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And the baby bump is starting to show!!! 👶🏼💜 🌺beafreehippie

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Hey followers (:

Hello my dearest followers! I'm sorry for my lack of posting and my absence. It's been a hectic year! But a good one at that. I've been experiencing life and finding myself as a person as well as growing my family(:. A little update on what's happening in my world, my girlfriend and I just had our year anniversary and she asked me to marry her! (: so next July we will be tying the knot. Our daughter will be 6 months on Monday! I have no idea where the time has gone. So I've just been wrapped up in the family life, and staying away from social media for the most part. Anyways I just wanted to let you all know I haven't forgotten about you! Life just gets busy. Also hello to my new followers!! (: Stay happy and keep positive vibes in your heart! 🌺beafreehippie

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So if you already aren't following my Instagram feed you should be! (: because that's where I post the most when it comes to the picture version of my life. (: so go hit that follow button my fellow tumblr loves! Sending good vibes. 🌺beafreehippie

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I am a gypsy, a gypsy is a wild thing, like a bird, uncaged and restless. Hold me tight and put me in a cage and i will break free and never look back. For I am all fire and freedom, I am the first mist before dawn, I am a rushing river and thunder and storm. I am not a delicate rose but a strong, fearless wildflower, roots deep in the wild earth, petals open to the wild rain. I love violently and with every part of my being, i will fight for what i loves as a natural warrior, and i will gently kiss away fears and sing a sleepy lulluby. I am all adventure and untamed fury, but something not everyone knows how to understand, for I am something that the world has forgotten to see. 🌻🍃🌲🍄 🌺beafreehippie

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Your eyes show the strength of your soul. 😍✨ 🌺beafreehippie

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Everyone's over here like "oh, yay I got flowers and a teddy bear and the best boyfriend/girlfriend ever" and I'm just over here like "thanks netflix for always having my back, and I can't wait for the chocolate to be 50% off tomorrow" oh the joys of single life at least I save a bunch of money and emotions by chillin with netflix 😆😆😄😁 🌺beafreehippie

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Tonight.

I don’t smoke cigarettes, but tonight feels like one of those times when I want to sit outside on the steps, stare at the stars, and smoke. No interruptions. Simply me, and the stars with a silent reminder that I am merely a speck of stardust. All of my worries, miscommunications and joys mixed with self-doubt are so little in comparison to that cold dark sky studded with constellations which we—humans—have named, trying to bring understanding to something so uncontrollable. Yet I do have control. I am not blowing smoke, or holding a cigarette so the red coal burns at the tip—a small fire in the darkness like the silent stars above me. As I sit on the cold concrete stairs, I imagine how our bodies are made of stardust collected as the Earth passes on her journey through the Solar System, so that the dust settles into our atmosphere, slipping into the cycles of water and air. And this body of mine—who does not smoke cigarettes, but breathes in the cool air, deeply—feels like stardust tonight. As if being a speck of stardust for a moment is the only thing that puts all of my worries, miscommunications and joys mixed with self-doubt into perspective because I am so little compared to what’s up there. I will never have all the answers to all the questions, and that’s hard for someone like me who wants to put all the chaos of my life into perfectly ordered constellations—a moment of stillness in which just to reflect. And yet, the pure madness of it all is that those constellations such as Orion with his arrow constantly aimed at the Bull are filled with so many chaotic explosions. They are bursts of light becoming my solace on nights such as tonight when I want to sit outside on the cold concrete steps, stare at the stars and smoke, but I breathe instead. 🌻beafreehippie

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Friends or foes? The hallucinations don't serve you  The justice that you deserve. The feelings of being Watched, are they real? Or is the darkness just as fake as your world?  The scratches on your body are not from the hidden monsters in your head, But from the nails of your own hands.  (They made me do it.) And as the dark, twisted plot that is Your mind distorts your reality, AI will be there reminding you that it Is all a dream,  But is it a dream? Tell me about the monsters. Do they hide under your eyelids while you sleep? Do they call you names when you're sad? Are they killing you? Tell me that you'll be strong and power through the horror and that the demons cannot overpower you,  Because I know it isn't your fault. Your brain is wired to make enemies, Whether they're real or not. ♡beafreehippie