#bbleh

[nu1lst4rs]

@funtime29nm 's (royal au) sona!!1!!2!!

for a lil art trade.. erm. okay yeah. runs away.

[cambriancrew]

It's that time of day when usually the rattie boys would have been waking up from their afternoon/evening naps and I'd have been setting up the room divider to block off the hallway and kitchen and make sure everything in the living/dining room area is safe and okay for them to come out and run around and climb into and onto things and play and snuggle and... They're not here and I'm anxious [presumably for no reason except now I know the reason] and while I know they're gone, having that vague feeling that I now recognize as their absence from their usual timespace is a decidedly uncomfortable facet of The Grieving Process and I want it to STOP.

... So I spent the last hour looking at dogs from the local animal shelter and deciding which one(s) I'd be most likely to want to adopt and then since the one I'm most drawn to is a pit bull terrier, such a beautiful little girldog, also looking up what cities in the area have local laws against "bully breeds".

Which did not exactly make me feel better because that is something I want, not something I HAVE or even can have at this point in time but better than sitting on the futon in the living room in a strong but vague discomfortableness...

[bonestorm7]

life is shit tbh

[dnafullver]

i lost some followers

[dnafullver]

im not sure if i wanna move using the same url i have now or a new one

[stormbreaker-290]

Guh

[corefen]

I'm at that weird point of bring v awake but also unwilling to get up but also don't believe I could fully enjoy doing anything without showering and finding food

[bpd-charadreemurr]

i k eep s eeing it happen ov er and ov er and iidk i just want to die i wo nt have to drink charcoal again if i just d i e i w ont call anyone no one c an make m e do anything