that hallowed tuesday night you filled me with saltwater dude touched me like i was dear to you i felt everything i could for you i searched for any way to save you but you never looked behind or said goodbye and in my feeble attempts to restore any friendship that could have come out of this i’m reminded that i was always nothing even on that night when your fingers brushed my spine i thought nobody in their right mind could lie about this i asked you for answers but was always dismissed and how in the hell do i think of you still wonder what you’re up to see you sometimes in my dreams maybe we’re crying or hating on refried beans (yuck) in one of them i saw you across the street and we talked for a little bit

[pleasecallmestarlord]

I DID NOT SIGN UP FOR THIS! I'VE GOT MY PERIOD AGAIN AND IT'S NOT EVEN FEBRUARY YET! THE DEAL WAS ONCE A MONTH! WHAT IS THIS!?

[assassinfromthebalkans-blog]

On reason for hiatus and annoyances involving the roleplaying world/ fandom. 

All these having been said, I'll probably come back in a matter of days. Still, I had to get this out of my system, it's incredibly stressful and I honestly am tired of it all. 

Yes, your blogs are your own. Yes, you might post whatever you want. But please, oh, please take into consideration that this is a community, and therefore, mutual respect is required! 

Roleplaying is, in big measure, about consent, about communication, about respecting one another's decisions. And this is what many of you fail to understand and respect. 

I understand, I have been here for little, only half an year, but still, there is so much that's going on and is morally wrong and stressful, that I can't help but want to vent. And I'm not even going to mention the anon hate going on around. 

Here's the list of stuff that I think is wrong. There might be even more than this, but I can't possibly gather everything in a single post. 

Let us start with the basis: PLOTTING. Now, I know, threads are either winged or plotted before start, in detail. Either way, I believe it's of high importance for the people involved in a thread to talk, mun to mun, about what is to happen. Whatever will happen with the characters needs consent. I have seen muses here that don't plot at all, and let me tell you, it can get uncomfortable for the other roleplayer involved. Please take this into account. 

Now, let's continue with the next... problems. I'll group them all here. These are metagaming, godmodding, autohitting. The latter two are related, meaning that one roleplayer takes control over the other's character without consent; while godmodding implies that the other character did some things he may or may not have actually done, autohitting means one person deciding that their character wounds the other, again, without proper former discussions. Metagaming is having your character know things they are not supposed to know about others, with no proper reason to. Also, even if they were spies, or had a means to know some things, they are implied to know far more than they should, completely ignoring the other characters' background. I think we can all agree these are all wrong. Most people have a rule where they state they don't tolerate these. 

Which brings me to my next point: rules pages. They are there for a reason, and if one is to roleplay with another, one should read that page and respect the aspects written there. 

There is also an item that should, teoretically, be touched only by the roleplayers of age: smutting. Many of us smut, and we all have our rules concerning when, with who, where. Please take this into account when wanting it. While I personally don't see smutting as a central part of roleplaying, I understand there are people who do. But I want everyone to understand, consent is vital. Insistence is not wanted. While some will write that sort of threads with anyone or anytime, others prefer proper development that leads to it, have characters that prefer only one other gender (or none), or simply won't smut (orrefuse to do it on the dashes / in pivate). Do not force us to do whatever you want. Please. In real life it would be sexual assault, and it isn't any less important in here, just because it's the muse that's involved. There are real people behind the characters, and they can feel attacked. 

Linked with smutting, are, usually, ships. You can like whatever you want, you can dislike whatever you like, but DO NOT BASH THE SHIPS AND SHIPPERS. I doubt this needs further explanations. Many people tag their OTPs, you have a problem, either unfollow or use Tumblr Savior. 

Passive-aggressiveness... is another way for many to bash. Many call it venting, but it's getting to the point where it's just plain old bullying. It's not cool. From saying "oc x sucks" to "I hate this ship" or even other things indirectly directed to other muns, but which can make people feel bad. It's just rude. 

Ah yes. White knighting. Usually generated either by the formerly mentioned passive aggressiveness or by benevolent friends who want to attack the person who bothered their friend. It is a form of bullying, which very often goes hand in hand with anon hate. Because, honestly, I rarely saw white knighting done in a decent, calm way. 

Bashing OCs openly.... because they're OCs. Especially female ones. The terms Mary Sue and Gary Stu are frequently misused in the roleplaying world, and this can shatter many people's self confidence. While you have the right to dislike another character, as long as you are not able to send asked for, constructive criticism, you can very well not send it. Just unfollow. There are so many things good old ufollow can solve, you wouldn't believe! 

Pressing your character onto another (forcing ships). Again, consent is vital. Stop forcing the other character to sleep with yours, do stuff with yours, fall in love with yours when the mun doesn't agree / the character has no intention to do that whatsoever. Ask for permission and plot this, first of all, if you want a ship. Otherwise it's forcing the other mun's hand. 

The anons forcing a ship to happen.... it's not gonna happen out of your will. It's the involved muns' decision. 

The mun's morals are not the muse's morals! Stop bashing people for their characters' decisions. 

Not tagging triggers. This is basic Tumblr etiquette. People are sensitive to various subjects, therefore trigger tags are highly needed. I, for example, am very sensitive to animal cruelty, so, when I see that, my mood instantly drops. Please use the tags. 

Saying "it's my blog and I run it however I want". It's partially true. You also have to be respectful and take into account the fact that some people might be bothered by certain things. Tags are a way to avoid conflicts. 

Insistence (asking more times for smut, threads, constantly reminding another person that they owe). Once is enough. 

I think it can be seen how much I mentioned mun to mun communication and consent are. I't because they are key elements. Also, please respect each other and each other's wishes! 

Thanks. 

[alexintheskyy]

So, today at school, I knew from the second I walked in that today would be hell.

I walked in with my best friend, Waffle, (his real name's Jason, never mind that, though) and we passed by a group of guys and I saw Miguel there, in the cinnamon hoodie, laughing with his friends, and then suddenly he stopped and saw me, really saw me. 

Maybe he saw how sad I was in my eyes. He always told me he could see everything in my eyes, what I was thinking, and what I was feeling. 

His mouth twitched as he continued looking at me.  

I sighed, and continued walking with Waffle, as Miguel's new girlfriend scooted over to him, hugging him close. 

Then in sixth hour, I was just sitting there in Life Skills, sewing my pillow at the machine, talking to my friend Alex. (ha, i know, we're friends and have the same name) 

She was talking about who would look cute with who, and then she said she didn't know who this girl who's totally mean would be cute with. 

Now, this girl is a total psycho chick who I had a fight with two years ago, that I can't even remember, which she is still holding onto, and bullying me for it. 

Alex must have been looking at the girl or something because she screams, 

"If you have something to say, say it to my face!!!!" 

Me and Alex both kinda shared a look like what the actual fuck. 

Then, we were both quiet and the girl is like "I know you're talking about me. I know she's saying things. I hate her, she hates me!!" 

She was pointing at me. 

At this point, I was fed up. She bullies me all the time and gets away with it. 

"I wasn't saying anything about you!!! I wasn't even talking!!!" I shouted. 

And then Alex went over there to try and smooth things over and then the girls over there and they accused her of calling them whores (which she didn't.) 

sigh. 

Don't you love school?