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Absolutely adore my bedroom ❤️❤️

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beds: last one

I almost forgot I’m so tired this isn’t going to make any sense be happy I’m doing this on my phone bc autocorrect is fixing like every word I type rn

Someone told me one time that all the friends she’s made ((seahorses)) are proof that everything happens for a reason. That she shouldn’t know a kid in the us named Elizabeth or that she has a brother she calls Natasha. She shouldn’t know there’s an Emily and a Caroline and a Jamie and all these people all over the world. I shouldn’t know that any of you exist. And so much depends upon all the little things that brought me here that I have to agree. I think there’s no way this was all a coincidence. That I found out about the lbd a few months after reading p&p, that I became involved in the fandom, joined hangouts, got even more involved, and made friends with people everywhere and it’s really crazy when you think about how easy it would have been to not know the people you know now. Like she said, she shouldn’t know that I exist. If all those things hadn’t happened, I wouldn’t know any of you ((unless Abby’s reading this. In that case, hey Abby. Ily.)). I could walk by you at some point and you’d just be a stranger. It’s terrifying, but that much more amazing that I do know you.

I can’t keep my eyes open for very long and it’s 11:57, but I want whoever is reading this to know that I’m honored to know you. Whether you’re Abby or Caroline or Emily or Jamie or Salma or Ruby or Amelia or Megan or Alison or Hannah or Laura or whoever, it’s a pleasure knowing you exist. Thank you for existing and for being you.

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I DID ART THINGS TODAY AND I HAVE TO MAKE LIKE FOUR CARDBOARD AIRPLANES AND DRAW A LOT OF ROCKS AND SCULPT A THING GOTTA GO TWO MINUTES HAVE A LOVELY DAY

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beds: a thing

so a few days ago was my birthday and I didn’t have a party bc time and my friends are always busy doing other stuff so I was like whatever

Today my mom took Natasha and I to an engineering expo at the mall after school which was actually p cool. We got some free posters for one of Natasha’s teachers and stuff. Then we went to the post office to mail Emily a thing.

Then we went home and it was like idk 6 or 7 maybe idk. And there’s thing thing with our house where sometimes the light doesn’t work in the bathroom and you have to go press a button in the basement, and my mom told me to go press it which I protested bc I had to show Natasha last time, but eventually I succumbed and made my way making comments about my mistreatment etc ((all in ood fun ofc)) when BOOM PEOPKE EVERYWHERE AND MY FRIENDS FROM SCHIOOL OH LOOK THERES AN ALANA AND A JENNIFER AND A BECCA AND A CLAUDIA AND AN ABBY AND PEOPLE EVERYWETHER

I fell backwards and used the poster I was carrying with me as a shield. I hit my head on the door and it took my about 30 minutes to accept that there were actually people in my basement that I wasn’t expecting bc /no/.

I don’t like surprises the little shits have been planning this for like a week. But srsly it was really nice of them and I’d never have expected it, because they’re all busy and stuff and idk ive never considered myself important enough that people to actually plan a party for. So that was really surprising and flattering.

My phone got lost in the party and idk what happened I haven’t even read all the tweets that were sent out yet, so if you saw some weird stuff from my twitter that was probably one of my friends.

I’m really tired so I’m pribs just going to sleep bc I’ve got to do a ton of art stuff tomorrow byeeeeee

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beds: ten things i want to do in my lifetime

this is pretty difficult ((of course bc caroline suggested it)) because it's an actual list. not just like "i want to be the best person i can be" or whatever, but actual specific things that i want to do and i've never really thought much about that before. another reason it's difficult is that there are things i'd do without hesitation (e.g. save someone from a falling tree) but not that i'd put on a list of things i want to do, because i dont want that person i theoretically save to ever be in that situation. i dont want to to save someone's life in my lifetime because i never want that person's life to be endangered. but if i someone needed saving i like to think i'd do it without hesitation. idk it's confusing. the other thing is because of that whole idea, a lot of this is about me and not about helping other people. which is difficult. this is a tangent im moving on~

in no particular order:

1. visit italy. ive studied a ton of italian history and culture with latin and outside of school for my own enjoyment, and i'd love (like omg im crying in venice and pompeii and rome and herculaneum and naples dont tOUCH ME) to actually see the stuff i learn about.

2. read thomas aquinas' summa theologica. because omg thomas aquinas.

3. not have a dog. ever.

4. help people see how important they are. because everyone's important but no one seems to believe it.

5. drink champagne while eating guacamole. even though it might taste gross.

6. finish watching ten.

7. stuff you all into a car and go to dc with caroline driving bc she likes driving in cities.

8. bask in the glory of a life-sized (clear) gummy bear.

9. see punch brothers in concert. *screams* aHOY

10. meet all the people i've met in the past few months that i've never been able to see in person. because they're amazing and beautiful and it would be cool to be able to throw candy corn at them whenever i want. 

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beds: age

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i said i'd write about this and my homework is all done so here we go

i don't really think of age as particularly important. like all it means is that you've lived 365 days multiplied by whatever number, not including leap years. turning 15 or 17 or 30 or 72 doesn't automatically make you more mature or knowledgeable. i know a 5 year old kid i can talk about symbolism in narnia and lord of the rings with. i know 17 year old kids who don't know how to graph a straight line, and 16 year olds getting an a in calculus.

obviously age is important for some things. you cant drink until youre 21 ((in the us)) so it doesnt mess up your growing brain or whatever, which makes some sense i suppose ((i cant really have an opinion as i havent done enough research on the topic, but you get the idea)), so in that situation knowing a person's age is important. it's a marker for development. most 5 year old kids wouldn't be able to do college level latin translations. could a special ridiculously intelligent 5 year old do it? maybe. but most couldn't, so it isn't taught. age is important there. 

in romantic relationships it's pretty important because like a 15 year old dating a 40 year old truck driver would be not okay ((or you know a high school student dating her english teacher. but i digress.))

otherwise, age is pretty irrelevant. at least to me. just because i havent been alive as long as someone else doesnt mean we cant be friends, and just because i've been living longer than someone doesn't mean i dont think theyre super cool and that i dont have something to learn from them. i can have conversations with 40 year olds, though most seem to find the notion of actually conversing with a teenager repulsive. just because i'm 15 or 16 or whatever doesn't mean i'm an idiot, and it def doesn't mean i can't have a conversation with older people because tbh most of them are pretty disappointing.

there are probably only a few adults i know that are more mature than the typical girl or guy at my school. i've seen adults be petty, obnoxious, selfish, and immature to my mom, dad, brother, myself, and each other. it's ridic. and you'll hear people say stuff like "this isn't middle school," which at first i agree with bc middle school sucked, but when i think about it there isn't much of a difference between middle schoolers and adults when it comes to drama, at least in my experience. ((i'm beginning to think it may be the people who live in this area of the country, but idk. still testing that theory.)) 

my thoughts are sort of scattered on here and my mom is looking at me trying to figure out why i'm typing so much, so i'll have to leave this here. but basically, age doesn't make a person better or worse than anyone else. their choices and actions are what determine their maturity. 

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